scarlz123
- Date posted
- 2y
Memory Hoarding?
Does anyone else experience memory hoarding OCD? I feel like I’m the only one.
Meg JohnsonMeg Johnson
- Date posted
- 2y
Yes.
scarlz123scarlz123
- Date posted
- 2y
@Meg Johnson What is it like for you?
NotSoNewb82NotSoNewb82
- Date posted
- 2y
I fact hoard but I have mild autism so maybe there is no link to OCD.
scarlz123scarlz123
- Date posted
- 2y
@Newb82 Ah okay. I write down a lot of random stuff (facts / things people say / jokes etc) but mainly because I’m scared I’ll never have the thought again / won’t remember it otherwise. What compels you to fact hoard?
BeeleebopBeeleebop
- Date posted
- 2y
I have. I would replay a specific memory in my head time after time until it felt “right” and I could stop
scarlz123scarlz123
- Date posted
- 2y
@Bailey101 That sounds really exhausting. My kind of memory hoarding is quite different. Rather than actually fixating on memories, I believe my brain blocks them out. So for me it’s more that I am distressed by the desire to have all my memories accessible at once, if that makes sense?
InkJoy123InkJoy123
- Date posted
- 2y
Yes I do to prove to my false memories that they r indeed false
scarlz123scarlz123
- Date posted
- 2y
@InkJoy123 Ok ok I get you. I don’t believe I suffer with false memories but I’m not sure - can you tell me more about your experience with it? I often feel like a lot of my childhood is planted memories because I can’t remember most of it first hand. Makes me feel very disconnected / disassociated from some family members.
InkJoy123InkJoy123
- Date posted
- 2y
@scarlz123 So when I started having my real events and feeling guilty over them, I started to question if I have more real events I don't remember much about. My mind started to create these scenarios, some not as intense as others, and some seeming so believable and possible that they feel real. I have no way of knowing if its real or not or if I'm in denial. So when these come up, I try my best to remember or write down my actual ones cause I believe if I did do what my false memories are showing me, I would have known from the beginning. This is when I started to hoard memories and thoughts for proof/comparing. I do not want to forget those and even now I'm afraid I have forgotten some. Alot of the memories I started to hoard or remember have started to be questioned as well which changed how they are so I don't remember how they were initially. I don't remember what my real events are really, if all I have written down is or if I'm forgetting. I don't know if memory hoarding is making it worse creating memories (most likely) or again I'm in denial. Hope I explained it well 🫂💕
Meg JohnsonMeg Johnson
- Date posted
- 2y
I do the same
scarlz123scarlz123
- Date posted
- 2y
I’ve done research on “false memory OCD” but it doesn’t seem to fit me. In short, I have convinced myself over 3 years that my memory doesn’t work anymore and so if I don’t document / write everything down I will forget it and become a shell of a person essentially. This terrifies me especially with my loved ones because I am so sentimental and I often feel disassociated from them because of this. I avoid memory hoarding through excessive journalling (which I used to do) because I know I’m just feeding the OCD but I am constantly facing debilitating distress and I literally feel sick when I can’t recall a memory. No one I know irl seems to understand it. Could go on for hours but that’s the crux of it all… if anyone relates!
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