Intrusive thoughts

Anyone else fear intrusive thoughts? I feel like my brain is stuck bc am so scared. I thought what if I want to act on my thoughts and I like it. I’ve checked to see if I was anxious enough while getting a thought. Felt guilty for questioning if I would act/ like a thought. Felt numb. Over analysed every thought. Thought what if my ocd tells me to do something bad. What if I plan something. Extreme fear of having Matt thoughts after this incase I accidentally think something on purpose. What if I am a bad person. What if all my thoughts aren’t what if. What if am using ocd as an excuse to have intrusive thoughts. Am so scared/ starting to feel numb. Scared to do anything incase I get intrusive thoughts scared to not do something incase it means I want to sit and think about the thoughts. Feel like I can’t cope and acted am going to get locked up for having intrusive thoughts.

humanperson

Date posted: 2y

I know the feeling well. Remember that feeling scared is not how a bad person would feel. That realization alone has helped me a lot.

worrier 24

Date posted: 2y

I’m scared am not scared enough of my thoughts or scared or accidentally thinking them on purpose scared of acted on thoughts scared of even thinking or questioning myself

humanperson

Date posted: 2y

@em24# I definitely get that feeling. Take a deep breath… these are just thoughts, they won’t suddenly materialize as a reality in front of you. You have had enough self control to not act upon anything, and that alone says a lot; you likely don’t truly want to act on any of these things, your mind is just fearful that you do “secretly”. But if secretly did, you’d be consciously aware of it, because your mind is yours, it can’t hide secrets from you, even if you feel like it can. Get some rest if you need it, drink some water, eat food if you need it, do some self care like take a shower. One thing that used to help me get these thoughts unstuck was taking a walk and having a conversation with a person I trusted. You don’t have to divulge exactly how your feeling, but if they’re trustworthy you can just say you’re feeling down and need a distraction. I hope you find something that helps because I know how tough it can be when you’re in the thick of it. Hang in there!

worrier 24

Date posted: 2y

I can’t stop crying I feel guilty for having these thoughts and I try and feel normal and talk to people but scared am secretly evil

humanperson

Date posted: 2y

@em24# I’m sending a boatload of comfort and compassion your way… I have felt exactly like this before and I know how painful it can feel. Remember that it will pass even if it doesn’t feel like it will right now. Think of your tears as a release.💗

worrier 24

Date posted: 2y

Thank you I hope I can get help I have an easement tomorrow

slickRick

Date posted: 2y

More like a bad thing is taking place and I have no clue what it is but I'm positive it is about me. Do you think you could be watched or all ways having someone keeping track of your every move not to be sure why

worrier 24

Date posted: 2y

@slickRick I’ve also had these thoughts and would sometimes cover up my cancer on my phone or worry about the way I act incase there’s a camera in the room been scared of doing something wrong. I’m not sure weather this is ocd or not although if you’re worrying about it a lot and overthinking/ avoided doing things to avoid anxiety then I would say so and that you need to try and get help.

humanperson

Date posted: 2y

@em24# Yup I’ve had similar thoughts of feeling surveilled. It’s related to trauma for me though and it morphed into some kind of scary OCD/PTSD hybrid. Very fun to deal with :P

Anonymous

Date posted: 24w

Intrusive thoughts

I’ve had many types of OCD, but I gained control over them over the years, but a new one has started to arise. Do y’all ever have scary thoughts about something you might do? Recently I’ll get extremely uncomfortable no matter where I am because I can’t stop thinking about “what if I screamed really loud in my lecture class tomorrow?” And other stupid stuff like that. Also, this one is kind of funny, but sometimes when I use the bathroom I pause before because I think “what if I’m actually in class right now?” I also cannot control the thoughts about past embarrassing moments. I know everyone does, but I will become visibly uncomfortable and harp on something from years ago. This happens all throughout the day. Also, does anyone else do things that resemble tics when you get these thoughts. Like when they happen I’ll curse under my breath or like jerk my head a little bit. When I’m in public I keep it low key but when I’m alone sometimes I’ll physically get up and pace or something when those thoughts happen. Just curious if anyone has had these experiences

lu22

Date posted: 23w

Suffering a lot, need advice, have no therapy 🙁🙁

I feel like this time I can’t pick myself back up. It felt too real like I don’t even belive it wasn’t real I fully feel like it was my own feeling and I genuinely felt that. I had stabbing intrusive thoughts, I imaginined it on purpose to test my reaction and then it felt like I know how it feels to physically do that action (stab someone) and I like how it feels then I was getting these urge feelings and it felt like I wanted it and then I was imagining the thoughts again about stabbing someoneI care about multiple times and then It suddenly felt like I was really happy about the thought and almost like I really enjoyed it and realised why evil people enjoy doing these things like I felt what they felt like I’ve discovered a ‘thrill’ feeling of doing that evil thing and I can’t get over it I can’t figure out why it felt like that and now I’m thinking because it felt like I liked it and it felt good I will be curious about being evil or want to be evil to feel that feeling again and it’s really messed up and I don’t know what to do everytime I think about it it feels like there is actually something wrong with me I no longer have anxiety or feel really worried about the thoughts I feel numb and that feeling is really making me feel bad like I can’t live normally now it feels like I am actually evil now and I don’t even know if I have morals or if i would be evil or not. Normally with my thoughts no matter how real it’s felt I’ve managed to convince myself why I had a certain feeling and why it’s not real and why I’m a good person but this time it actually feels like that feeling was from me and I actually felt really happy and enjoyed or got a thrill from the idea of doing that horrible thing like I can’t even say it feels real because I’m thinking it is real I don’t know what to do 🙁🙁I’ve had ocd for a few years but don’t get anxious anymore and this feels like I’m actually bad or would want to do it because of that feeling

Schoolie93

Date posted: 14w

Intrusive thoughts & Panic

Hello does anyone get such severe panic and anxiety that comes along with bad intrusive thoughts. Then the thoughts give you more panic because you feel you may act on them? Then I worry I’m going crazy, can anyone relate? Thank for reading

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