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Do you have family and friends close by who can help support you, not just emotionally but financially? At least for a little while as you start rebuilding your life?
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- 6y
I’m 26 and live with my parents and grandma. We lost a lot of money after I went to college and they are paying my debts right now as well so we are even struggling to get food money for groceries. Our relatives left us out of inheritance so no one else can help. My parents sold a car so my dad is using mine. I’m pretty much stranded at home.
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- 6y
At least you have a roof over your head and loved ones close by! That’s a tough situation, but I’m glad to hear you have that.
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- 6y
I have friends who hang out sometimes and ones I can call as well. I just can’t help but feel so violated. I feel like I’m looking at a stranger now not my boyfriend of almost a year. Sorry for the details, he would even ask me to get naked on Skype and masturbate for him. Now that I know he’s such a liar and horrible guy who used to seek revenge against me in fights, I’m terrified that I was so vulnerable with him and my body. Again my OCD is kicking in with the fear of being blackmailed or something bad. I’m scared of the man I used to trust and love.
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- 6y
I’m so sorry for what you’ve been through. That’s a very normal and understandable reaction.
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I found his ex girlfriend that he lied about. He said she was a flight attendant. She said she found out he was married and chased her everyday after that. He told her today I was just a rebound and he loves her. He messaged me and told me he will give a friend my stuff but he threatened me and said to stop trying to contact him and that if I want war he will start. The ex said he is a real psychopath. He twisted it around and said he tried so many times to break up but I didn’t listen. Instead of actually breaking up he kept going and still professed his love. He is sick and doesn’t want to be alone. He told me once when angry he wish I was dead. Even though he’s a foreigner in another country I have fears now he will retaliate and try and stalk me one day like he is with the other ex girlfriend. I haven’t slept or eaten in days and I just threw up in the bathroom
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- 6y
You should definitely stop contacting him. A clean break is important for your safety and mental health. Focus on grieving what’s been lost and sitting with all of the bad feelings that are coming up because of this. You gotta feel then to get through then and heal. This is probably going to hurt for awhile. But one day you’ll wake up and realize it hurts a little less. And the next a little less. And eventually this will all feel like a far off dream of the past.
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- 6y
Them* not then
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Yes I am trying I just can’t help but feel so violated. His final texts to me about giving my friend my leftover stuff to ship to me was cold and he didn’t give me any closure. He turned it around on me and said he let me go a long time ago and told me to break up 20 times but I didn’t listen. It’s as if he thinks his behavior is normal. And to think he was stalking his ex up until today is so frightening to me. He was acting obsessed with me until I lashed out at him and broke his fantasy. Giving him my body and letting him video me sexually (not sure if he has anything with my face but he would have me strip and do things on Skype) makes me want to throw up now. He warned me in final messages don’t keep messaging people and pushing him because if I want war he’s ready. Everyone says he is weak and is just all words but my ocd kicks in thinking he will use media against me or ruin my life. I think other worst case scenarios like he will come to US and kill me one day for ruining his life. He also lied about his age. He told me he is 32 but he is 38 and his passport says 42. He’s one big lie. I was so down I confessed to my mom about his sexual fetishes with me and videos and I am so embarrassed but couldn’t hold the ocd urge because I am so distraught. The ex wants to go to the police and asked if she can use my name to help her case and I was going to say yes but my mom scared me and said she doesn’t want me getting in trouble with an overseas government.
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- 6y
If you’re going to get involved in a legal case overseas, speak to a lawyer first. But don’t contact him. At all. He will not give you closure. He will give you more lies and pain. Of that I am certain. Lean on your mom and resist any urge to reach out to him for any reason. I totally understand every reason you’d want to. But you still need to resist it.
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- 6y
I decided not to get involved since he’s stalking the other ex for so long and is done with me. I had just wanted to help her out. There doesn’t seem to be rights for women in these situation in the Middle East. After the last interaction this morning he has been blocked and he blocked me for good. But the more I learn about the psychology of such individuals my ocd really kicks in and assumes the worst to happen. I’m looking at my once boyfriend as a complete psychopath or narcissist capable of anything because he was a pathological liar. He knew about my ocd and fears of being blackmailed and took complete advantage of me.
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- 6y
I understand this to a VERY SMALL extent. I was once seeing someone who was great and everything was going well. We were only together a month maybe a little more. When all of a sudden he stopped texting and wouldn’t answer my calls. Then see on Facebook about 3 weeks after we “ended things” that he got engaged. Obviously they were together when I was with him. I didn’t have the strength like you did to say something. I felt stupid because I mean I wasn’t even with him long and all of it happened so fast and I just felt dumb. But it was a great thing because it made me more aware of shit heads like all the previous people I was with and now I’m with someone great. And you will be too one day!!
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- 17w
I’m just full of emotions right now. I feel like I just want to explode. I broke up with my ex a week ago he keeps texting me saying I love you I don’t respond because I don’t pay no mind. What’s bothering me is why did I let this dude use me and I trusted him. He manipulated and used me and I have serious trust issues I never tell anyone what I go through because it’s not safe at all. I feel like I don’t want to trust a guy ever again yes I’m 19 and I’m still young and should date but I don’t have the energy anymore. I attract terrible men that use me and I cave in to easy because I’m lonely and my life is miserable and even doing the things I used to like feel like a chore. I told my sister this today and she said I should be patient that the right man will come to me. But I feel like even if he did I would reject him because I’m an easy person to take advantage of.
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- 13w
I’m a 19 year old girl and I have relationship ocd. My bf (20) and I are in college and around 2 days ago he asked for a break via text and then we called after on the phone which was the last time we spoke. We’ve been doing medium/long distance (1-2hrs away from eachother). I’m his first serious relationship and girl he’s ever loved. He’s my first healthy relationship and he felt like home to me. We both date to marry and everything with him felt so finalized, as silly as it sounds. Due to life being life we haven’t been able to see eachother the past three ish weeks. During that time he became different, wasn’t as loving as he used to be, and I had to continuously ask him to call me and he only did once or twice for about 15 minutes. He’s incredibly busy and in a agricultural frat. Unfortunately, he seeks a lot of validation from his frat brothers. It’s funny too, because I absolutely hate frats since I feel like often, of course not always, but often, all frats are about partying and hookup culture. That’s ok, it’s just not my thing as that to me isn’t what I value. With my bf though, I still loved him anyway. My bf was different from the stereotypical frat guy douche. You truly would not guess that him of all people is in one. He has incredibly redeeming qualities - he’s so kind, always tries to do the right thing, is so gentle, hardworking, encouraging, sensitive and sometimes emotionally intelligent lol. Due to this he gets treated differently in the house and the brothers disrespected him constantly. He would literally cry about it in my arms or in his car multiple times. When he was in my arms I was tearing up because it hurt me to see him like that. It broke my heart, but he was always too afraid to speak up for himself. I got pissed so many times and said I will say something for him - I’d do literally anything for him to make him happy. It became very obvious to me that he’s seeking so much male validation to fit in even though he comes from a great family with two married parents, with his dad being an absolutely amazing person and two older brothers. Hes said so many times that he doesn’t belong at the frat and I agreed and would tell him it’s because he was too good for them. I think he’s changed now though, and he honestly wants to fully submerge himself into this frat. He’s also taking max credit classes and has a job. I’ve been working to transfer over to the school he is at and as of late I’ve been doing community college, doing therapy with NOCD, going to the gym, and finally getting a car and being able to drive. I find myself that in relationships I let the other persons mood define mine, and I minimize my needs to make them happier. I wish I wasn’t like this and that I was a normal person. I care so deeply about him and want the best for him and I. I think he saw that flaw in me and with the combined stress of us being busy and not seeing eachother, thought it was time for a break. We called after he sent the text and I sobbed and acted a fool on the phone and I was absolutley pissed st first but only because I care. That was our first phone call in a while. He was crying and sobbing and calling me baby and the last thing we said to eachother was I love you, with him initiating that. Not too long after he was quick to take a lot of our posts down and stop sharing his location. So I did the same, and then just deleted all of my social media. I don’t know if he unadded me on anything, I don’t want to know and I don’t want to see his posts. I don’t think he has any idea as to what he’s doing. I’ll never forget when I was his date to one of his frat formals and I spoke to an alumni for a long time. He said to my bf waiting for me while I was in the bathroom “you got a good girl, take care of her”. My bf told me after that happened, because it was sweet, but I don’t think he honestly knew what that man really meant. Because I think if my bf did understand; I wouldn’t have to practically beg him to acknowledge me with a “maybe we could call” text for weeks, he would’ve directly thanked my mom for all the gifts I bought him using her money, he would’ve actually looked my mom in the eyes when he’s talking to her, he would’ve made sure that with intimacy my needs were also satisfied - not just his, he wouldn’t have told me what makeup style I should wear and what celebrities/traits he finds attractive in other girls even though I’ve voiced I’m uncomfortable with it, he would’ve shown more interest in my hobbies and likes the way I did his, and lastly, he would’ve been more courteous about my feelings and put his ego aside. I mean I’d literally watch hour long videos about fucking warhammer even though I thought it was boring. I sent him an educational video about OCD that I don’t think he ever took the time to watch. Which hurts, because he knows it’s something about me that I discovered during our relationship. Meanwhile, while I have stuff to work on like every person ever, I understand that I don’t need to fit into a group to feel complete. I’ve been authentically myself, flawed and all. I’m not afraid to show my problems to people. I don’t think I’m better than him because I’m like this, but I think that’s where we’re at right now. He hurt me so much and if/when he decides to come back is when I let him. I want him to regret this and for us to work out, but only if there’s change. He said we should work on ourselves and I agree. I’m slowly feeling better, but this took so many people by surprise especially his brothers gf who I was incredibly close to. She also has OCD funnily enough, and we’ve privately bonded over our bfs just not understanding OCD or going to each other for relationship/self care advice. I don’t know what to do, he was home to me. I love him, but I don’t love his actions and I deserve more. I hope he realizes what he’s missing out on, regrets it, and truly understands my value.
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- Date posted
- 6w
-Partner and I are still together since I found out 1 year ago. -he has been actively working on himself and has gotten therapy, and really doing well. Has done everything I’ve asked, and he’s a better person from therapy -OCD has flared from this trauma -we have been in couples therapy, and I’m in individual. -lately have been struggling with the feeling of just not feeling like enough, insecure, and needing constant validation that he loves me I’m really just trying to seek support from others who have been through similar, and are still in the relationship. Please don’t be rude. You really don’t know what it’s like until it happens to you. I said before it happened to me I would leave anyone that did that, and you really just don’t know until you experience it.
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