i’ve posted about this once before, but i really feel like i can’t smile or laugh anymore. when i laugh or smile, an intrusive thought comes into my head, and it causes me to stop smiling. it happens, without a doubt, every single time. i cant smile and enjoy things anymore because of this and i really think it’s taking a toll on me.
I sometimes have this happen to me as well when I am having a good moment or enjoying something. My intrusive thoughts will sometimes come in and tell me I don’t deserve it or I shouldn’t be happy, but this is a great exposure. When the thoughts start to come up when you’re having a good time, just keep enjoying yourself and think “there are those thoughts again”. They don’t need to hold any significance and they are not the justifier of your happiness. If something makes you laugh and you start to have an intrusive thought, laugh hard! Go smile in the mirror and when you hear the thoughts, shrug it off or even wave at yourself and say hi ocd I am happy. This will show your OCD you are not going to let it be in control!
I'm sorry to hear this! This sounds very tiring. Have you ever tried therapy before?
