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- 2y
Mom with POCD
Any mothers out there struggling with POCD ? Can the thoughts come in forms of terrible “phrases” “outbursts” saying horrible things in the form of words
Any mothers out there struggling with POCD ? Can the thoughts come in forms of terrible “phrases” “outbursts” saying horrible things in the form of words
There are a lot of moms with POCD on here and yes, intrusive thoughts and images and feelings can be in the form of ANYTHING. PCD is very imaginative.
@Nica POCD*
I’m not a mum, but I am pregnant. Unfortunately, I cannot keep this child. I do think if it wasn’t for this POCD, It could be a possibility that I would keep this baby. Where I’m not very maternal anyway (again I think due to POCD) I feel like the fact I’m not keeping it doesn’t effect me as much because of being scared etc. But then recently, it really has been upsetting knowing I’ll probably never be like most women, excited to have a child, scan pictures, birthdays etc, seeing their announce their pregnancy. N then it hits me x
Hi! So sorry to hear about your struggles with postpartum. I am not a mom, but OCD subtypes should all be treated the same way. OCD can show up in many different forms. It will try to trick you any which way so that you don’t even realize that it potentially is OCD and you fall into compulsions. I would suggest checking out Jenna Overbaugh! She is a lovely therapist here on NOCD and she has had some OCD themes with her babies too.
Please comment. Just say if follows along the OCD pattern or not. I don't need reassurance per se! My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt/a**aulted her that I might as well do something else to hurt because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it because my mind told me I had hurt her already ("my mind literally made me question what to do and I guess the only thing I could come up with was using my elbow) and causing another feeling but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side/thigh area. Which caused another very unwanted groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. And I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me but my therapist says it's all OCD. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD? This has all caused me a great amount of anxiety. I feel like a terrible person and mom. I just need help knowing if this is OCD. Not wanting reassurance. Just wanting to know if this lines up with the POCD I've been diagnosed with by my current therapist.
Hey friends. I hope you all are doing good today. Just struggling mentally myself. Feel like a terrible mother, but I want another baby. My OCD has gotten better despite the terrible episode I had that I seem to not get over. I hope someone comments that could just give me some support with POCD
Hi NOCD community, I was hoping to get some advice from fellow sufferers. In December we welcomed the first baby into the family, my beautiful niece. Since then, my POCD has been awful, which I know is probably very normal. Last week, in the middle of a very high stress day in my family, I was changing my niece and as usually happens, I got intrusive thoughts about awful things people do to babies when changing them. The thoughts were so harrowing to have as I was also changing her at the exact same time, and I felt my hands just quickly want to finish patting her dry before putting her nappy on, and for some reason, my heart dropped with that hand movement, because I was afraid that I had acted out the awful thoughts in my head, in a moment of mania because my morals, values and heart do not align with abuse of any kind, especially to children. My niece is my everything, and I know I would never want harm to come to her in any way, shape or form. I love her endlessly. I am having therapy, but have only had a couple of sessions. But, I cannot shake the 'what if'. I am tortured over trying to remember what it was I did that made my heart drop, but I can't, and its getting fuzzier and fuzzier the more I try to remember. Could anyone offer any advice on this please? Thank you.
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