waking up

i’ve been up for 2 and half hours just laying in bed with my eyes closed ruminating, filled with anxiety and anxiety spikes, and just constantly telling myself i’m okay, i’m fine, this is the ocd and unwanted intrusive thoughts. i’m exhausted cause i went to bed and kept waking up in my sleep with anxiety and having to tell myself i’m okay to breathe. i had a really rough day yesterday and i don’t want to have one today. i saw a post that said how do you get rid of the anxiety of anticipating the anxiety, the thoughts, the ocd. i relate to that so much. i hope if you’re reading this you have a good day as well.

Username: Anonymous8956Anonymous8956

Date posted: 1y ago

Thank you for sharing you are not alone. Mornings are the worst for me too!! I keep telling myself to create a morning routine and get busy. The more I lay in bed the more intrusive thoughts I get. My husband tells me I have to let my thoughts be in my head and not react to it definitely sounds easier than it sounds. Also, I hear Ali Greymond on YouTube she shares numerous information that helps people like ourselves you have ocd.

Username: Anonymous8956Anonymous8956

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous8956 Who have ocd ☝️

Username: ocdhaver22ocdhaver22

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous8956 i appreciate this much. i have a routine and when i don’t follow it causes a lot more anxiety. but thank you so much for sharing it makes me feel better

Username: Anonymous8956Anonymous8956

Date posted: 1y ago

You are welcome

Username: emlwemlw

Date posted: 1y ago

I’m so sorry you’re having a bad episode. i’m in one too and it’s so scary. one thing i do when i can’t sleep is just get up and do something, like wash the dishes or even just sit on the couch for a while. the “horizontal thinking” has you stuck but if you get up and move it might help get you out of the rut for a little.

Username: ocdhaver22ocdhaver22

Date posted: 1y ago

@emlw i’m so sorry to hear that. it makes it better knowing you’re not all alone but it still just sucks so much. thank you for the advice i’ll def use it more often!!

Username: it5ALL4theloveit5ALL4thelove

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Feeling a little sad that you and I were in a similar position last night. I was exhausted but anxiety and panic related to my OCD thoughts was pulling me out of my sleep. The adrenaline in my body must have finally wore out as I made it to sleep about 2 hours later. I was way to exhausted to get up when my alarm went off, but luckily I had some flexibility in my schedule today. I hope your day is going well too.

Username: ocdhaver22ocdhaver22

Date posted: 1y ago

@it5ALL4thelove thank you so much for sharing i really appreciate it. it means so much that you shared your story. i had a similar experience last night with being pulled out of your sleep. today i keep getting spikes of anxiety especially when nothing is happening it’s like i can’t sit still

Username: waluigi

Date posted: 6y ago

everytime i wake up and the intrusive thought is still there or i wake up just... panicked i feel so defeated. i know it can’t go away in a day but i really wish i would. and even when i know my thoughts aren’t me and what i want, i can’t help but wonder if i can ever really go back to who i once was. i’ve spent so long panicking and thinking that no matter what, it’ll always be there. i’m sorry for being so negative, but the mornings are always the worst for me.

Username: We Will Prevail

Date posted: 4y ago

Well woke up to intrusive thoughts right away. I don’t know if I’m having a backdoor spike, bc I’m anxious but not as anxious as usual. I’m terrified, and I know I have to sit with the uncertainty but I’m wondering if dehydration has something to do with it. Also why am I so scared it’s not OCD 🙃, I have no urges, I’m scared to have an urge. Harm OCD honestly is the fucking worst. I just want to be able to not have the fear that I’m eventually going to go crazy, these past few weeks have been good. The past two days irritating as heck.

Harm OCD

Username: ocdhaver22

Date posted: 1y ago

spiraled a bit

i woke up this morning with anxiety and i started spiraling and i had to continuously tell myself that i’m okay and i’m fine which i feel as if i’m doing it over and over again. my ocd is telling me that since it’s been a few good days that i want all of these things to happen and be real. im hoping to be able to move forward after this morning. does anyone else get like this or feel this way or is it just me?

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