Worst ocd day
This is one of the worst ocd days I’ve ever had. I’ve tried to do exposures, I’ve tried to not reassure myself, I’ve tried to be more social and go to lunch with coworkers, I’ve tried to not do any compulsions and I feel like crap. I keep wondering why I’m not getting better .
it’s also part of what it is. you’re gonna have ups and downs and you’re gonna ask yourself “am i getting better?”. it sounds like you did a lot today so get some rest and relax. you did your best for the day and the fact that your trying is good, and you also prob feel like crap bc your brain is mad that you’re not doing your compulsions that you usually do. i like to do things i like to do and just fall asleep to alleviate any negativity my brain tries to give me
Get some rest. That’s what I’d do.
Hi there! I'm so sorry that you are having a bad OCD day, that sounds incredibly difficult! I've been there myself and have had terrible days with my OCD as well, so I know how you're feeling. My biggest thing to note is that ERP therapy is difficult - and that's okay. It isn't meant to be easy, so if you are ever feeling like "I can't do this" or "this isn't working", we've all been there! That doesn't mean it won't work. It means that you just have to keep pushing through. It is normal to have good days and bad days during therapy - you are working so hard to create a better pattern with the thoughts. Practice and consistency with ERP is so important! The more you challenge OCD with exposures, the more you are showing yourself "I can do this". Over time, all that practice can add up to big change. Another piece of advice is to be compassionate with yourself. It was easy for me to get down on myself for feeling like I wasn't doing a good enough job. But you are always doing the best you can! Positive self encouragement is important, and changed everything for me once I started being aware of it.
I’m sorry it’s a tough day. One of the more difficult things for me to get used to with ERP is that you will have bad days, ups and downs etc. what helped me was to take these days in stride, know these feelings wouldn’t last forever (as long as I made progress with not doing compulsions). You are creating a new way of being, and your brain notices and you don’t feel great because you’re trying to NOT do what used to make you feel better. Believe me, keep trying, it does get better. You are putting in the hard work now and it will pay off. Hang in there❤️
Hi there! I am so sorry to hear that you are having a really bad OCD day, today. On hard days I try to give myself extra compassion and remember that some days are better then others. We can just do our best, practice what we learn in ERP and eventually things will improve!
I agree with others here - you are trying and OCD is just knocking you down so if you can do something you enjoy.
First my credit card fell on the floor at the coffee shop. I managed to pick it up with gloves, clean it with wet wipes and put it back in my wallet (usually I would try to wash it, but managed to just wipe and put away). Then as ai was throwing away the wipes and gloves, my glasses fell out of my bag, onto the floor. They were in the case so I ended up dumping the glasses on the table and discarding the case (but later found my good case that I've been looking for in my car since last year 😁). I later decided to get rid of the 3 bags of garbage sitting on my counter, went outside, and of course it was raining. I continued to the dumpster, and tried to throw it from a distance. One bag hit the dumpster, while the other 2 went in. I didn't want to get in trouble, so I picked up the bag and threw it in (despite that it felt extra contaminated), and removed the gloves I had on. I continued to enter my apartment and touch stuff (even though it was raining and water that was on my contaminated gloves could have gotten on me). I continued then to go clean my bathtub/shower/shower curtain. Right now I'm trying very hard not to start avoiding touching things and still working a bit about contamination in my apartment (I have chain type contamination OCD that is disgust based, not getting sick based). I hate this😭
Today and yesterday were some of my hardest days in recent memory. I had therapy today and I’m not sure if it made things better or worse. Today I’m struggling with what is and isn’t ocd. Im also exhausted because I got a terrible nights sleep last night from anxiety, and Im sure the compounded exhaustion is making it all worse. I would love if anyone could share what they did today, whether it be good or bad because I love finding support and comfort within this community. Hope y’all are doing better.
lately i’ve been having pretty bad ocd days but today was definitely one of my worst days. i just feel like such an awful person and the ocd is really eating at me. i try really hard, or i feel like i do sometimes. i try to talk to my mom and she says she understands but she doesn’t- and i hate it. i can’t even get dressed in certain clothing or watch a show i like anymore without ocd interfering. my mind is all over the place and i feel so helpless. i just wish it’d stop.
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