my ocd experience

my ocd didn’t really get super intense until like late elementary school. i mean, yeah i always kind of had ocd-like tendencies, but enough to really render a diagnosis or any type of note by my parents or doctors. now, bare with me here because this is something i feel like…super alone in experiencing and would love to know if anyone else has struggled with this. so, everyone knows that computers save data right? they save numbers, dates, passwords whatever. well, my ocd circulates around numbers. i’m constantly creating and deleting new accounts. instagram, snapchat, outlook, gmail, you name it. but the thing is, i have to create the accounts and log into the accounts at specific times. my safe numbers are odd numbers, and numbers that end in zero, so this is when i’ll create these accounts. for example, if i were to create an account today (which i never would for a reason i’m about to explain) it would be on the 13th of february 2023. so i would format that as 13 2 23. now the 13 and the 23 are fine. those are odd numbers, but the 2 however, sets of alarms in my head. that means i don’t want to create any new accounts, log in, send messages, do basically anything where some sort of data is saved on this day. now, you may be thinking, this doesn’t seem so bad, just pick odd numbers and that’s where it gets tricky. see, dates flair up the ocd headlights in my mind, but so do times. so again to take the 13th of february again. if i WERE to create an account i would have to take into account the time. so, an ideal time would be 1:00. or maybe 1:01, 1:05, whatever you get it. so to put all that together, the number combination for creating an account today at 1:01 would be: 13 2 23 1 01. and that would be fine were it not for the 2. i feel like this doesn’t seem like super bad ocd, and i know it’s definitely not compared to others, but it does cause it’s fair share of problems. i can never keep 1 email, or 1 snapchat account. i’m constantly switching them in and out, deleting and creating new ones, and when your main form of communication is…well, social media. constantly creating and deleting new accounts becomes extremely frustrating and difficult. am i the only one that’s experienced this? please, anyone who maybe feels the same way or has advice, let me know. i’m desperate and exhausted.