Worries of Unpardonable Sin

I am a firm believer, a child of God, and deep down inside I know that God has me and loves me. With OCD though, I keep circling back to worries of the unpardonable sin; I analyze it again to try to find the answer, and there is no universally accepted answer so it’s impossible just to find one answer. In recent years I hadn’t doubted my salvation, but then during an OCD therapy session last year, I said something I did not mean (as a therapeutic exercise), and then I found out about the unpardonable sin a couple weeks later (interestingly I had read those bible verses before, and it never registered with me that Jesus was speaking of an unpardonable sin). I initially worried that what I had said may had been the unpardonable sin but now, looking back, I understand that it was not. I have since read many articles and listened to numerous sermons on what the unpardonable sin is. The fear was overwhelming, and I found myself having terrible (unwanted) thoughts in my head (that I will not type out); I did not believe any of these thoughts, and the more I tried not to think them, the more they kept coming back. I then had fears that I committed the unpardonable sin in my head, but knew that was nonsense. I remember praying in late November last year, telling God that I knew I had not committed this sin (it was not the first time I had prayed this, but I had peace after that prayer this time). The next day, I was hanging around my fiancé’s apartment while she was out, and I heard myself saying, “The Holy Spirit”, out loud. I then went into panic mode, because I was unsure as to why I had said “The Holy Spirit” out loud and was worried as to what I might have said prior to that; essentially, I was worried that I might have caught myself saying one of my terrible thoughts out loud. It scared the daylights out of me, but quite quickly I concluded I must had been thinking and speaking “Praise The Father, Son, and The Holy Spirit”, because I’d remembered thinking and (I believe) saying that out loud earlier that morning. The worry essentially comes back every now and again of “what if” I actually did say one of my terrible thoughts out loud. I love God, the faith He has given me is all that matters to me. I sometimes worry though that I have messed everything up. Does this all make sense? Any input here?

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Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Hello, I am also a follower of CHRIST JESUS....If you have TRUELY accepted JESUS CHRIST as your LORD n SAVIOUR it is impossible to commit the unpordonable sin...The unpordonable sin can only be committed by an unbeliever with a REPROBATE MIND, a mind that has REJECTED GOD and a HEART that has no intention of repentance....the unpordonable sin is the SIN OF UNBELIEF.....The PHARISEES committed it during JESUS'S MINISTRY when HE would HEAL THE SICK or CAST OUT DEMONS, they would say HE did those good works by the spirit of Satan when in actually it was HOLY SPIRIT, and JESUS WARNED THEM that calling the HOLY SPIRIT the spirit of Satan was the unpordonable sin because THEY DID NOT BELIEVE THAT GOD DID THOSE GOOD WORKS, those PHARISEES HEARTS were TOTALLY AGAINST GOD and THEY HATED JESUS and had no intentions of repentance and knowing TRUTH....The fact that you are soo sorry about the possibility of sinning against GOD proves YOU LOVE GOD and that your HEART IS RIGHT TOWARDS GOD....Just REST YOUR WEARY SOUL and TRUST GOD...HE LOVES YOU VERY MUCH...JEREMIAH 29vs11 say GOD knows HIS plans towards you, PLANS OF GOOD, NOT EVIL, to give you a GREAT LIFE.....Read PHILIPPIANS 4vs6-8 for ANXIETY.........and KNOW that GOD has NOT GIVEN YOU a spirit of fear but of POWER, LOVE and a SOUND MIND!!!

Username: MollyGrace MollyGrace

Date posted: 1y ago

I struggle the same way is accepted Jesus as my savior but my ocd questions that and it’s scary

Username: A person A person

Date posted: 1y ago

Thanks brother (or sister). Do you have scrupulosity as well?

Username: A person A person

Date posted: 1y ago

I feel so alone in this struggle sometimes, and honestly being able to talk to other OCD sufferers helps me

Username: A person A person

Date posted: 1y ago

I understand the struggle Molly. What helps me is making sure I am always bearing fruit, and not so others know I am a Christian, but because it glorifies God. Think of ways you can spread the word of God, and do those things. 🙂

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

I have scrupulosity as well and this story vibes with my experience. I'm sorry that you are going through this. It's challenging to face these fears and doubts. You went to therapy, said something as part of an exercise, but OCD wants to make you doubt your intentions. You did your research, but OCD wants more. You know the thoughts are unwanted, but OCD will not allow you to write the words down, even though you don't believe them. It sounds like you are getting beat down by the obsessions, and struggling with some mental compulsions (mental replaying, thought cancellation, avoidance). I would like to invite you to challenge these compulsions; in the long run, they make OCD worse, which is why you are going into panic mode. It's difficult (I know, I had panic attacks initially) but exposure and response prevention will help. If you don't have a therapist to work with, challenge yourself to see if you can do an exposure and prevent a compulsion. Maybe try writing those words out. Maybe try writing them out so many times that they no longer seem to mean anything. Or record the words so that you can listen to them over and over until they don't mean anything. You are not trying to lose faith, you are trying to learn that these thoughts don't deserve the attention that OCD wants you to give them. Hang in there, OCD is tough but you and God are tougher!

Username: Philippians4:7

Date posted: 5y ago

(Pocd) Please help me!!! I'm a Christian and as i've mentioned before Ive had mind chatters where i tell God to confirm if im a pedo or not by me hearing about a pedo getting delivered (and it actually happened because a user on here who's a good friend of mine shared a story about that!!!) And ive also mind chattered to Him to lemme know thru a dream and it just happened too!!!. I literally feel hot right now and I feel so much doom because I just woke up and dreamt something about a paper like a test having the word pedophilia in it I think it asked "do you have pedophilia?" with a fill in the blanks answer and the word "truth" was written as the answer ? these are just too much coincidences for it to not be God actually telling me. As we Christians know, there are no coincidences in God and that scares me even more!!. I always tell Him " don't listen to my mind chatters you know they don't come from the heart!! The reason I mind chatter about things is because I'm scared of them actually happening!" But now I'm starting to think my mind chatters are so much more meaningful than i thought. Maybe it wasn't even a dream and I just pictured it while being asleep and awake at the same time since my ocd thoughts wake me up night sometimes? Or am I just in denial to try to calm myself down? Omg how can I forget about all this I really don't wanna relapse ...

Username: anonk

Date posted: 5y ago

TW pocd This is really hard to explain but I’ll try. Struggle with POCD. I find the thoughts absolutely revolting but I think? A compulsion of mine is replaying the thought to check as the unwanted thought makes me feel like I “enjoy” the thought? It’s sickening. Anyway, the thought came, then another thought / temptation? Came to rethink the thought and “check” it. I resisted but then got this sickening feeling like my mind was telling me “awwww you’re disappointed you couldn’t enjoy the thought and at the same time find it repulsive” and know I feel like I’m just in denial that I secretly like the thought. My biggest fear is that I’m secretly attracted. Can anyone shed this light? Is this still OCD or temptation / unrepentant sin? ( I’m Christian. ) Thanks guys, struggling so much.

Username: Cat_attack

Date posted: 2y ago

Can someone please respond to this.. Has anyone ever acted on a thought? I have and I believe it to be a horrible sin, as it is mentioned as one. How do I forgive myself? It is a really weird thing because when it happened I was in such a dark place. I honest to God should have been locked up. I had been self harming and attempted suicide around this time too. I had expressed to my mother how mentally unwell I was and she didn’t take it seriously at all. I don’t want to blame her but I know for a fact if I was taken seriously it wouldn’t have happened. My mind was screaming at me to do things all day long in a way I can’t even explain. My ocd is still with me every day but 9-10 years ago when this was happening it was BAD. I Didn’t have thoughts of my own. Only ocd. Id take sleeping pills to keep myself asleep and id have dreams of doing bad things. So I convinced myself I needed to see if I enjoyed it so I did it to see. Turns out nope. Didn’t like it it was just ocd. And that sin has cost me my mental sanity and love for myself. If anyone has gone through this how did you forgive yourself? Do you think god will forgive you? I know I’m not supposed to ask these things but despite what it says I actually get peace from reassurance. And I know I’m not the only one.

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