so i believe in God and i’m gay. anytime i ever do anything that has to deal with me and another many or thinking of it or anything i feel like God is upset with me, something bad is going to happen; or since my thoughts have died down i think maybe my thoughts will come back or they will happen. i was wondering if this fall into religious OCD or if anyone else out there deals with this like i do?
i understand. i am lesbian and i believe alot of my beliefs about homosexuality came from people around me. i encourage you to try to not think of anything you have been told about homosexuality. because your sexual orientation is something you cant control, like your eye color or shoe size. if you have ocd, it might use your sexual orientation against you. just like many people with ocd feel bad about thoughts they have, you might feel bad about thoughts you have. i struggle with feeling bad about my thoughts also. but everyone has thoughts, and if straight people have thoughts about the oppisote gender, and that is normal, than for a homosexual to have thoughts about their same gender would be just as normal. I dont want to give you alot of info. and overwhelm you, and make your ocd worse, but i have come to believe from things I've heard from different points of view, that being homosexual is not a sin. and i have found some peace with God concerning my sexual orientation. but ocd tries to rob me of that peace everyday and condemn me for thoughts that arent my fault. it does sound to me like religious ocd and i think it may also be scrupolosity which can also be a religious type of ocd. i start ERP therapy here at the end of the month. i wish there was more i could tell you that would help. i just try to not blame myself for things i cant control, including my sexual orientation and thoughts i have sometimes. i would like to have a girlfriend and even pray about it, but i battle ocd about that too. just please know that there is nothing wrong with you being homosexual. it is just part of who you are. maybe telling yourself that when ocd starts making you worry, might make you feel better. but i am no therapist, so i do suggest you try to get some erp therapy for it. and i made sure my therapist is lgbtq affirmative, that makes me feel more comfortable talking to her. i wish you all the best. if anything i said helped good, take what you found helpful and leave the rest.
@polishgirl i understand how you feel. even after i have started hearing that homosexual relationships are not sinful, i still fear that me having a girlfriend might be sinful. some of that feeling may come from my ocd and some of the feeling may come from what I've hear others say about homosexuality in the past. i am open to the idea those people who have said homosexuality was a sin might have been misinformed, misinterpreted what they read in the bible or maybe they are just afraid of what they do not understand. But if i were not lesbian, I would still be tormented by ocd, making me think about what i do wrong and how its sin and ocd still makes me feel condemened even after i repent. i really hope you can find peace about your sexual orientation. i have more peace than i used to about me being lesbian, and i do believe i am still saved, i even pray for a girlfriend. But i also fear having a same sex relationship, and wether the fear is from ocd or something else, the fear exists. i cannot tell you what to do, but maybe therapy for ocd might help, if its ocd causing your fear, or atleast making your fear worse.
@polishgirl There are some churches that accept and approve of homosexual relationships and even homosexual marriages. I do not know what each denomination feels about sex before marriage, but I feel that is for each person to decide for themselves. My aunt told me about Metropolitan Churches that are LGBTQ affirming. Here is a link to info about the church on Wikapedia. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Metropolitan_Community_Church And there are other churches that are LGBT affirming also listed on Wikapedia. Here is the link... https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_Christian_denominations_affirming_LGBT_people JUST CLICK ON THE LINKS ABOVE AND IT WILL TAKE YOU TO THE WIKAPEDIA PAGES. i live in a small town and i havent found a church that is LGBT affirmitive yet, so I am going to try to find and online LGBT affirmative church online and watch services online. CLICK ON THE LINK BELOW and you can search for LGBT Affirmative Churches in your area. https://www.gaychurch.org/find_a_church/ It hurts me that I havent found a church I can feel accepted and feel comfortable at in my small town. I long for the day when their are LGBT affirmative churches in small towns like mine. @ ocdhaver22 I'm sorry I had to talk with @ polishgirl in comments on your post but there is now way for me to message her on nocd. Hope you understand.
Most faiths have an LGBT inclusive branch or group, have you considered joining one for support?
yes i have. unfortunately i live in a small town with no churches that are truly lgbtq affirmative. in bigger cities their are lgbt affirmative churches. i hope i live to see the day that there are lgbt affirmitive churches in my stall town also.
i am thinking abot sarting viewing an lgbt affirmative church services online since one is not available in my area.
my ocd has really been taking its toll on me lately. i feel completely unloved by God. i use to feel it, but now i just kinda feel a hole. i talk to Him everyday, and read devotionals. i spend time with Him. i just can’t feel Him. i know a relationship with God isn’t based on feelings, but on faith. i guess my faith is running a bit low. i’m just tired and my thoughts get worse. it’s like a roller coaster.
I don't really know if it's OCD, but lately I've been thinking a lot and in a very obsessive way that every single one of my actions, words or even thoughts will affect on how God will make decisions about my life. For example, if I lie to someone or yell at them out of anger, God will make happen something bad to me as a "punishment". I know it might seem silly, but it really really freaks me out sometimes... Does anyone feel the same? And if so, do you do something in particular to feel better? Thanks for your understanding❤️
Hi everyone. I'm wondering if anyone has any tips for dealing with religious OCD. I'm a Christian and I struggle with Harm OCD but then somehow, my religious beliefs got mixed into this where I am suddenly asking all these questions on whether God/Jesus is even good. And as a result, I feel so distant from my faith which makes dealing with my harm OCD so much harder 😢 Any advice would be appreciated.
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