cheating ocd

has calmed down but spikes up and feels super real, it’s like I feel guilt and shame and anxiety as if I actually cheated in the past and forgot but can’t seem to think of any time of me cheating on my bf in the past? ik it’s easy to forget stuff from over a year ago, but I would remember, and know, and I confess everything, so I would’ve confessed if I did. I love my bf to death but every love or positive thought is ruined by cheating ocd and what if u did this and this etc, I can’t even be sad in peace because it’s like ur sad but ur a cheater? like wtf

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

I got over my cheating ocd BUT THEN the guy i thought i cheated with followed me on insta and not my other female friends and ofc im now going down a spiral because why did he follow me and not them? So im convinced i cheated and slept with him 2 years ago and forgot😭😭😭 i wake up feeling so sick

dee012

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous awww im so sorry:( is there a reason why u thought u cheated with him? whenever people from my past (not while i was with my bf) or people that i was friends with while with my bf in the past, try and start convo with me, or seem extra friendly, my brain automatically goes “omg did u flirt with them and forgot” “omg what if they are doing this and know u have a bf bc u cheated?” and etc… it sucks. im sorry you go through this

dee012

Date posted: 2y ago

@cs223 what i mean by the second one, is i have my boyfriend all over my social media, and sometimes people from my past don’t respect that, so my ocd automatically makes me think it’s because i made them feel comfortable enough to do that in some way… for example cheating

dee012

Date posted: 2y ago

@cs223 like they will try and call me, text me, KNOWING I have a boyfriend and it makes me freak out and soiral

dee012

Date posted: 2y ago

@cs223 spiral*

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

@cs223 I wasn’t really friends with him but we did the same course at uni for a year and my best friend went out with his cousin and i went to his house party 2 years ago. Initially i remembered going home with my flatmate but now it switched to i stayed round in that guys room and “forgot”

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

@cs223 Ahh thats annoying :( just keep ignoring them and the fact you do that shows you don’t want to speak to them

dee012

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous omg my brain creates false memories that are horrible and seem so reallllll, like it can take a normal memory, then it turns to what if u did this?(something bad) then i start to worry about it, i can debunk it, and figure out i didn’t do it, then it goes to something MUCH WORSE, it’s constant torture, im glad someone relates though because ocd makes people feel alone

RN777

Date posted: 2y ago

@cs223 I struggle with the same....it's super hard to accept uncetainty

OoOcCdD66

Date posted: 9w ago

R-OCD...cheating fears

Currently I have several different OCD fears that pop up throughout the week depending on the situation. I've noticed a commonality between all of them are the fears relating to memory/false memory. Today is the ROCD struggle I've been dealing with. I know OCD has been trying this on me lately because of how much I love my spouse. They are my absolute best friend and she's my world. I value our marriage and friendship more than anything. OCD has latched onto one specific female coworker. And I don't even know why because even if I were single I wouldn't be into her. Even still, OCD makes me think I've cheated on my wife every time I'm alone with this coworker at work. Always starts as a what if, followed by imagery, followed by feelings that I must've actually done something and can't remember it. Usually fearing I've kissed her. It hurts because I know I'd never do that to my wife and I love her so much...the idea of losing her kills me, especially if it were the result of something I did. Just wanted to vent. Feel free to share your experiences or vents as well

Chickenwang123

Date posted: 9w ago

If I cheated on my boyfriend or did something unloyal , would it come to mind 8 months later? Wouldn’t I have felt and known about it and that it was wrong the second it had happened ? If I wasn’t worried about it 8 months ago, should I worry about it now ? I have major ocd involving cheating and relationships and self doubt .

anonymous737...

Date posted: 7w ago

feeling like i did something

I often feel like i did something wrong even tho i am positive i didn’t, my boyfriend and i have been together for like 6 months and i’ve been completely loyal to him the whole time but recently i’ve been feeling the need to confess that i cheated on him even tho i didn’t and there’s absolutely no proof that i did something even close, i don’t talk to other men and if i do my boyfriend has full access to my phone and it’s usually a friend or me asking a simple question but i still feel the need to confess even tho i’ve done nothing wrong🥲 someone please help it’s so confusing

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