My difficulties

Hi, my names Lee. I have a few different variations of ocd but my most challenging one is my perfectionism/ symmetry ocd. It happens whenever something touches me or I touch something. It has to be even, like if I scratch one side of my face I have to sceatch the other side in the same exact way and if i dont its a back and forth of trying to make it even and if I can’t get it even it hurts and I end up crying. Or if I touch like a counter top with part of my finger than the rest of my hand needs to feel it then my other hand then im trying to make the feeling even without making it worse. I don’t know what to do at this point.