- Date posted
- 2y ago
Feel suicidal because no one understands me
Family tell me to just stop all the time, partners furious because of my relationship ocd. I’m met with no understanding and I just feel like everyone’s better off without me
Family tell me to just stop all the time, partners furious because of my relationship ocd. I’m met with no understanding and I just feel like everyone’s better off without me
Thank you everyone I really do appreciate your kind words, they have helped me today
We're not better off without you. You have purpose here and people who would rather see you recover than cut your life short 🤎
❤️
We’re your NOCD family and we’re telling you to keep going. Even when you want to give up, you have to keep going. You are loved and appreciated. The world needs you.
That’s not true! You deserve to be happy and feel loved ❤️ we understand what it’s like and we’re right by your side on this journey.
Strenght for you
I hope you know you’re loved by many people, you haven’t experienced some of ur best moments. Remember that everything is temporary including those really bad moments in life , it’ll get better even though it feels like it wont
I am so angry with ocd. I hate that ocd even exists. I wouldn’t necessarily say I wanted to be a mom when I was younger. I grew up without my mom around. But now my sisters are both moms and I see them and I feel like I’m missing out. But having pocd and hocd has definitely made me feel like it’s completely out of the question. I even made sure my fiancé knew that I didn’t want children/ feel like I can’t have them for fear of hurting them or passing on mental health issues. I was abused growing up and one of my old therapists told me that “people who are abused can become abusers”. That is something that I am not willing to risk. And even though I feel set on that choice, my brain still tells me that I’m missing out. So I’m constantly questioning if I truly feel like I don’t want them or if ocd is convincing me I don’t. Ugh. It’s just so frustrating.
I feel like I’ll never lead a normal life again with OCD, my thoughts have begun to be convince especially about POCD. I feel like so sad and down that this will be my life forever. I’ll never get to fall in love again without intrusive thoughts. I’ll never be worth falling in love with. I can never be intimate again. I’m just done, my life is over. I can’t even look at my nephew and niece anymore without the smile fading. It feels like I’m so nasty and then my brain convinces me this is how I feel. That there’s some part of me that is a p*do and that’s it. I’m a disgusting human being for that. I just feel hopeless
Last night I was staying at my boyfriend’s house and couldn’t sleep. I felt like i desperately needed to go back to my parents and clean and organize my room. This has happened a few times before when I was staying at his place. Since then he’s been very upset with me. Does anyone else’s partner do this? Any advice? It’s been hard. He’s made me feel so shameful for having OCD. As if it’s not tough enough /:
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