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Tomorrow I’m going to my therapist for the first time since 2 months. I’m really nervous and think it will trigger me cause I need to talk about it. Does anyone have tips?
Tomorrow I’m going to my therapist for the first time since 2 months. I’m really nervous and think it will trigger me cause I need to talk about it. Does anyone have tips?
Yes, I understand and often was nervous because if thing were going smoothly, I didn’t want to have to bring it all up and be “triggered” again. The thing I finally realized was, it’s ok to be triggered, it’s ok to be nervous, it’s all part of getting better. We need to feel and accept all of the feelings. Who better to feel these ways in front of them someone who is trained to help you. As OCD advocate Ethan Smith always says, “feel all the feelings”. I realized my desire to control my thoughts and feelings was the biggest part of my ocd. If I was uncomfortable, nervous about a thought or feeling I would do compulsive behaviors to eliminate them. Sorry for the long-winded tip, short version feel nervous, and know you are on the road to recovery ❤️
@VGH Omg thank you so much this was really helpfull🍀🍀
(21+ ONLY: TRIGGER WARNING) I have therapy today and I’m nervous. I just started going to therapy and I really like my therapist. She talked to me about doing ERP and I’m really nervous about it. I’m scared to tell her the extent of my OCD, and my themes. I’m scared to tell her about my false memory OCD, because I’m scared that what I did was real and I’m just excusing it as false memory, although I have no memory of it. I’m scared that I am truly a monster and I’m using OCD as an excuse—and that she’ll find out and distance herself. I’m just scared that my whole world is gonna fall apart, all around me.
I’m on track to getting my diagnosis and i’m already questioning it. Pocd feels so real, and even though i once saw someone say “it has to feel real or you wouldn’t worry” which is like god level reassurance honestly, it hurts. I can’t look at children, they deserve better. My usual attraction seems to be gone and i can not think about anything else. At the same time i don’t really feel anxiety. I’m scared i don’t feel bad enough, if i just smiled maybe i honestly wouldn’t feel bad? I don’t have many other ocd symptoms either, except for some stuff when i was a kid and like questioning everything about myself. I’m clinging to the hope that this is Pocd instead of me being a Monster and at the same time i’m so sad that i have to go trough this. I don’t like myself but i’m sorry for my younger self. I just want to be held and be told that everything will be okay but how can i know? Even then i feel like comfort of that kind only really applies to others who are struggling and aren’t horrible like me. In so many ways i sm convinced i am a monster even though it might be a bit irrational. Maybe i’m a monster after all and then i should really get away from everyone i love. They deserve better :( After a lifetime of struggles (nothing super serious) i’m just getting started with therapy and i’m so.. scared. What if it won’t help? What if it turns out i’m the bad person i fear to be. Is there any way i can prepare or some tips or literally anything else? I would appreciate any wise words
I’ll be starting NOCD therapy on Monday, any words of advice?
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