Username: Cody

Date posted: 1y ago

Accidental oaths to God?

I have absolutely no desire to make any promises to God, but that’s how this started out. I made one promise to God and wasn’t going to fail it for anything. After it was over, I guess my ocd realized how much promises to God meant to me because at some point after I started having intrusive thoughts of saying the promise word to God and then feeling as though I would have to do whatever I felt I promised (the compulsion) or I feared something would be “taken away” from me or that I would be “punished” somehow if I didn’t. After several months I think of battling this, it then shifted demonically. Now I fear as though I’m making oaths or promises to the devil himself and though I know I can break those ties simply by calling on Jesus’ Name…. How many more times? I can’t keep taking this, it’s draining the life out of me and I live every day in survival mode. I got ocd in my last therapy session and thought I may have made a stupid oath to God that I wouldn’t talk much, so in fear of God’s punishment or allowance for punishment somehow, I spent 95% of the session dead quiet just listening. I need help or this is going to eat me alive, if you don’t mind please share your thoughts🙏🏼

Username: NotSoNewb82NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y ago

It is a hard one to break. To break religious OCD I read the bible which seemed stupid. Now I know the facts I know there is more than being good to being religious and not being “overly righteous” is actually a rule. I’m not completely over it (meds help too) but it is much more chilled now I have a good reason to say no. I also meditate nightly which relaxes me and has improved my confidence. Good luck.

Username: CodyCody

Date posted: 1y ago

@Newb82 Yeah man, I’ve started going to the gym and that’s helped a lot…. but it’s just that one thought I can’t seem to shake :(

Username: NotSoNewb82NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y ago

@Cody Exercise is good too. Well done.

Username: brittanyljohnsonbrittanyljoh...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I’m in this current battle right now… what if god wants me to sacrifice my own child like he did with Abraham. I’m currently in a spiral and so scared.

Username: NotSoNewb82NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 1y ago

@brittanyljohnson This must be hard for you.

Username: CodyCody

Date posted: 1y ago

@brittanyljohnson That sounds more terrifying than my situation. I’m so sorry and I’m praying for you!! Remember God gave you that child and the love you have for them, I think it’s just satan trying to use scripture to scare you. he tried the same thing on JESUS Himself, I wish I knew where that was so I could share with you how Jesus responded… but I can just tell you He says “take all thoughts captive” so next time that pops up in your head, pray to God for “Peace and clarity in the Name of Jesus”!! Watch what happens :) “The truth will set you free”

Username: brittanyljohnsonbrittanyljoh...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Cody Wow!! Amen 🙏🏾 thank you so much for that!!!

Username: warrior__heartedwarrior__hea...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Wow! I bet this is so hard. I don’t have much to offer, other then to say I’m praying for you, and that God is love. He desires holiness, but not to shame us, but because he knows it’s what is best for us. If he does punish or discipline it’s a way to protect us, not hurt us, and he always redeems and restores. This is all stuff I’ve read in scripture. But it’s hard to believe sometimes. I have had God legitimately take things away from me that I cared deeply about, and looking back I can say now He is good, because when I had those things I was hurting myself by completely operating in the height of my OCD. (Constant compulsions) everything I’ve feared came true, and I learned that it wasn’t as scary as I thought and God can make everything good again. But God loves you. He doesn’t want to hurt you. And Jesus can protect you from the enemy. When I was really struggling, I didn’t really want to do anything spiritual (read my Bible, pray, worship, etc.) but I would always ask myself “what’s one little thing I can do to stay connected to God right now” and whatever I had the capacity for, I tried the one thing, even if it felt like it wasn’t that much (read one verse, just listen to encouraging music, pray one prayer) Those things can easily become compulsions, but if you feel like you can do it in a non-compulsitory way it could be helpful.

Username: warrior__heartedwarrior__hea...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I just said a bunch of things too hahaha. But this is just my perspective from walking through it all. It’s super hard. Feel free to apply what feels helpful, and discard what doesn’t. My opinion is not gospel.

Username: CodyCody

Date posted: 1y ago

@warrior__hearted Yeah I’m not going to lie, this scared me at first until I remembered what truly took the relationship I have with God to another level. I would tell my mom constantly and anyone I thought that could help that I was in fear of God taking things. I didn’t know it was ocd at the time, I didn’t understand mental health much at all… so I thought my fears and worries were entirely justified. I thought they were legitimate. I remember a day or a few days before church I had a conversation with my mom about how I no longer wanted to believe in God because all I thought He would do is take. My mom somehow must’ve said something to open my heart, so I showed up to church that Sunday. I decided to give the God thing another shot, and what I got out of that service truly changed my heart, mind, and life forever. Preacher immediately goes into “A lot of you in here are afraid to go to give your lives, because you’re afraid of what God might take” he then went on with “I’m here to tell you God isn’t taking anything, it’s what He will give that’s going to change your life”. I realized He wasn’t some scary tyrant, but a loving Father. I was reminded of the verse “The thief comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I come so that they may have life and to the fullest.” Wow that was a lot. I like talking about God😂anyways thank you brother, you took the time and I appreciate you🙏🏼

Username: warrior__heartedwarrior__hea...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Last thing. 2 things that help me are reminding myself of the gospel. (I make mistakes and sin, and Jesus took the weight of my sin, pain, shame, things done to me, and that I’ve done etc. to the cross and died on my behalf. Then he rose again, and now God has forgiven me from the mistakes I’ve made, and given me full access to His presence, as long as I choose to believe and follow him!) And then Romans 8:38-39 “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the past present or future or any powers. Neither height nor depth nor anything else in all creation can separate you from the love of God found through Christ Jesus our Lord.” I love that one so much I got it tattooed hahaha

Username: KelSul73

Date posted: 1y ago

Scrupulosity & real event/false memory OCD:

Hey- so I’ve had a rather rocky relationship with God and I’ve always been back and forth but in the darkest times of my life, I have tried to turn to God for consolation. But long before I discovered NOCD, I had a very disturbing cycle of OCD situations for months on end of waking up in the middle of night and calling my pastor/ youth counselor trying to clarify if I had committed the unforgivable sin. Because I have had such an up-and-down relationship with God and going astray so often and all of that- I worried that because it felt like I was being struck by a demon trying to urge me to say (I didn’t say out loud but like a low, inaudible mumble in my mouth) “saying” that God was the opposite of what He is… ever since then I’ve struggled with that moment so much and in that moment, it didn’t feel like I 100% cared about doing it. Because I had been constantly plagued with these obsessive thoughts for so long and didn’t understand what they were, I gave in cause I was exhausted from battling it for so long but it didn’t come out like how it’s described in the Bible…. Idk. I just hate myself thinking about it because I have always been one to skid along boundaries so I feel like it was mocking God because I was angry and it just fills me with fear, upset and panic… I remember feeling so terrified and the physical sensation like my chest was burning and I just felt like I was empty… has anyone else ever gone so far in their OCD that they wondered if they could ever come back?

Username: kayla.dot04

Date posted: 1y ago

Im a Christian I might have OCD

I gave my life to Jesus Christ in July/August(i dont remember the exact date), everything was fine up until this point. This is something I've dealt with before I met Christ. I dont want to leave God because of this and I keep finding myslef being isolated and I don't know how to properly handle this. I keep getting really bad intrusive thoughts and I've prayed, rebuked, did a deliverance prayer, read the bible, everything. I prayed to God about how lost I felt and I just couldn't understand why this was happening, then he revealed to me that I am dealing with OCD, so I did some research on it. Does anyone have advice for this? 🙏🏻🤍

Religion & Spirituality OCD

Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 36w ago

Religious OCD & Intrusive Thoughts

So about 2 weeks ago I started having blasphemous intrusive thoughts about God & Jesus! I’ve had them before but they’re hard to brush off because you feel awful and disgusted for even having them. They were “rejecting thoughts” I finally was able to just let them float on by and not pay attention to them. My main theme is doubting God & Jesus but I’ve noticed it’ll switch on me. Sometimes my mind will doubt if it’s OCD! So currently 2 days ago I’ve been getting the blasphemous thoughts again but when I said “I love you Jesus” I heard instead of Jesus it was Satan! I panicked and sometimes when I say I love Jesus and God I hear “I love you S____” it freaks me out!!! I love God & Jesus so much! Those thoughts cause so much anxiety!!! I would never say that thought and I wish it would go away or remove all those thoughts! I Like ughh those awful intrusive thoughts hurts so much! Some times if feels like I think them or say them purposely in my mind! But I try to remind myself I don’t want them! They cause so much anxiety and distress for a reason! It’s just so annoying when it’s constantly changing and throwing other “themes” I try to tell myself this is still in the same category! I had a certain blasphemous thought weeks ago and now it’s a “new” one and I think it’s still a thought it’s just different and maybe that’s how it’s trying to trip me up! But then usually a bunch of them start coming like beating me down! Maybe it’s the themes switching up on me again but ughh it’s really hard! Makes it feel like it’s me but I don’t want these thoughts at all!!! Everytime I say I love Jesus & God those thoughts come and just randomly! I feel like it’s “me” but I’m reminding myself it’s OCD! The more I react the more they come! They make me feel like God is mad at me or He doesn’t love me which I know isn’t true at all! I know He loves me so much!! It’s just so sad that my mind thinks that! Sometimes I feel like He is mad or will leave me but I know that’s not true!! Any advice please 😭

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