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- Going to fight OCD
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- 1y ago
Brain feels broken
Does anyone feel like their brain just doesn’t function normally and it never will for the rest of their life 😂
Does anyone feel like their brain just doesn’t function normally and it never will for the rest of their life 😂
Also feel like I’ve been dealing with SO-OCD every single day for months now. Is this normal? It’s something I can’t shake. I think about it all the time.
Yes, but I keep faith that I can rewire the brain. It’ll just take patience & strength. You got this
My brain feels like mush
I understand the frustration you mentioned. I’m 62 and I’ve had OCD since my 20’s. So I’ve feed OCD for about 40 years not knowing what it was. 2 years ago it skyrocketed and I have now been with NOCD for 1 1/2 years. I don’t know if you have OCD or if you’re seeing a NOCD counselor. What I can say is NOCD has been a huge help for me. I don’t know if you know of ERP (exposer and response prevention), that is doing what raises your anxiety and don’t do what you usually do to have the anxiety the anxiety go away. For me I was doing ERP about 10 months then I noticed things weren’t bothering me as much. I am still working on my ERP everyday. OCD is treatable. What I have found so helpful with NOCD is they treat OCD and guild folks how to get to where OCD doesn’t have as strong of a grip on you. I would recommend the free 15 min. call they offer. The only difference between you and me is what triggers us. I know you can say “No” to OCD.
@LowellT Does it help with the ruminating? One of the worst parts is these thought just go on forever and it is exhausting. It’s like an annoying friend who won’t stop about how they beat you at a video game. Eventually you have to leave that friend, but OCD doesn’t leave.
I understand that ruminating can ruin things. I like to ride the bike but I wasn’t doing as much because when I would ride my bike it was like OCD would kick in I would ruminate so the bike ride was not fun. So with doing things like a bike ride I think I will do the bike ride and I don’t care if I ruminate or not. I can’t let OCD make my world smaller. With doing ERP the anxiety can last but sooner or latter it goes away. If I think I hit someone with my car, I just think “Yep I did.
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When I begin to debate realty with OCD I loose. OCD will always bring up one more what if. For me the best way to have the thought fade out is agree with it. Is it difficult? Yes.
Another example of ERP for me was I would think my car door hit the car next to me when I parked. So my ERP was going to a parking lot park next to a car get out walk to the back of my car get back in my car and leave and not look at the car next to me. If I did I would have to redo it. I did that again, again, again etc. When the anxiety would rise I would just get on with my day. Now it isn’t nearly the problem it was before. To your analogy of someone who beats you at the computer game. When we ignore that type of person they stop talking to us. It is similar with OCD if we just let it be there and not respond to it it fades away.
@LowellT You are encouraging. From my reading I think I can do this but I will need a therapist. I think I am missing some steps. I’m in the pure OCD and ROCD camp so it’s not as much physical action that I have to stop. I’m glad to hear that you were able to make great strides in this battle and you are encouraging me that I can do the same
@Green Dragon I have found getting counseling with NOCD has been a huge help. They were able to help me make a calculated plan to have OCD be less influential in my life. For me what helps is knowing OCD has only one weapon and that is doubt. Like, was there germs on the door knob? Did I just insult someone by what I just said? Am I . . . ? It helps me because no matter the issue that OCD raises it’s just plan ol doubt. I apologized to my wife literally 1,000 times last year every one felt so real and so needed, but it wasn’t. So when the compulsion to say “I’m sorry” raises its head I sat through the anxiety. It was not fun by any means. My “What ifs” were going through my mind the anxiety was there. But over time by not giving into OCD it is way less of an issue now. With OCD we have to retrain ourselves to not give weight to a every thought our brain gives us. Our brains produce a lot of OCD spam. I know you can say “No” to OCD one compulsion at a time 👍.
Thank you for letting me know. I fully get what you are saying with the bike ride. Have you been able to deal with stuff that’s more of a mental issue. Like when you watch a movie and the OCD is kicking your seat during the movie making so you loose focus on it or worse not enjoying it because the OCD just won’t stop talking smack about the movie. I’m hoping one day to be able to enjoy thinking without the inner monologue running on autopilot
@Green Dragon One thing my NOCD councilor said to me was even when OCD is yelling in the background work at enjoying the present moment you are in and still let OCD do it’s thing. I have heard it put that OCD can’t live in the present. It is either causing anxiety about something in the past or future. So as we enjoy the present OCD can loose it’s grip on us.
Anyone randomly ever starts talking and midway my brain starts feeling weird so it gets super hard to complete my sentence. And often I’m thinking about something and I feel so deattached like I feel weird af like I can’t describe this weird feeling. Can anyone relate? Also days when I’m feeling good.. I still have the fear like don’t be too happy cause ur OCD will return and torture u randomly. And I keep thinking like I was control myself for a year without harming anyone... but what if I hurt someone randomly and just don’t give a fuck? That’s another fear I have. But yeah please do let me know if your brain feels so weird while ur taking and suddenly it gets hard to talk anymore/ concentrate or even complete it sentence? Please help. I want my old self back again. So So Badly.
Does anyone else think they have messed up their brain to the point of no return after onset of ocd symptoms? I was in constant battle with my brain for 5 months since I had a very bad habit of giving too much attention to my thoughts. A couple of months have passed since I left my brain alone but I still have brain fog as well as depersonalization/derealization. it sucks :(. I would love to hear from you.
Nothing feels real anymore, my thoughts aren’t mine, my feelings aren’t mine. My brain is either completely full or completely empty. My memory used to be so good and it has become so terrible now I can’t even picture things. I feel completely out of control and not me.
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