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what i usually do is turn on the tv (a 24h news channel) in a low volume so it makes me some "company" while it allows me to do other stuff. it helps me stay connected to reality

Congratulations on the step you’re taking. that is great. I think there’s some good advice above. It helps me to remind myself that thoughts are not facts and that OCD usually focuses on worst case scenario outcomes. In my experience, the best way to handle the intrusive thoughts, fears and obsessions is to try to limit your engagement with them. Don’t try to determine whether or not they are valid, nor try to push them out of your mind. Instead let them pass through your mind; limiting your response to something neutral like “thanks OCD” or “maybe it’s true, maybe it’s not”. I know easier said than done, but with time and practice it does get easier.

This is a good opportunity for an exposure if you are interested in that. Could use this to expose your anxiety/OCD and try to begin changing how you respond to the disturbing thoughts.

That’s terrific that you are taking a new step forward in your life. Any transition will bring up all kinds of thoughts and feelings and that’s ok. The important thing is you are moving forward. Allow the thoughts and feelings to be there, don’t do compulsions (don’t focus on these thoughts and feelings). Instead, focus on your life, what you value, it sounds like you already are😀. I have OCD and for many years I avoided situations that triggered my thoughts and made me nervous. I just want you to know, even if you didn’t live alone, you would still be triggered and nervous. Your world would be limited/controlled by triggering thoughts/feelings. Not a way to live! I now take my thoughts and fears with me as I live my life and life is so much better. It’s ok to be nervous, it’s the price of an life well lived! All the best!

Me too! Im excited but also nervous. The good news is that you have made it through every hardtime you have ever had and this is no different keep flexing that muscle !