I’m still in the process of recovering from HOCD but if anyone wants to reach out to me about cognitive behavioral therapy strategies or ERP strategies/ideas I’m here to help- just no reassurance! ;) you are so strong- keep on going! ?

Have you already done some exposures?

What are somethings that helped you get better?? Also I’m happy you’re getting better!!

I find that watching coming out videos on YouTube and reading lesbian coming out stories on websites on curve magazine.com have really created some good exposure for me

http://www.curvemag.com whoops this is the link!

Ok I’ve actually done both of those and they make my intrusive thoughts go crazyyyy. Sorry for all the questions but what are some of your compulsions? I’m trying to figure out some of my so that would really help!

No worries I totally understand! My compulsions have changed over time but I would constantly check myself when talking to people, worried that I would be appearing like I was into them romantically, I would always obsess over whether or not my feelings of love for people of the same gender meant that I was gay, I would take “am I gay” quizzes like daily, watch YouTube videos of coming out stories and comparing them to my life to test myself and see if I was experiencing the same things as they were, looking at pictures of women on social media to test whether or not I found them attractive, just stuff like that ?

I do a lot of checking, I always say to myself do I like that girl? Am I attracted to her? Things like that, or I will do it will the opposite sex. Like I’ll see a cute boy and notice him and then check to see if the feeling are real. Yesterday me and my mom were watching Frank Ocean perform and she was talking about how good looking he is and I thought the same but the whole time I was checking to make sure I actually felt the same and I wasn’t lying. I used to do a lot of tests, “am I gay” “how to know if you have hocd” just to prove to myself that I was fine. I’ve kind of stopped with the taking tests but I used to do it a lot. I do get urges to look stuff up a lot but I don’t let myself do it. Thank you for your help! That helped identify some of my compulsions!!❤️

I completely know what that feeling is like I was just doing that the other day while watching a movie with Leonardo DiCaprio! When I was younger and don’t have hocd I would usually just think he was really attractive and stuff, but when I started questioning everything it’s almost like my “usual” feelings of attraction would go away and I would have to test myself, which was constant! I’m glad that you’re resisting the urge to do the tests, I know it can be really difficult! Of course! Reach out to me anytime, I don’t know anyone else personally with HOCD in my life so it’s always comforting to talk to someone who knows what it’s like- thank you!! :)?

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