Does anyone else’s intrusive thoughts just repeat over and over and over again? I have harm ocd and sometimes the thoughts will just be like “K!ll him” over and over and over again. It freaks me out so bad. 😭 maybe I’m just actually horrible and this isn’t ocd. This makes me feel like it’s probably not ocd because this probably doesn’t happen to anybody else.
After I had my daughter this was my #1 intrusive thought that came into my head. It was horrible, scary, and super distressing. I thought I was the only one. I learned if I accept it popped in, let it simmer. It’ll go away. And I remember I used to get that in my head alllll day. It was bad. It barely happens anymore. And if it does I’m like yeah that ocd. We’re gonna keep going. It can and will get better.
@Kilo2001 At some point, when it wasn’t distressing anymore.. did the ocd try to make it seem like you enjoyed the thoughts? My anxiety has improved today but now the thoughts are more like “you must like this if you’re not anxious”
@Maddie1204 Yeah anytime I didn’t get anxious I thought I liked them or I was beginning to become okay with them. Then I realized the whole point is to not feel anxious! Trust yourself. When you’re not anxious that’s good even if our brain is telling us it’s bad.
Ive had a similar experience too many months ago, it's very likely OCD setting itself up as it probably saw/experienced something as a "threat", but frankly i dont understand how that works, just know it isnt permanent, but it will take time to sit with that discomforting experience
Yes this happens to me. I will also get the thought do it now, or im gonna kill tonight and so many other more. I know it’s hard and sucks. I’ve been going through a flare up in my intrusive thoughts lately.
Yes, sometimes my intrusive thoughts will appear and then i ignore them and then a second later it's screaming in my head for the next 10-30 seconds. I just sit there until it passes. It's annoying and concerning but it always calms down and shuts up. I've heard sooo many people say that their ocd tries to convince them it's not ocd, and almost all of my themes do this too. Everyone has intrusive thoughts, but i think people with ocd, or at least me compared to non ocd people, have worse intrusive thoughts (ie more persistent, darker, and more frequent). We can't get rid of them, but I'm doing ERP and hoping it will lessen them a bit. Have you gotten ERP? Do you engage with the intrusive thought or just let it pass?
@Anonymous.12345 I just started ERP last week. I’m trying to not engage with the thoughts. Working on allowing the thoughts to come and then pass. But that’s much easier said than done for sure.
@Maddie1204 That's good! I'm basically at the same stage as you. I just started. I found that reading about ocd gave me a deeper understanding of it as a disorder and honestly helps me let the thoughts pass. If you're interested check out the international ocd foundations reading list. But yeah def easier said than done. Good luck!
I’m really sorry you’re going through this. I remember how hard that was.
Yes, those repetitive, intrusive thoughts are all a part of OCD. You're not alone. Keep us the ERP and therapy and you'll get past it.
Sooooo relatable!! The absolute worst feeling😭
Does anyone else ruminate nearly 24/7 about their Harm/Pure OCD thought or thoughts? For example, stating to themselves that “I don’t want to harm, hurt or kill anyone, etc.” Do you have anxiety while doing so and also even more anxiety after trying to stop the reassurance/compulsions. Thanks in advance!
Does anyone here have harm OCD that tries to attack every single action and thought they do during the day? Mine is about killing my spouse. Now every time I hear something that entails the future or “doing what I gotta do” I am afraid if the thoughts showing up. And as I try to think “do therapy”, “find hobbies”, “get into yoga” the intrusive though appears and it’s “kill your wife” or “kill your wife and yourself afterwards”. It could attack a happy event to. Like you finally get that reimbursement you were waiting for on an online shopping return. And now you get it and you’re like : “Nice, thats done” and the the intrusive thought comes “cool, now you can kill your wife”. I’m under the impression I am becoming schizophrenic. I don’t hear a voice or see things though, and some days there are less occurrences than other days. It’s days where I don’t work and have a day out with the wife doing fun activities that the occurrences are less. But if I sit alone working in my office all they they appear all the time. This is very distressing and causes severe anxiety. Loosing appetite, head aches, becoming extremely irritable. This is the hardest thing I have ever go through.
Does anyone else's OCD make them think about horrible things all the time. I feel like I'm constantly having horrible intrusive thoughts 24/7 and I can't even sleep without seeing horrible images when I close my eyes. I feel like a monster because their are times where it feels like I like the thoughts even though I'm absolutely appaled by them 24/7 and they literally make me feel nauseous because of the absolute disgust I feel by them. Its just so painful because I'm constantly being attacked in my own mind all the time. Does anyone have good coping mechanisms to deal with this? I just want to be able to have peace in my mind once in awhile
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