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- Going to fight OCD
- Date posted
- 1y ago
- Username
- mrein280mrein280
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I think I got false attraction and made me go "Am I gay?". So I looked up stuff and kept going
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- AnonymousAnonymous
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@mrein280 Me too…. 1) first time was a Random when I was 12 and had a thought “are u lesbian” 2)walking down a campus and saw a gorgeous girl … thought I was attracted to her and thought I was bisexual and it spiraled ( indentified straight all my life) 3) present day: about a coworker who is pretty and super sweet Now my false attraction won’t stop
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- mrein280mrein280
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Anonymous Same. My false attractions do not stop. That's the only thing keeping me in ocd
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- Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@mrein280 Yes I got like a groinal once to a video of a girl twerking and I think I remember getting a lot of anxiety or confusion
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- blazedblazed
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
One day a random thought about not liking men anymore popped into my head and stuck with me ever since. I didn’t know what it was at the time so I tried waiting it out for a few days, but it didn’t go away. That’s when I started doing compulsions and fell deep into OCDs trap.
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- FuckedupFuckedup
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@blazed Yep, that is how it goes.
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- mrein280mrein280
- Date posted
- 1y ago
That also happened to me
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- Mia MiaMia Mia
- Date posted
- 1y ago
My dad used to tease me and say that I was gay from like age 5.. then I got a false attraction and it was the weirdest thing ever. I don’t know if the teasing played a role in my SOOCD or not… I would assume it did
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- Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Mia Mia What false attraction did you experience?
- Username
- Mia MiaMia Mia
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Going to fight OCD It was really odd. I saw a picture of a girl I knew and felt like I was genuinely attracted to her… I used to see this girl everyday in the hallway and I never really thought she was pretty… it was so out of the ordinary
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- Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Mia Mia That’s interesting! Like it wasn’t a “oh she’s pretty” but like it felt like more?
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- Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Mia Mia I feel like I get false attraction in like groinals and stuff
- Username
- Mia MiaMia Mia
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Going to fight OCD Yes. I don’t know if it was a false attraction or what. To this day it doesn’t make sense to me at all because this girl wasn’t even pretty!! I’m not trying to be mean but it was just such a weird experience
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- star1232star1232
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Mia Mia Me too but with megan fox
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- FuckedupFuckedup
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I have no idea. I’ve suffered from this theme decades but only last October it was diagnosed OCD. When I understood this is OCD, I also realized that different themes had been in my head all my life. But this is definitely the worst. I have never been homophobic or anything like that. As far back as I can remember I’ve had romantic crushes for men. So, it can be caused by so many different factors or it is just in genes, who knows for sure. I, for example, have worried about everything since I was a small child. I thought I was responsible for my family’s well being. I had a thought that if I don’t worry enough something bad will happen. I had (and still have) a low self esteem. And so on. If I have to name one thing that has led to so-ocd, it was a moment when I found out that we have a lot of homosexuality in my family. I have three
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- Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Fuckedup I feel that. It almost felt like everyone around me was “coming out” and it made me feel like I felt like them almost?? Idk
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- FuckedupFuckedup
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Cousins who are gay, my late uncle was closeted gay, one of my relatives found herself after divorce and is married to a woman now. I’m okay with this, but at the same time I think this must be my ”destiny” too. (Black and white thinking.) Also, after I found out that this is OCD, I understood that my late mom suffered from OCD, as many of her sisters still do. They worry and protect too much abt their grown children, are cleaning too much… so this must be in genes too. As they say about homosexuality too…
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- Dragos Dragos
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I had a dream of a sexual nature where a woman morphed into a man
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I recalled a childhood moment where I experimented with someone of the same sex who was a bit older than me. This theme has always been a question for me due to those moments because I thought I was going to discover something about myself later on in life.....
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- thinklikeabrick
- Date posted
- 22w ago
Hello
Are there any demisexuals on here that struggle with SO-OCD (I'm a straight woman, or so I think I am). It's a struggle to know what's OCD and what isn't
- Username
- My OCD Academia
- Date posted
- 21w ago
Porn & Lack Of Sexual History [18+]
Anybody else use their lack of sexual history as a way for OCD to use as evidence? I just start remembering all the times I could have had sex but didn’t. I also had a HUGE porn addiction that made it so difficult to function. I remember that I was always afraid of having sex with anyone other than my ex because I was emotionally abused and I felt like if she found out, she would get mad and at the time, that would break me. I’d always overthink about sex and what could happen if It happened at that moment. My mind would fill with questions and I just would end up saying I rather not have any sex. My therapist believed I could have shown signs of OCD early on. I believe that’s what’s happened then and now. I don’t like guys romantically and I love getting excited for a woman. I love that feeling of seeing a pretty girl and getting the chance to know her. It makes my heart so happy. But I would do everything I can to avoid speaking with a guy, even if he was not conventionally attractive. Porn makes me feel like I could turn gay since I watched it so much. I’ve lost interest in watching porn which is a good thing but now ocd is like “oh you don’t get turned on by porn anymore, and those videos had girls in it so that must mean you don’t like girls anymore.” Like how stupid is that. I also saw on Reddit and Quora that people were saying porn can change your attraction/make you lose interest in girls. I know Quora and Reddit are OCD’s best ways at scaring you and these forums are never to be taken seriously, but man does it trigger you. Anyways if you made it this far, thank you. I’m just overthinking a lot today
- Username
- JesusSaves424
- Date posted
- 21w ago
Does anyone relate?
⚠️ TW sexual themes ⚠️ I have OCD regarding sexual themes. I struggle with real event/false memory OCD, and I used to struggle with different sexual sins before me and my boyfriend were together. My OCD tells me that if we get married, and we consummate our marriage, that it’ll be sex under false pretenses if I don’t confess everything I’ve ever thought/done in regards to my past. It makes me feel like when we do end up exploring the sexual aspect of our relationship, that it’ll be SA unless he knows everything. OCD is ridiculous. Can anyone relate to this? The thought of hurting him in that way actually makes me sick to my stomach and makes me shake.
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