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- Going to fight OCD
- Date posted
- 1y ago
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- mrein280mrein280
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I think I got false attraction and made me go "Am I gay?". So I looked up stuff and kept going
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- AnonymousAnonymous
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@mrein280 Me too…. 1) first time was a Random when I was 12 and had a thought “are u lesbian” 2)walking down a campus and saw a gorgeous girl … thought I was attracted to her and thought I was bisexual and it spiraled ( indentified straight all my life) 3) present day: about a coworker who is pretty and super sweet Now my false attraction won’t stop
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- mrein280mrein280
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Anonymous Same. My false attractions do not stop. That's the only thing keeping me in ocd
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- Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@mrein280 Yes I got like a groinal once to a video of a girl twerking and I think I remember getting a lot of anxiety or confusion
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- blazedblazed
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
One day a random thought about not liking men anymore popped into my head and stuck with me ever since. I didn’t know what it was at the time so I tried waiting it out for a few days, but it didn’t go away. That’s when I started doing compulsions and fell deep into OCDs trap.
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- FuckedupFuckedup
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@blazed Yep, that is how it goes.
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- mrein280mrein280
- Date posted
- 1y ago
That also happened to me
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- Mia MiaMia Mia
- Date posted
- 1y ago
My dad used to tease me and say that I was gay from like age 5.. then I got a false attraction and it was the weirdest thing ever. I don’t know if the teasing played a role in my SOOCD or not… I would assume it did
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- Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Mia Mia What false attraction did you experience?
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- Mia MiaMia Mia
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Going to fight OCD It was really odd. I saw a picture of a girl I knew and felt like I was genuinely attracted to her… I used to see this girl everyday in the hallway and I never really thought she was pretty… it was so out of the ordinary
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- Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Mia Mia That’s interesting! Like it wasn’t a “oh she’s pretty” but like it felt like more?
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- Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Mia Mia I feel like I get false attraction in like groinals and stuff
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- Mia MiaMia Mia
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Going to fight OCD Yes. I don’t know if it was a false attraction or what. To this day it doesn’t make sense to me at all because this girl wasn’t even pretty!! I’m not trying to be mean but it was just such a weird experience
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- star1232star1232
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Mia Mia Me too but with megan fox
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- FuckedupFuckedup
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I have no idea. I’ve suffered from this theme decades but only last October it was diagnosed OCD. When I understood this is OCD, I also realized that different themes had been in my head all my life. But this is definitely the worst. I have never been homophobic or anything like that. As far back as I can remember I’ve had romantic crushes for men. So, it can be caused by so many different factors or it is just in genes, who knows for sure. I, for example, have worried about everything since I was a small child. I thought I was responsible for my family’s well being. I had a thought that if I don’t worry enough something bad will happen. I had (and still have) a low self esteem. And so on. If I have to name one thing that has led to so-ocd, it was a moment when I found out that we have a lot of homosexuality in my family. I have three
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- Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Fuckedup I feel that. It almost felt like everyone around me was “coming out” and it made me feel like I felt like them almost?? Idk
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- FuckedupFuckedup
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Cousins who are gay, my late uncle was closeted gay, one of my relatives found herself after divorce and is married to a woman now. I’m okay with this, but at the same time I think this must be my ”destiny” too. (Black and white thinking.) Also, after I found out that this is OCD, I understood that my late mom suffered from OCD, as many of her sisters still do. They worry and protect too much abt their grown children, are cleaning too much… so this must be in genes too. As they say about homosexuality too…
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- Dragos Dragos
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I had a dream of a sexual nature where a woman morphed into a man
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I recalled a childhood moment where I experimented with someone of the same sex who was a bit older than me. This theme has always been a question for me due to those moments because I thought I was going to discover something about myself later on in life.....
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- WaxemJord
- Date posted
- 24w ago
SOOCD is ruining my life I need advice
my brain keeps on trying to convince me I’m gay. Why do I care so much?? I’ve been sure of who I am for all my life, but ever since that thought that I could be something else appeared in my head. It’s ruined me completely, I’ve lost attraction to my preferred gender and overthink everything when talking to the same gender. I know pick about everything I’m feeling and ruminate on the past for evidence. I’ve always saw myself being with a man and having kids with a man. But now I guess my ocd (maybe it’s just denial idk) Is telling me I never wanted that and it was society or whatever. It makes me extremely uncomfy and very anxious. When I think about being gay that doesn’t feel right neither does being straight anymore since this theme. I just want to be normal again I hate this. I feel like I’ll never be in a relationship again ever because of this.
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- shopgirl
- Date posted
- 24w ago
Thoughts about friends
How do you guys cope when your obsessions target people you’re close to? I recently had a sexual thought about a friend of mine and it started snowballing. We’ve been texting more and my brain keeps saying that it’s flirty, and if I were in a situation to kiss her I would. She’s a close friend of mine and I didn’t have sexual thoughts about her until recently. They make me feel disgusting and guilty, and the onset made me feel like my body was on fire. It’s starting to latch on to other friends, and my brain is saying I’m “tempted” by them, and if they came on to me I would give in and like it. I had SO-OCD as a child, and did engage in some play kissing with friends before my SO-OCD happened. (My OCD latches on to that a lot too as proof that I’m gay). I remember the anxiety I had about what I had done with my friend, and this feeling I have now imagining kissing my friends feel similarly. I don’t usually write on here to avoid confessing and reassurance seeking, but I’m at a loss. I have a heavy feeling in my chest and I don’t want to have the thoughts, but part of me thinks I might be liking them and maybe it’s internalized homophobia. I could handle being bi, but the thoughts about my friends and losing control feels so wrong. I’m just confused and want to know how to process when OCD starts attaching to people I’m close to.
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- thinklikeabrick
- Date posted
- 20w ago
Hello
Are there any demisexuals on here that struggle with SO-OCD (I'm a straight woman, or so I think I am). It's a struggle to know what's OCD and what isn't
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