Going to fight OCD

Date posted: 2y

Sexual orientation OCD

How did this theme start for you?

Sexual Orientation OCD

mrein280

Date posted: 2y

I think I got false attraction and made me go "Am I gay?". So I looked up stuff and kept going

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@mrein280 Me too…. 1) first time was a Random when I was 12 and had a thought “are u lesbian” 2)walking down a campus and saw a gorgeous girl … thought I was attracted to her and thought I was bisexual and it spiraled ( indentified straight all my life) 3) present day: about a coworker who is pretty and super sweet Now my false attraction won’t stop

mrein280

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous Same. My false attractions do not stop. That's the only thing keeping me in ocd

Going to fig...

Date posted: 2y

@mrein280 Yes I got like a groinal once to a video of a girl twerking and I think I remember getting a lot of anxiety or confusion

blazed

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

One day a random thought about not liking men anymore popped into my head and stuck with me ever since. I didn’t know what it was at the time so I tried waiting it out for a few days, but it didn’t go away. That’s when I started doing compulsions and fell deep into OCDs trap.

Fuckedup

Date posted: 2y

@blazed Yep, that is how it goes.

mrein280

Date posted: 2y

That also happened to me

Mia Mia

Date posted: 2y

My dad used to tease me and say that I was gay from like age 5.. then I got a false attraction and it was the weirdest thing ever. I don’t know if the teasing played a role in my SOOCD or not… I would assume it did

Going to fig...

Date posted: 2y

@Mia Mia What false attraction did you experience?

Mia Mia

Date posted: 2y

@Going to fight OCD It was really odd. I saw a picture of a girl I knew and felt like I was genuinely attracted to her… I used to see this girl everyday in the hallway and I never really thought she was pretty… it was so out of the ordinary

Going to fig...

Date posted: 2y

@Mia Mia That’s interesting! Like it wasn’t a “oh she’s pretty” but like it felt like more?

Going to fig...

Date posted: 2y

@Mia Mia I feel like I get false attraction in like groinals and stuff

Mia Mia

Date posted: 2y

@Going to fight OCD Yes. I don’t know if it was a false attraction or what. To this day it doesn’t make sense to me at all because this girl wasn’t even pretty!! I’m not trying to be mean but it was just such a weird experience

star1232

Date posted: 1y

@Mia Mia Me too but with megan fox

Fuckedup

Date posted: 2y

I have no idea. I’ve suffered from this theme decades but only last October it was diagnosed OCD. When I understood this is OCD, I also realized that different themes had been in my head all my life. But this is definitely the worst. I have never been homophobic or anything like that. As far back as I can remember I’ve had romantic crushes for men. So, it can be caused by so many different factors or it is just in genes, who knows for sure. I, for example, have worried about everything since I was a small child. I thought I was responsible for my family’s well being. I had a thought that if I don’t worry enough something bad will happen. I had (and still have) a low self esteem. And so on. If I have to name one thing that has led to so-ocd, it was a moment when I found out that we have a lot of homosexuality in my family. I have three

Going to fig...

Date posted: 2y

@Fuckedup I feel that. It almost felt like everyone around me was “coming out” and it made me feel like I felt like them almost?? Idk

Fuckedup

Date posted: 2y

Cousins who are gay, my late uncle was closeted gay, one of my relatives found herself after divorce and is married to a woman now. I’m okay with this, but at the same time I think this must be my ”destiny” too. (Black and white thinking.) Also, after I found out that this is OCD, I understood that my late mom suffered from OCD, as many of her sisters still do. They worry and protect too much abt their grown children, are cleaning too much… so this must be in genes too. As they say about homosexuality too…

Dragos

Date posted: 2y

I had a dream of a sexual nature where a woman morphed into a man

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

I recalled a childhood moment where I experimented with someone of the same sex who was a bit older than me. This theme has always been a question for me due to those moments because I thought I was going to discover something about myself later on in life.....

niu

Date posted: 21w

SOCD, Real Event, porn

I never read someone talk about this so I wanted to know if it applies to anyone as well. For context: I deal with ROCD and SOCD but I do identify as straight and am in a (happy) relationship with a man. What often triggers me is memories about childhood and adolescences about having the groinal toward nudity in porn or music videos. Because I can’t deny having watched other things than straight porn and experimenting with porn I simply can’t stop trying to figure out what that might have meant and if i deep down have actually a other sexual orientation than the one that I feel comfortable identifying with. I only hear people talking about random triggers but never the REAL memory of arousal to pornography and so on.

Ms.shelovesf...

Date posted: 21w

OCD + autism combo

I have experienced every theme that can be added to post but I’m currently experiencing those. So I am on the spectrum and I happen to have a high sensory profile and it definitely gives the ocd more to latch unto. I would see a pretty female with makeup done and it eatssss and I would notice the facial symmetry + how her features compliment each other and my ocd would be like why did you notice she is pretty, BECAUSE I HAVE EYES😭! I can’t be the only neurodivergent person that notices details and how attractive people are intensely? I do not even care about orientation but I know for sure if I was into women, it won’t just start plaguing me one evening Im my head shouting “you are gay” like man Im a female at least say you are a lesbian 😭😂😂😂😂. How can I genuinely have no interest and get outrightly repulsed by females sexually and romantically. It feels like I am being forced to be something im not. I tried accepting i am lesbian but I experienced more anxiety and could not sleep till I accepted i am still straight and it is ocd playing with me(ocd leave me alone, I don’t even enjoy playing with you) I accepted i am a lesbian like ocd said I should but why do I still love my ex and hope I marry him😭 + I couldn’t bring myself to be interested in females. OCD leave me alone because I don’t enjoy this game again! I’m not homophobic at all but denouncing Im straight doesn’t feel like home and I still find myself yearning for only men

Ariana ♡

Date posted: 17w

Question for queers w sexuality ocd

Is anyone here actually gay and has/had sexuality or religious ocd? I don't have it at all haha I'm a lesbian myself without socd or religious ocd but I'm just curious: what's it like and how did you deal with the whole "biggest fear coming true" thing?

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