Going to fight OCD
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mrein280mrein280
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I think I got false attraction and made me go "Am I gay?". So I looked up stuff and kept going
AnonymousAnonymous
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@mrein280 Me too…. 1) first time was a Random when I was 12 and had a thought “are u lesbian” 2)walking down a campus and saw a gorgeous girl … thought I was attracted to her and thought I was bisexual and it spiraled ( indentified straight all my life) 3) present day: about a coworker who is pretty and super sweet Now my false attraction won’t stop
mrein280mrein280
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@Anonymous Same. My false attractions do not stop. That's the only thing keeping me in ocd
Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...
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@mrein280 Yes I got like a groinal once to a video of a girl twerking and I think I remember getting a lot of anxiety or confusion
blazedblazed
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One day a random thought about not liking men anymore popped into my head and stuck with me ever since. I didn’t know what it was at the time so I tried waiting it out for a few days, but it didn’t go away. That’s when I started doing compulsions and fell deep into OCDs trap.
FuckedupFuckedup
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@blazed Yep, that is how it goes.
mrein280mrein280
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That also happened to me
Mia MiaMia Mia
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My dad used to tease me and say that I was gay from like age 5.. then I got a false attraction and it was the weirdest thing ever. I don’t know if the teasing played a role in my SOOCD or not… I would assume it did
Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...
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@Mia Mia What false attraction did you experience?
Mia MiaMia Mia
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@Going to fight OCD It was really odd. I saw a picture of a girl I knew and felt like I was genuinely attracted to her… I used to see this girl everyday in the hallway and I never really thought she was pretty… it was so out of the ordinary
Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...
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@Mia Mia That’s interesting! Like it wasn’t a “oh she’s pretty” but like it felt like more?
Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...
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@Mia Mia I feel like I get false attraction in like groinals and stuff
Mia MiaMia Mia
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@Going to fight OCD Yes. I don’t know if it was a false attraction or what. To this day it doesn’t make sense to me at all because this girl wasn’t even pretty!! I’m not trying to be mean but it was just such a weird experience
star1232star1232
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@Mia Mia Me too but with megan fox
FuckedupFuckedup
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I have no idea. I’ve suffered from this theme decades but only last October it was diagnosed OCD. When I understood this is OCD, I also realized that different themes had been in my head all my life. But this is definitely the worst. I have never been homophobic or anything like that. As far back as I can remember I’ve had romantic crushes for men. So, it can be caused by so many different factors or it is just in genes, who knows for sure. I, for example, have worried about everything since I was a small child. I thought I was responsible for my family’s well being. I had a thought that if I don’t worry enough something bad will happen. I had (and still have) a low self esteem. And so on. If I have to name one thing that has led to so-ocd, it was a moment when I found out that we have a lot of homosexuality in my family. I have three
Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...
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@Fuckedup I feel that. It almost felt like everyone around me was “coming out” and it made me feel like I felt like them almost?? Idk
FuckedupFuckedup
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Cousins who are gay, my late uncle was closeted gay, one of my relatives found herself after divorce and is married to a woman now. I’m okay with this, but at the same time I think this must be my ”destiny” too. (Black and white thinking.) Also, after I found out that this is OCD, I understood that my late mom suffered from OCD, as many of her sisters still do. They worry and protect too much abt their grown children, are cleaning too much… so this must be in genes too. As they say about homosexuality too…
Dragos Dragos
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I had a dream of a sexual nature where a woman morphed into a man
AnonymousAnonymous
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I recalled a childhood moment where I experimented with someone of the same sex who was a bit older than me. This theme has always been a question for me due to those moments because I thought I was going to discover something about myself later on in life.....
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I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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