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I think I got false attraction and made me go "Am I gay?". So I looked up stuff and kept going
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@mrein280 Me too…. 1) first time was a Random when I was 12 and had a thought “are u lesbian” 2)walking down a campus and saw a gorgeous girl … thought I was attracted to her and thought I was bisexual and it spiraled ( indentified straight all my life) 3) present day: about a coworker who is pretty and super sweet Now my false attraction won’t stop
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@Anonymous Same. My false attractions do not stop. That's the only thing keeping me in ocd
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@mrein280 Yes I got like a groinal once to a video of a girl twerking and I think I remember getting a lot of anxiety or confusion
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One day a random thought about not liking men anymore popped into my head and stuck with me ever since. I didn’t know what it was at the time so I tried waiting it out for a few days, but it didn’t go away. That’s when I started doing compulsions and fell deep into OCDs trap.
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@blazed Yep, that is how it goes.
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That also happened to me
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My dad used to tease me and say that I was gay from like age 5.. then I got a false attraction and it was the weirdest thing ever. I don’t know if the teasing played a role in my SOOCD or not… I would assume it did
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@Mia Mia What false attraction did you experience?
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@Going to fight OCD It was really odd. I saw a picture of a girl I knew and felt like I was genuinely attracted to her… I used to see this girl everyday in the hallway and I never really thought she was pretty… it was so out of the ordinary
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@Mia Mia That’s interesting! Like it wasn’t a “oh she’s pretty” but like it felt like more?
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@Mia Mia I feel like I get false attraction in like groinals and stuff
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@Going to fight OCD Yes. I don’t know if it was a false attraction or what. To this day it doesn’t make sense to me at all because this girl wasn’t even pretty!! I’m not trying to be mean but it was just such a weird experience
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@Mia Mia Me too but with megan fox
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I have no idea. I’ve suffered from this theme decades but only last October it was diagnosed OCD. When I understood this is OCD, I also realized that different themes had been in my head all my life. But this is definitely the worst. I have never been homophobic or anything like that. As far back as I can remember I’ve had romantic crushes for men. So, it can be caused by so many different factors or it is just in genes, who knows for sure. I, for example, have worried about everything since I was a small child. I thought I was responsible for my family’s well being. I had a thought that if I don’t worry enough something bad will happen. I had (and still have) a low self esteem. And so on. If I have to name one thing that has led to so-ocd, it was a moment when I found out that we have a lot of homosexuality in my family. I have three
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@Fuckedup I feel that. It almost felt like everyone around me was “coming out” and it made me feel like I felt like them almost?? Idk
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Cousins who are gay, my late uncle was closeted gay, one of my relatives found herself after divorce and is married to a woman now. I’m okay with this, but at the same time I think this must be my ”destiny” too. (Black and white thinking.) Also, after I found out that this is OCD, I understood that my late mom suffered from OCD, as many of her sisters still do. They worry and protect too much abt their grown children, are cleaning too much… so this must be in genes too. As they say about homosexuality too…
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I had a dream of a sexual nature where a woman morphed into a man
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I recalled a childhood moment where I experimented with someone of the same sex who was a bit older than me. This theme has always been a question for me due to those moments because I thought I was going to discover something about myself later on in life.....
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Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
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I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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