It feels so terrible to doubt whether he’s “good enough” and stuff like that. I hate fighting with my thoughts. I love him and want to stick with him and I am getting immeasurable guilt to the point I’ve harmed myself :(
You are not alone. He treats me better than any guy I’ve ever been with, everything I always wished I had. However the slightest incompatibility or thought from the past will eat at my mind until the point of a breakdown. Im continuously questioning and struggling with my thoughts. Sending good vibes 💜
@kitty_b Sending good vibes to you too :( this is terrible!
i’ve been obsessing about the future of my relationship too lately. the only thing that helps for me is mindfulness and coming back to the moment - reminding myself that i love my bf and i want to be with him right now. that’s all that matters. my ocd is trying to pull me into this spiral about the future, but i have to accept that i have no control over that right now. right now i want to be with him, so i will be with him.
i have similar thoughts like this, it’s a CONSTANT repetitive cycle, and i can identify what is ocd speaking but my main concern is that the cycle will never stop and let up long enough for me to have a regular relationship. it didn’t used to be this bad and despite knowing it’s ocd, when i’m in a mindset so strong about “needing” to break up, it’s not enough to recognize ocd. it feels like the only solution for my partner’s wellbeing would be to break up so they wouldn’t have to deal with not knowing if i like them that hour/day or not.
I wish my ROCD and doubts would just go away ): I hate it so much. I just want to be happy with my partner because I do love him so much. Does anyone have any advice? I could really use the help on this one. This theme has been especially hard for me to handle.
I really love my partner he is so understanding and patient when it comes to my intrusive thoughts about him cheating on me but it's so hard to fight these insecurities, I have forgotten to live my own life because my life is based on his and I completely forgot myself. I think I am ready to ask my psychiatrist for some medical help because I need to love myself. Now I just hate it so much
i second guess my feeling for him basically 22 hours of the day and my intrusive thoughts are so aggressive too, like “you dont love him, you think hes ugly, you think he smells bad” stuff like that and they arent even “what if” thoughts anymore and i feel so guilty. I am basically at the point where I’ve convinced myself that im forcing myself to be in this relationship because i dont want to uproot my life and that i hate him, but every time i think about breaking up i start crying and i hate the idea and these thoughts give me SO much anxiety. To the point where i feel like i cant even eat sometimes, and i dont want to feel like this everyday because i want to be sure that i love my partner, and the small moments that im not spiraling, i feel so sure and so clear that i want to spend the rest of my life with him and i hate it because why is it that one moment i can be so sure that i love him and the one moment i feel like im lying to myself and i need to ruminate on that feeling. im so tired of myself.
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