I have done awful things on my teen years

Hey steleven. I completely empathize with you, I constantly stew over things I did years before and feel ashamed and embarrassed by them. The fact that you’re showing humility by whatever you may have done shows that you aren’t anywhere near past the point of forgiveness. We all screw up and do things we aren’t proud of. The only thing we can do is brush it off and move on. Make up for whatever it was you’re ashamed of by learning from it and trying not to make the same mistake going forward. We are all such imperfect people, and we have the right to cut ourselves some slack. Now, I suggest you get your favorite snack and watch a movie you love to get this off your mind. That’s what helps me through this the most :)

Everyone will do something that they are not proud of. OCD makes us ruminate about them and feel guilty about those incidences more than normal people would. Each experience is another lesson learned. Try to give yourself some grace

Trigger warning ⚠️ to anyone who can’t deal with talking about the Lord God says “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus” Romans 8:1 as well as how He says that those who accept Jesus as their personal Savior, you have this word from God: Micah 7:19: “He will again have compassion on us, and will subdue our iniquities. You will cast all our sins into the depths of the sea.” When you give your life to Christ, He no longer sees you for your sins or what you’ve done wrong, as if He did not one of us would make it into Heaven. Instead, God sees the blood Jesus shed for our sins on the Cross, and so in His eyes you become completely BLAMELESS. He also gives you a new heart and new desires when you accept Jesus into your heart, so you’re not even the same person at that point. It’s why He calls it “being born again” I think. I understand this is a triggering topic for people, hence the trigger warning seen above… but there’s true peace and freedom from all this found by accepting Christ. “Who the Son sets free is free indeed” John 8:36🙏🏼 Stay strong, you’re a decision away from changing the entire world around you :)

Excellent comments! Also, we with OCD feel responsible for all the problems in the world at times, to the point of feeling responsible to forgive ourselves. No doubt I get it, but God never asks us to forgive ourselves. We just need to receive forgiveness already offered. I say this with love. :-)

Everybody does stuff that has an affect on us years later! I have done a lot of mistakes either. But i try to not blame myself as things happen.. and actually if you think about it, you cant go back and do something otherwise, so thinking about past wont change anything. Past is past and it should stay in past. Right now is the moment you have to focus on. Try living in a moment, try to think about present and try to forgive yourself and understand that you are a human being too. We are not perfect, nobody is! We just can become the better version of ourselves and i am very sure that now you are the present better version of yourself, and you will only get better and better. Take care!

@steleven, I would be very welcome to talk with you if you need someone. I'd be happy to give you my personal email. I assure you I have no agenda other than a love and compassion for people, especially young adults who are struggling and feel alone. Let me know, no pressure. :-)

I think a lot of people, including myself, forget that we are all humans doing the best we can with the circumstances we are given. Do we always make the right decisions? No. Not everything is so black and white and it’s hard to forgive yourself when we live in such an unforgiving world. I struggled and continue to struggle with this. I put a lot of power in, “what would people think of me” when no one even knows. But what helped me a lot, was my therapist said, “I don’t believe in good or bad people, I just believe we are people.” It made me feel a lot less trapped in one box or other. For me, if you are trying to improve or better yourself from the decisions of your past, then there is no reason to hold yourself hostage to the last. Good luck ♥️

I can relate, its okay tho, it's been year and we were all dumb teens doing awful stuff, mostly out of the idea that it wouldnt matter in the future just know it doesnt define you, knowing it wasnt good is a good change

Yes, I have things too. But I don’t judge myself. I say ‘that’s the best I could do at the time’ and remind myself I can be better for the rest of my life. In fact that’s the journey of life! Stumbling and learning! Stumbling and learning and growing. You are the growth.

I also struggle with things from the past that I have done that are wrong. I didn’t harm anyone, but what I was doing could have been seen as wrong. I was able to explain my ocd to someone that saw me doing this action. I happened about 5 months ago. It’s in the past and those people probably don’t remember what happened anymore or at least don’t ever think about it. It still bothers me everyday (sometimes every hour.) I hope this new medication I’m on helps a little. I also hope that you can move past these situations.