Can someone explain to me why I’m constantly having intrusive urges or intentions? I have a constant feeling of my brain almost wanting to “act” on these thoughts! I need advice! Medications? What?
Hello. I'm having intrusive urges as well. From what I've read, this constant feeling of your brain almost wanting to act on the intrusive thoughts is false, because in the moment, you think of an action so your brain alarms your body to get ready to have this action - It's a natural act of the brain so you don't need to worry. It might feel real but remember that they are INTRUSIVE urges. It can be scary as hell, but you got this.
If it feels like you are constantly having intrusive urges or intentions, it is probably because you are doing everything else but ride them out. This could be ruminating, researching, checking, etc. I can’t offer too much advice, because I still have so much to learn myself. I haven’t done a specific form of therapy for OCD, but I’m working on it. I will say, I was on fluoxetine for OCD and I feel like it did help. I did start on Lexipro (before I knew I had OCD) and it did not work for my OCD. However, with medication, everyone is different. Not only with different medications, but dosages too. It’s best to pair up with a therapist or psychiatrist and see what they recommend!
An urge is like any other trigger. You have to avoid compulsions around it. Including ruminating, judging, admitting, reassurance, googling, checking… Just say some form of agreeance or non judgment thought like ‘wow, great’ or ‘whatever’ and try to attach no meaning to it. Sit there, it will pass after some time if you can avoid other compulsions. All the triggers pass — urges, thoughts, sensations, feelings… if we let them. Ask your therapist about urges as a trigger.
@Anonymous I keep thinking what if I was sexually abused then I said is that why I’m attracted to triggers. But I’m not, am I saying that because I feel false attraction and I believe it’s true when it’s not
I’m having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. I’ve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but I’ll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and they’re the only family I have in my life. They’re my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldn’t hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. I’m such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know they’re hard for my mom to hear and I don’t want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that I’m not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know it’s not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. I’m working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. They’re not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we aren’t supposed to ruminate but I shouldn’t have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.
I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅
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