still the obsession with the idea of devils, demons and being possessed is in my mind although now it varies in intensity. i’m so alert to every sensation in my body - pins and needles, moving in my scalp, tingling hairs/muscles. These flare up most at night time. These sensations still make me feel uneasy - even if im told its anxiety, i still regard being possessed (or turning psychotic) as a possibility cos of those sensations. I immediately link these sensations to horror movies or stuff i’ve been told about spirits. i wish i didnt have this disturbing thought ? it feels like an obsession that no one else with OCD has, but if im wrong i hope someone can reach out and relate ??

WorriedDriver

Date posted: 7y

You are feeling a lot of sensations in your body and have become hyper aware of them- you choose how you get to react to them. You can interpret them as having no meaning and just being normal physiological sensations that we all get from time to time or you can choose to give them meaning and interpret them as possession. OCD fuels the anxious catastrophic thinking. You also have confirmation bias at play (every sensation you feel now gives credence to being possessed). I’d look at the cognitive distortions and see what may be fueling this fear. Your OCD trigger is very clearly bodily sensations that are perceived as uncomfortable.

Dil P

Date posted: 7y

@worrieddriver this has made feel better! Seeking reassurance is defo one of my compulsions. Hope everythings okay with you, thanks for the help ??

mean

Date posted: 7y

You are not alone. When I was younger my OCD obsessions were with God and the devil. Compulsions were driven by thoughts of the devil coming for people I love. Only repeated rituals of praying or asking God for help including rituals like tapping things would help. Still today it comes back. It feels horrible. When I try to avoid those thoughts, especially if anything actually happens then I regress. I just want those thoughts to leave.

Vane

Date posted: 7y

I get you , I go through almost the same thing , my obsessions are religious based so of course that includes the evil stuff and yes I’ve become super aware of every sensation of by body which of course makes it worse. I have this obsession that there is an evil sprit inside of my head and when I would battled with my mind I would get sharp pains in my right ear and I still don’t know why I got them because they were real . But my mind would tell me that it was the evil spirits getting in my head again, or the evil thoughts . Etc etc but we have to remind of yourselves that these sensations are real but they have nothing to do with our obsessions. I like to imagine my my organs whenever i get these sensations and obsessions together because it reminds me that i am a human and i have organs and these organs and skin cells and my brain can sometimes produce sensations on their own . The OCD just uses them to flare itself up. I hope that makes sense.

Andi 🤓☝️

Date posted: 23w

Is this still ocd? Plz answer :(

Recently ive been getting very scared to even be angry (i try to avoid even being angry if i can!) bc of the horrible thoughts I have and it feels even more real when I'm angry or even annoyed. I've been hyperfocusing on my bodily reactions (mainly my hands or how I'm feeling like did I just enjoy that? Was I considering? Did it just move? Why is it tingly? Why did it twitch?) And I've noticed the small twitches whenever I'm mad or annoyed and it's scaring me so bad! Like do I want to act out? Am I holding back? Is this an indication i was about to do something or will in the future? I used to not even twitch at all when mad and I felt 100% sure I'll never act out but now it feels like I don't even know anymore bc of these twitches. Im so afraid! What I do know is I don't want to ever act out (idea is distressing not appealing) but it's so scary like why did i twitch or was i about to act out? Im scared these are real urges and i research for many many hours to make sure they arent real urges or impulses and i also tend to ask ai or here if the anxiety gets so bad. Like how do I know of this is actually a serious concern and I should be very worried???

kenzieisfound

Date posted: 17w

fear of losing control??

I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, but I relate so much to what people here are going through. I used to think it was just anxiety, and I felt like I could handle that. But lately I’ve been spiraling—constantly afraid that what I’m feeling is something worse, like psychosis or losing control of my mind. I feel so detached and scared, and I just want peace again. I have anxiety doing the smallest things, like the thought of waking up everyday and even eating give me straight up panic. I am afraid all the time, it’s paralyzing. And a lot of people say someone with psychosis wouldn’t worry that they’re in it, but then I convince myself I’ve been in it this whole time, and haven’t known, and that maybe I’ve been doing weird stuff. Idk. I also get really scared of labels. Even the idea of OCD makes me feel like I’ll never get better or like I’ll be stuck like this forever. I just want to be okay. If anyone has felt this way—confused, overwhelmed, or scared of what’s happening in their mind—I’d really appreciate any support or encouragement.

justsomone1

Date posted: 16w

ocd or phycosis?

idk why this is such a recurrent thing for me , I get so scared through the day when I’m not distracted when I think about psychosis. or being put in a mental hospital that it gives me bad anxiety, one time I had a panic attack at the thought of having it 💔 I can’t pin point if it’s intrusive thoughts because it’s a fear of mine .. or not. I think this is the worst thought / fear I have

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