still the obsession with the idea of devils, demons and being possessed is in my mind although now it varies in intensity. i’m so alert to every sensation in my body - pins and needles, moving in my scalp, tingling hairs/muscles. These flare up most at night time. These sensations still make me feel uneasy - even if im told its anxiety, i still regard being possessed (or turning psychotic) as a possibility cos of those sensations. I immediately link these sensations to horror movies or stuff i’ve been told about spirits. i wish i didnt have this disturbing thought ? it feels like an obsession that no one else with OCD has, but if im wrong i hope someone can reach out and relate ??

You are feeling a lot of sensations in your body and have become hyper aware of them- you choose how you get to react to them. You can interpret them as having no meaning and just being normal physiological sensations that we all get from time to time or you can choose to give them meaning and interpret them as possession. OCD fuels the anxious catastrophic thinking. You also have confirmation bias at play (every sensation you feel now gives credence to being possessed). I’d look at the cognitive distortions and see what may be fueling this fear. Your OCD trigger is very clearly bodily sensations that are perceived as uncomfortable.

@worrieddriver this has made feel better! Seeking reassurance is defo one of my compulsions. Hope everythings okay with you, thanks for the help ??

You are not alone. When I was younger my OCD obsessions were with God and the devil. Compulsions were driven by thoughts of the devil coming for people I love. Only repeated rituals of praying or asking God for help including rituals like tapping things would help. Still today it comes back. It feels horrible. When I try to avoid those thoughts, especially if anything actually happens then I regress. I just want those thoughts to leave.

I get you , I go through almost the same thing , my obsessions are religious based so of course that includes the evil stuff and yes I’ve become super aware of every sensation of by body which of course makes it worse. I have this obsession that there is an evil sprit inside of my head and when I would battled with my mind I would get sharp pains in my right ear and I still don’t know why I got them because they were real . But my mind would tell me that it was the evil spirits getting in my head again, or the evil thoughts . Etc etc but we have to remind of yourselves that these sensations are real but they have nothing to do with our obsessions. I like to imagine my my organs whenever i get these sensations and obsessions together because it reminds me that i am a human and i have organs and these organs and skin cells and my brain can sometimes produce sensations on their own . The OCD just uses them to flare itself up. I hope that makes sense.