My ocd has been flaring up and I’ve been doing many rituals to prove I’m not a pedophile. It is so mentally draining at the end of my shift and I really need help cope and control these intrusive thoughts because I love this job and I want to be the best for the kids. But I’m so tired
Hi! I know this is exhausting. POCD is heartbreaking on so many levels especially for parents, grandparents, guardians, and education professionals. Keep getting that daily exposure. This is what you love to do! Remember you and OCD are not one in the same. Your thoughts and OCD thoughts are not the same. I am a former teacher with OCD. I can say that many teachers go through this and that you're not alone (I'm a former teacher because it just wasn't for me - wasn't the best a lesson plans and stinky diapers lol! I'm going to school for Phlebotomy but will still be working with kids and adults :))
So they key is to NOT control intrusive thoughts, it’s called intrusive for a reason You can’t control thoughts and preventing them from popping into your mind, it’s impossible, however, you can control your reactions and responses to it
Sorry to hear that POCD can really be hard a exhausting… I hope you’re doing ERP with some professional of NOCD :c you’re not alone… we are here to advice you until we can, and here you have a space we’re people understands your OCD
Whenever an intrusive thought pops in your mind about being attracted to kids try so hard not to respond to it mentaly or physically, don’t argue with it and don’t try to deny or it will become stronger, act like you don’t care and respond with “maybe maybe not, sure heah, whatever, who cares” to trick your mind that you are not afraid of these thoughts so it will become weaker by time Accept the thoughts existence, it’s out fate to have intrusive thoughts all the time in back of our head, it’s normal, but what’s not normal is to give it value and believe it and listen to it, just get used for these thoughts and allow to be there, you are not your thoughts
POCD Trigger: I really hate this disorder and I don’t know how much longer I can do this for. I work at a daycare and I’m constantly bombarded with these thoughts that I have hurt a child or even molested them. It is the worst feeling and part of me knows I’d never do that but my OCD really does take over my life. Today, for instance, I was rocking on of the children and I rocked them for two seconds by accident and it told me I molested them. And when I when to pick them up to put them in the play area my hand accidente touched the front of their leg and it told me again I had hurt them, a similar thing happened with another child today where I was feeding them and I accidentally rocked them and I was now a molester. It really is the hardest disorder to deal with. And I hate how it attacked my occupation, I love working with kids and child psychology and everything, but my ocd is really affecting everything.
I have severe OCD and I experience all different types of intrusive thoughts and compulsions I fucking hate it! But one thing I struggle with the most is POCD! It makes me violently sick and disturbed but I know it’s not me and I know it’s not true but then why do I feel so disgusting? I have two children, one 5 and the other is 1, I don’t want to change my daughters nappys I don’t want to get her dressed (of course I do because I don’t have a choice) but it triggers me so bad and gets me in a state, I don’t know how to get over this I’ve had this certain thought for over six weeks and I can’t do it anymore, I’m so distressed they deserve better, why can’t I just be a normal person, I’ve actually thought about giving them up over these thoughts it’s breaking me and it’s breaking my heart, I actually can’t try beat this anymore.
Hey everyone! I’m new to this app, but not new when it comes to OCD treatments. A few years ago I had to leave school/ my job in order to work on my mental health which was hard but needed. Mentally things have more or less gotten better OCD wise but I still really struggle with protectionism. I started a new job within the past 6 months that is challenging, but I enjoy enough to hopefully stay at for a few years. As of the past two weeks I have been really struggling with ruminating over my performance at work. I have been trying really hard to learn all the moving parts of the job, but because of lack of mentoring and constant little hiccups I have been stressing. Currently I have been overwhelmed/ overthinking so much that I have been messing up my work and it seems like my coworkers are pretty annoyed by constantly having to correct me. It’s honestly my worst fear as a perfectionist to feel like a burden. My intrusive thoughts as of late is that they are going to think I don’t care or try hard enough, that they talk bad about me to each other, and that they are going to fire me. Has anyone else experienced this type of OCD perfectionism that affects there performance within school or work and if so is there anything that you did in order to help recenter yourself in the moment to stop your brain from running in circles?
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