- Username
- loveyourself
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I can’t take this anymore
I feel like God has abandoned me because my thoughts are out of control. 😭
- Username
- TerryLee2217TerryLee2217
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Whew! Just cried out to God yesterday for that thousandth time. I just feel abandoned by Him. Like why God, why did you allow me your innocent child to have all these bad and scary thoughts and images. Truth is we have to suffer, it's in His Word. It's all for His Glory, even though it feels tortuous. Not sure if you're Christian or not but I love knowing that Jesus cries with me. That He hears me. You're not alone and Job, David, Sarah, Esther, Stephen, Peter they all went through a lot of scary obstacles. You're in good company.
- Username
- loveyourselfloveyourself
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@TerryLee2217 Yes, I am a Christian, and I completely understand and have gone through exactly what you’ve talked about. Sometimes I forget that Jesus is constantly praying for us and hurts with us. Thank you for reminding me that He is always there. I’ll keep you in my prayers. Here’s a verse that has helped me - I hope it helps you as well: “For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” II Timothy 1:7
- Username
- TerryLee2217TerryLee2217
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@loveyourself Amen thank you so much! We are covered by Christ, He's got this !
- Username
- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Yup something we all go through as Christians with scrupulosity. There’s days I feel like he is completely abandoned me and days I feel like he’s still there. Our feelings betray us a LOT especially with OCD. It’s hard but we have to understand that he knows we don’t want or mean these thoughts.I’m not educated on this part of the Bible but paul who killed Christians was forgiven by God so why can’t God forgive us for just thinking thoughts we don’t want? Also word says he will never leave or forsake us. Believe me I know even telling you this is still hard to process but you’ll get there we got this even I still struggle to understand. Also I want you to join this group I’m in called scrupulosity.com it’s a coaching group with Christains with OCD helps a lot it’s 14 dollars a month but worth it IMO
- Username
- loveyourselfloveyourself
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Anonymous Thank you for your encouragement. My pastor has often preached about how we should not rely on our feelings as they are deceitful and changing all the time. I will definitely check out the group, thank you for sharing it with me.
- Username
- ElevenBElevenB
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@loveyourself Mark Dejesus is another good one to follow. He has scrupulosity. He has tons of videos on YouTube. And Jaimie Eckert at Scrupulosity Solutions also has Scrupulosity. They both are bible based.
- Username
- ElevenBElevenB
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I know that feeling all too well. Had it for over 40 years. I hope you are doing therapy.
- Username
- loveyourselfloveyourself
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@R. Byrd I’m sorry to hear that you’ve struggled with this for such a long time. It’s very exhausting. Right now I’m not in therapy, but I may reconsider it.
- Username
- ElevenBElevenB
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@loveyourself I highly recommend NOCD for therapy. The ERP is extremely hard but I believe it's going to help. So many have said it worked for them. You can get the free 15 minute call at NOCD and they will help you.
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- Username
- student7451
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I feel like I'm being spiritually attacked I just want to have control of my thoughts without feeling like I'm an evil being. I love God and Jesus and I feel like I'm the only one who maybe needs to be put in a mental hospital.
- Username
- Anonymous69
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I feel like I’m completely going freaking psychotic. This is taking away my faith, which I thought was pretty strong. It tells me to not bother praying because God isn’t helping. It’s telling me that I am the worst person, worthy of death. That I deserve every bad thing that comes to me. And I believe that. I hate that I’m having these thoughts in my own mind. I hate that I feel this out of control. The medication isn’t helping. My head is always spinning. Nothing is helping because nothing lasts with this stupid disease. The good days don’t last. The efforts to work don’t last. I’m losing my mind and going insane. I don’t have access to a therapist. I don’t have resources here. I’m so irritated and scared that I could just give up. I literally don’t even know what to do with myself right now. I feel crazy and hopeless. I feel like I should turn myself in. And I mean every last word I’ve said. There’s no exaggeration.
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