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- loveyourself
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- 1y ago
I can’t take this anymore
I feel like God has abandoned me because my thoughts are out of control. 😭
I feel like God has abandoned me because my thoughts are out of control. 😭
Whew! Just cried out to God yesterday for that thousandth time. I just feel abandoned by Him. Like why God, why did you allow me your innocent child to have all these bad and scary thoughts and images. Truth is we have to suffer, it's in His Word. It's all for His Glory, even though it feels tortuous. Not sure if you're Christian or not but I love knowing that Jesus cries with me. That He hears me. You're not alone and Job, David, Sarah, Esther, Stephen, Peter they all went through a lot of scary obstacles. You're in good company.
@TerryLee2217 Yes, I am a Christian, and I completely understand and have gone through exactly what you’ve talked about. Sometimes I forget that Jesus is constantly praying for us and hurts with us. Thank you for reminding me that He is always there. I’ll keep you in my prayers. Here’s a verse that has helped me - I hope it helps you as well: “For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” II Timothy 1:7
@loveyourself Amen thank you so much! We are covered by Christ, He's got this !
Yup something we all go through as Christians with scrupulosity. There’s days I feel like he is completely abandoned me and days I feel like he’s still there. Our feelings betray us a LOT especially with OCD. It’s hard but we have to understand that he knows we don’t want or mean these thoughts.I’m not educated on this part of the Bible but paul who killed Christians was forgiven by God so why can’t God forgive us for just thinking thoughts we don’t want? Also word says he will never leave or forsake us. Believe me I know even telling you this is still hard to process but you’ll get there we got this even I still struggle to understand. Also I want you to join this group I’m in called scrupulosity.com it’s a coaching group with Christains with OCD helps a lot it’s 14 dollars a month but worth it IMO
@Anonymous Thank you for your encouragement. My pastor has often preached about how we should not rely on our feelings as they are deceitful and changing all the time. I will definitely check out the group, thank you for sharing it with me.
@loveyourself Mark Dejesus is another good one to follow. He has scrupulosity. He has tons of videos on YouTube. And Jaimie Eckert at Scrupulosity Solutions also has Scrupulosity. They both are bible based.
I know that feeling all too well. Had it for over 40 years. I hope you are doing therapy.
@R. Byrd I’m sorry to hear that you’ve struggled with this for such a long time. It’s very exhausting. Right now I’m not in therapy, but I may reconsider it.
@loveyourself I highly recommend NOCD for therapy. The ERP is extremely hard but I believe it's going to help. So many have said it worked for them. You can get the free 15 minute call at NOCD and they will help you.
I just need help. I’m in a spiral right now! I feel like I offended God with an intrusive thought. I’m scared. I know it’s not rational. My brain is making me think it’s me, but I don’t want to think that way. I’m scared.
Does anybody elses intrusive thoughts feel so real that you are starting to think it's you. These thoughts are starting to feel like there coming from me and I'm not sure what to do. I can't seem to find peace and I'm always in despair I'm trying to focus on God but it's so hard I feel so disconnected from him and scared I'm gonna lose my soul. I can't even pray without intrusive thoughts trying to trick me into thinking I'm not even praying to God. I'm really worried and confused about were these thoughts are coming from I'm starting to feel numb and I'm scared I'm gonna make God mad or something.
Idk what to do right now I'm really freaking out I really want a relationship with God and Jesus and the holy Spirit, but I'm struggling my ocd and whatever I'm going through is destroying my faith, I really want the holy Spirit to transform me, but everytime I notice the holy Spirit I get resisting and want to push him away idk what to do anymore. I'm starting to become cynical towards faith and I'm really freaking out and idk what to do I don't want to be abandoned by God
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