How do I know if I didn’t actually like a thought? Because I feel like I actually genuinely liked it, like no question or anxiety or anything in the moment.
If you have intrusive thoughts, it’s common to desensitise to them a bit after a while, so that they don’t give you as much anxiety as they once did. The lack of anxiety doesn’t in itself mean you like the thoughts or that they were true all along.
Right and this I understand, but my problem was that I genuinely felt like I liked it. The thought was explicit and I hated that I liked it, but I did. Is this normal?
@Dreamer2343 Hi your situation sounds so much like mine my friends and family are telling me it’s the ocd that’s making you like and want these thoughts it’s not you ..: you didn’t have these thoughts before and I just cannot agree I think it’s genuinely me who does like and want the thoughts
@mentalpatient I think it’s key for us (and I do include myself in this because it’s something I really struggle to do) to really understand and accept that our brains are wired in an abnormal way, that we do have an illness, and that we therefore should see and treat ourselves like people who are unwell, not like the monsters we often wrongly believe we are or are becoming. We need to give ourselves this compassion because this is not our fault. What would you tell a friend who told you they are going through exactly what you are currently going through? Would you blame them? Would you question whether or not they really have OCD? My guess is: no you wouldn’t. You would empathise with them and try your best to help them get better.
@mentalpatient Try your best to take a step back from the debate raging inside your mind. You have OCD, and the solution to it is learning to watch these thoughts come and go inside your mind without attributing meaning to them. Every human being on earth gets weird intrusive thoughts all the time. They mostly shrug them off, and chances are you do that too sometimes. But OCD means we sometimes get scared and try to figure the thoughts out. But there’s nothing there to figure out.
@Pudu OCD I really really hope you’re right, but this is so painful right now. I was doing so well for so long and then I slipped back into this dark spot.
@Dreamer2343 I understand, and I have been there. It gets better if you can learn to ignore the thoughts. I found the best way is to physically keep moving on with your day. Don’t try to first completely dismiss the thoughts before continuing your daily activities. It will not work. Just interrupt a thought or question with something like “alrighty, then” and then start on whatever task you had planned to do next. The thought will linger there a little bit. Just focus on your task and it will fade and leave you be. Eventually the thoughts will mostly if not fully stop showing up.
You are questioning it right now.
I’m with you on this one! It’s literally turned me into a p in my mind
@mentalpatient I got to the exact same mental state years ago when struggling with POCD. The anxiety was eventually gone because these thoughts and questions used like 30% of my brain power every single waking hour for years. So I sort of got used to them after a while, as horrible as that sounds. I didn’t know I had OCD. I thought I had become a monster. But I wasn’t m, and I am not 🤷🏻♂️, I am just ill. And in my case, after a long, long while ruminating and compulsing about this, the thoughts eventually just went away. They just up and left, just as they had come. Poof! And never came back. Today I do not have POCD. These thoughts bullied me for years, became the dark center of my life, and then just disappeared one day. But OCD is still here with me. I deal with other creative and fun ways it can show up, but I have learned through this ordeal that the OCD thoughts really are irrelevant.
When I say I feel like I like a thought, I don’t mean the OCD is telling me like a thought or that I concluded that from a physical sensation. I mean, I genuinely feel like something in my brain lights up and it feels like I like it mentally. Whenever I hear people talk about liking thoughts (excitement, arousal), I always see things about groinals or heart flutters. Physical things. I don’t think I really ever see people talk about the mental sensation if this is even a thing. I just wanna know if anyone relates to this or has found an explanation for this because seeing it from an analytical point of view seems to help me sometimes. This is so, *so* especially hard for pocd themed thoughts :( Anyone relate?
Whenever anyone starts to feel like their thoughts are less triggering or they feel a moment of happiness/ relief OCD tells you that you want the thoughts back or you actually like having the thoughts and maybe thats just the person I really am? I feel like im going insane😢
I just had intense sexual thoughts of this 6 yo, I got intense groinal response and I felt like I genuinely liked the thoughts, like I had 0 distress from the thoughts and I felt intense groinal response, I felt like I wanted the thoughts, now I feel like a litteral pedo, I don’t wanna be a pedo, idk why I felt that way towards the thoughts, but it felt genuine, like attraction and enjoyment, I’ve not been diagnosed with pocd and I just started therapy, can someone please help me? Idk why this happened or if it even is pocd, I don’t wish to be a pedo but I feel like one rn.
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