I’m wondering if I’m alone I have harm OCD I get intrusive thoughts of hurting my mom but when I tell her to hide the knife I get this urge to find a knife I hope I’m not the only one I’m getting very scared of OCD
Hi there, you are definitely not alone harm OCD is very common. I would encourage you to reach out to NOCD for therapy. Their therapists are trained to deal with OCD and you can feel safe and confident in discussing your fears with them. This article may help https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/how-to-overcome-harm-ocd-treatment-erp?utm_source=google_ads&utm_medium=ppc&utm_campaign=20238508236&utm_adgroup=&utm_term=&gclid=Cj0KCQjwvL-oBhCxARIsAHkOiu0k86qIzTzPjYuL4Yvv3RAqvcdX95_hQVaqpwLiB9S0HeVmnWDYOLgaAo4HEALw_wcB Wishing you all the best, you don't have to suffer with these feelings, take care.
SSRIs helped me treat these symptoms- maybe talk to your doctor and see if it would be a good fit?
@Friend123 I am taking them for about 10 years. I’m taking Luvox. 
@Friend123 Nothing is working 
@Edwin P Maybe a more intensive program? Some extended family of mine has had success with in/out-patient care.
I struggle with wanting to hide ‘weapons’ all the time. Unfortunately when I do I become hyper aware of what I mean by ‘weapon’ and the thoughts stream in regardless of whether or not there is one in view. You’re not alone in the experience.
@Erick K  thank you  sometimes I feel like I’m alone with OCD but it’s good to hear that we’re not 
Hiding things is a compulsion and won't help you get better - it only makes OCD worse. Doing ERP will help you overcome this. I know it's hard to do, I'm having trouble doing ERP on the harm theme because it's my most difficult one. But I also know that doing compulsions only makes OCD worse, so I'm working on not doing compulsions when the intrusive thoughts happen... and working towards doing intentional ERP as the next step towards recovery.
Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.
There are times my harm ocd has me convinced that my feelings of self harm or suicide and harm are real and that any moment I could commit the act on myself or my family. Is there anyone who can chime in on this. I feel like all the time I want to leave run away or avoid my family because of these thoughts. Like I shouldn’t be around my children and I don’t trust myself.
Honestly ocd has been so tough these past months, like I wake up in the morning thinking I accidentally hurt my whole family and just don’t remember. And I start to question so much. And freak out thinking that I did. If anyone can relate I would love to hear from you ;) and any things that may helped you
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