I’m wondering if I’m alone I have harm OCD I get intrusive thoughts of hurting my mom but when I tell her to hide the knife I get this urge to find a knife I hope I’m not the only one I’m getting very scared of OCD
Hi there, you are definitely not alone harm OCD is very common. I would encourage you to reach out to NOCD for therapy. Their therapists are trained to deal with OCD and you can feel safe and confident in discussing your fears with them. This article may help https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/how-to-overcome-harm-ocd-treatment-erp?utm_source=google_ads&utm_medium=ppc&utm_campaign=20238508236&utm_adgroup=&utm_term=&gclid=Cj0KCQjwvL-oBhCxARIsAHkOiu0k86qIzTzPjYuL4Yvv3RAqvcdX95_hQVaqpwLiB9S0HeVmnWDYOLgaAo4HEALw_wcB Wishing you all the best, you don't have to suffer with these feelings, take care.
SSRIs helped me treat these symptoms- maybe talk to your doctor and see if it would be a good fit?
@Friend123 I am taking them for about 10 years. I’m taking Luvox. 
@Friend123 Nothing is working 
@Edwin P Maybe a more intensive program? Some extended family of mine has had success with in/out-patient care.
I struggle with wanting to hide ‘weapons’ all the time. Unfortunately when I do I become hyper aware of what I mean by ‘weapon’ and the thoughts stream in regardless of whether or not there is one in view. You’re not alone in the experience.
@Erick K  thank you  sometimes I feel like I’m alone with OCD but it’s good to hear that we’re not 
Hiding things is a compulsion and won't help you get better - it only makes OCD worse. Doing ERP will help you overcome this. I know it's hard to do, I'm having trouble doing ERP on the harm theme because it's my most difficult one. But I also know that doing compulsions only makes OCD worse, so I'm working on not doing compulsions when the intrusive thoughts happen... and working towards doing intentional ERP as the next step towards recovery.
i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
I dont know whats going on. I dont know if its OCD anymore. I know it was in the beginning. Ive been through a lot of trauma and had one little scary thought of killing my sister 4 months ago that has blossomed into this giant idea of me being a serial killer and wanting to hurt everyone (I never had any social issues growing up but I have had some trauma). Recently I’ve been having urges to just give in. And my mental images have been horrible and I can’t stop checking if I like them or not. I think I’ve convinced myself I have. This morning I woke up a shaking mess with an urge to unalive my family and when my mom left for work I was alone with my sister and couldnt stop vomiting uncontrollably. I dont know if i’m upset because I cant hurt anyone and I want to, or if I’m scared and just want my old life back. I was an avid horror and gore lover and now I’m convinced I want to do the things I’ve seen in the movies. Someone please help. I’m ready to check into the psych ward.
Hello everybody I just am looking for someone to talk to about my harm ocd / false memory/ sexual intrusiveness. Anyone who has healed or found ways to deal with the illness. Feels like I’m losing hope more and more everyday. I want to be okay but it’s hard living with uncertainty and unwanted urges of doing something terrible. Thanks god bless.
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