Guys please help :(

@Aurora… Omg exactly that

@Aurora… I can control this to a point basically being able to imagine things and it happens the same way but it’s only when I dissociate. When they do just pop it it’s always unwarranted and extremely violent… which I tend to dislike.

@ObsessivePenguin I always thought it was insane and wondered if anyone else had these thoughts. Crazy isn’t it 🤹 but it can be really difficult sometimes how do these thoughts affect you?

@Aurora… I think I’m the only one and that used to worry me like “how can I imagine one room when I’m in another” do you know what I mean?

@ObsessivePenguin Yes and scary how detailed everything would be lol. Our minds are definitely very active I wonder sometimes if this would ever go away and if it did…. I think I’d kinda miss it?

@Aurora… Mine is worse when I’m just say around doing nothing. Like on a train or a bus

@ObsessivePenguin In some ways when I’m bored or my mind isn’t really on anything it starts running. Like it’s keeping me entertained ig? Never lets my mind stop running 💭

@Aurora… I have never heard someone explain it so perfectly, that gave me chills..

@skeler0ses I thought really hard when trying to describe 👍🏼🫡 really connected within myself

@Aurora… Is it just ocd you have? I thought I was insane? I was like “how on Earth can anyone see both reality and a mental image. I’m alone”

@ObsessivePenguin Well I am actually undiagnosed completely. I am not sure what I have but I do think I have ocd along with this I think there might be some other issues but when I can actually talk to a therapist I’ll dig into that

@ObsessivePenguin But you definitely aren’t alone because I too am the same way 🫶🏼

@Aurora… You’ve really helped :)

@Aurora… So they’re sometimes intrusive as well right?

@ObsessivePenguin Well most of the time they are like 90% of the time for me so yeah that’s the depiction of suicide or harm to others part

@ObsessivePenguin My brain will imagine scenarios like if the person next to me got shot in the face and like an image of it plays out. Or of I imagine myself doing something like that “separate” version of me then acts it out

@Aurora… Yeah mine can be about anything though. Like totally imagined scenarios that aren’t to do with the room im in. Does that make sense? Sorry for all the questions

@Salem ❤️‍🔥 Do your thoughts also look like my drawing?:)

@ObsessivePenguin They do

@Aurora… About anything? Wow you’ve been amazing. Thanks 🙏

@ObsessivePenguin It does make sense it’s like one side of you brain thinks and sees things and the other half is running its own thoughts and seeing its own things but you’re only seeing what your brain is imagining while you’re still consciously looking through your eyes 😭 when I try to explain it starts to sound so weird but is that at all how it feels for you too? And like when you focus on that though your brain drifts over more and kinda ignores what your eyes see.

@Aurora… I explain it “like a girl comes over my eyes”

@ObsessivePenguin Literally about anything I feel like it depends on my mental state but for it to be very vivid I have to be in a pretty bad state of mind, that’s when everything gets really detailed. I don’t think I could ever do the things I see myself do but at the same time it’s so weird to think about.

@ObsessivePenguin 😂😂😂 the moment your brain blurs why is that such an accurate description lmao

@Aurora… I’ve never met someone so alike to me. It’s mad!! 😝

@ObsessivePenguin As soon as I saw that drawing I was so shocked because I said that’s literally me 😂👍🏼

@ObsessivePenguin Yes, they often look a lot like that actually

@Salem ❤️‍🔥 Do you ever have really weird images?

@ObsessivePenguin Yes, because I have a lot of sexual trauma, a lot of my intrusive thoughts are sexual. Some of these are with strangers, animals, objects, whatever. And in these images, they’re so graphic and quick. Kind of like they completely take over my vision for a split second. And my face always goes pale when I have these thoughts… I started getting really really anxious.

@Salem ❤️‍🔥 It really is 😂👍🏼

@Salem ❤️‍🔥 Even the text around it explaining it?:)

@Aurora… I’m shocked you agree with the text around the drawing explaining it

@ObsessivePenguin Well yeah it’s describing how the thoughts appear and how you focus out from that being the main thought to what’s actually going on. It’s a big distraction but it’s so real. Sometimes I find myself in and out of both visions trying to collect my thoughts.

@Aurora… Sometimes it feels like that weird overlap right?

@ObsessivePenguin Yesss exactly lol 💭

@Aurora… Honestly, this helped so much. Don’t get me wrong, my ocd is telling me that you’re lying about - Having overlap with your intrusive images/flashes and reality - That weird transparent feeling of your mage when zoning out and seeing that and reality/the room you’re sat in But these past few days have been my fav. I’ll keep trying to believe.

@Salem ❤️‍🔥 Honestly both, this helped so much. Don’t get me wrong, my ocd is telling me that you’re lying about - Having overlap with your intrusive images/flashes and reality - That weird transparent feeling of your mage when zoning out and seeing that and reality/the room you’re sat in But these past few days have been my fav. I’ll keep trying to believe.

@ObsessivePenguin Yeah but hey I can’t believe someone sees it the same way I do either like I don’t think it’s the same or that anyone else would understand but what you agree with sayings it’s like that makes me feel like you might see what I see too.