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@TeaTea yes!! this is what i called good days to bad days. i could be doing really good for a few days and then all of a sudden BOOM its vicious cycle. this is something that everyone experiences and is very normal. i sort of phrase it like this, “some days ocd can be more convincing than other days”. it’s almost like ocd picks and chooses. the next time this happens i want you to remember this post. i hope i was able to help!

@Jimplaysjenga absolutely. i even get images, repeating words (bad words/relating to the intrusive thought) or even visuals. i can tell you this FIRST HAND.

@Anonymous ocd can convince you of nearly anything. this is called real event ocd. where ocd may convince you of you being a bad person for your past. if your talking about intrusive imagery/visuals, its why it feels so real! trust me this is ocd.

@Millz Same, past mistakes in my relationship i already confessed 2 yrs ago, and been with ocd ever since… im scared that we might break up bc of rocd, but im also scared that if we stay together im always going to remember something and feel anxious

@Anonimo05 I know how you feel, it's like crawling at your mind and you can't enjoy the present moment with your partner. I know the thoughts/memories aren't worth mentioning but if I don't mention them my mind makes me feel like I'm lying or hiding something which leads me to have an internal battle to not confess

@Millz ive encountered both of these before. all i can recommend for the urges is to let yourself know that you aren’t letting ocd win this time and that this person doesn’t NEED to know about this, it is difficult but will get easier with practice. when i was younger i did some.. and weird things and lets just say remembering them at my worst made it 10x worse! I thought my past mistakes were evidence that i was doomed to be evil. You ate not your past, you would not be worrying about such things in the first place if it was an issue. i really hope i could help and you got this. remember, this WILL pass. it may not seem like it will end but trust me it will.

@eliwasas Thank you! How would you recommend dealing with triggers? For example one regular item or person then the mind correlates with something of the past or a person?

@Millz i struggle with this still and what works for me is time. giving yourself the time to desensitize yourself and sit with that uncomfortable unknown is key! it could definitely be hard to not correlate with an item it person but anytime this happens just remind yourself that its normal and you will experience this in recovery.

@Joyas not fully recovered but with time, you start to desensitize. therefore it will not have less impact. the ampunt of time can vary from treatments, therapies, medications, etc. personally for me, ACT, ERP, and CBT have never worked for me. what did was medication and self acceptance. i wish you the best and this will pass.

@eliwasas Did you mean medication or meditation is what helped you?

@Ivyk medication specifically zol0ft

@eliwasas Thank u man 🙏🏻 that’s awsome from u 🌻

@eliwasas What didn't you like about ERP? I'm currently doing talk therapy

@Millz im the kind of person with ocd that gets triggered by almost anything! so exposures could open my ocd to new intrusive thoughts/visuals and this happened everytime. i would then be stuck with those thoughts for weeks and then its something new. its gotten easier over time but i still have many off days, we’ll eventually get there. after being told im one of the most severe cases if not THE mody severe case they have seen in their entire careers i had no hope, but medication was my savior. if i could get here, YOU can get here.

@eliwasas Thank you for sharing you're experience, that's really brave of you to try so many different forms of therapy. I understand your point of view on ERP, I'm considering it but same thing I can get easily triggered and my intrusive thoughts easily lead to rumination/all or nothing scenarios

@Tee10 i am sorry to hear this. existential is a category that feels much different than others because it makes you question reality! I can tell you everything is very real and that everyone has a different recovery period which can take years. do not worry, you will see the light soon. i hope i was able to brighten your mood a bit, good luck and wishing a healthy and speedy recovery!

@eliwasas I don’t even question reality, more so draw negative conclusions to things pertaining to our brain, why we do the things we do, and nihilistic stuff.

@Tee10 And feelings

@Tee10 this!!! its almost like, “wow i got a new job!” then ocd goes “ok and? whats the point we all pass away in the end” which then causes that guilt, dread, hopelessness feeling.

@eliwasas Yes…omg it’s such a scary, sickening feeling 😢

@Tee10 you are not alone!