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- Date posted
- 1y
(Trigger warning ⚠️) Some of my compulsions with harm OCD are: constantly clearing my throat, checking my heart rate, looking into my mouth, blowing my nose, really hard, saying the word hello to make sure I’m not choking, swallowing water nonstop, asking my partner multiple times if they are okay, constantly checking my ring cameras, going to the doctor or er, googling symptoms, looking for reassurance from a loved one that I am okay, checking the color of my lips. I hope this helps! And sorry if this was triggering!
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- 1y
Thank you :)
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- 1y
For me, it’s stuff like: avoidance, googling/looking on NOCD and Reddit to see if people have experienced what I have, arguing with the thoughts (so for example: “no this can’t be true because…”), repeating I think? (sometimes I’ll say “no that’s bad!! that’s bad!” like I’m trying to make it stick by scolding myself), trying to correct/replace negative thoughts (like, sometimes I’ll try to remove negative aspects of thoughts and replace them with good aspects), shaking my head/cringing, self-punishment?? sort of?? (I’ve always been sort of self-critical so idk if that’s really a compulsion but I’m sure it doesn’t help and it gets worse after thoughts sometimes), sleeping (to a degree), and there are times where I’ve scratched myself too (and that probably counts as self-harm which isn’t good but it’s happened so). I probably have others that I’m not remembering but that’s some of them.
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- 1y
@bkelp213 also I just realized how crowded this all looks, woops. My bad 😓
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@bkelp213 It's okey! Thank you for responding, I relate :)
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- 1y
telling myself it’s not real, googling, knocking on wood twice, reassurance and confessing my thoughts
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 25w
no clue if this is compulsive, but I’m interested to hear any obsessions others have that aren’t the “common” ones you see online about what ROCD is? a few for me: - thoughts about their partner being with someone else instead (sometimes a specific person) and then trying to analyze your reaction to it? e.g. does it *feel* more right than us, do I actually feel happy for them, etc. - trying to imagine your partner in your current situation or maybe a specific future situation (when they’re not around) and trying to decide if they “fit” in it? - being super scared of losing them, then suddenly feeling like you don’t care much for them at all, and just constantly cycling? - I almost never fully enjoyed sex because I was constantly obsessing about whether or not I was turned on, turned on “enough,” if I was just having groinal responses and wasn’t actually turned on, looking at his face just to decide if I find him attractive enough, comparing my experience with how I feel watching content alone, etc.
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- 24w
I’ve been feeling the urge to avoid intimacy or purposefully engage (for reassurance that I won’t give into a compulsion) because of intrusive thoughts and fear that I’ll “check/test” my reactions. My OCD is making me so scared that I’ll purposefully think of a child and try to see if I like it. It’s so complicated but I guess I’m mentally checking if I would mentally check during intimacy. I’ve even envisioned myself checking and it’s making me so nauseous. I know it’s a compulsion like any other but the sound of “touching yourself to the thought of a child” sounds atrocious and vile. I’m terrified I’ll automatically start checking next time I am being intimate. I truly feel so worried. If anyone has gone through something similar, I’d appreciate hearing your experience. Or if anyone has any advice?
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- Date posted
- 19w
This list by ai gives a good summary of my symptoms. Does it resemble OCD or is it something else? 1. Compulsions (OCD-specific behaviors): • Feeling the need to flex or contract muscles an even number of times, equally on both sides of your body. • Needing to reverse actions (for example, if you roll your eyes or trace a line with your finger, you feel compelled to do it again in the exact opposite way). 2. Intrusive Thoughts (OCD-specific ruminations): • Daydreaming about people you care about getting hurt (e.g., school shooting, injury, or kidnapping). • Sometimes feeling like you might want something bad to happen to someone you find attractive—possibly because of a desire to help or save them, though it’s confusing. • These thoughts can sometimes provide a twisted sense of relief while remaining distressing and confusing. 3. Sexual Orientation OCD: • Experiencing confusion or doubt about your sexual orientation. 4. Contamination Thoughts: • Feeling like things are contaminated, especially after touching something gross. 5. Sensory Compulsions: • Feeling the need to smell your hand after touching areas like your ear or hair. 6. ADHD-like Symptoms / Additional Observations: • Fidgeting or moving your legs when standing or sitting.
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