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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
(Trigger warning ⚠️) Some of my compulsions with harm OCD are: constantly clearing my throat, checking my heart rate, looking into my mouth, blowing my nose, really hard, saying the word hello to make sure I’m not choking, swallowing water nonstop, asking my partner multiple times if they are okay, constantly checking my ring cameras, going to the doctor or er, googling symptoms, looking for reassurance from a loved one that I am okay, checking the color of my lips. I hope this helps! And sorry if this was triggering!
- Date posted
- 1y
Thank you :)
- Date posted
- 1y
For me, it’s stuff like: avoidance, googling/looking on NOCD and Reddit to see if people have experienced what I have, arguing with the thoughts (so for example: “no this can’t be true because…”), repeating I think? (sometimes I’ll say “no that’s bad!! that’s bad!” like I’m trying to make it stick by scolding myself), trying to correct/replace negative thoughts (like, sometimes I’ll try to remove negative aspects of thoughts and replace them with good aspects), shaking my head/cringing, self-punishment?? sort of?? (I’ve always been sort of self-critical so idk if that’s really a compulsion but I’m sure it doesn’t help and it gets worse after thoughts sometimes), sleeping (to a degree), and there are times where I’ve scratched myself too (and that probably counts as self-harm which isn’t good but it’s happened so). I probably have others that I’m not remembering but that’s some of them.
- Date posted
- 1y
@bkelp213 also I just realized how crowded this all looks, woops. My bad 😓
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- 1y
@bkelp213 It's okey! Thank you for responding, I relate :)
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- 1y
telling myself it’s not real, googling, knocking on wood twice, reassurance and confessing my thoughts
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- Date posted
- 24w
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- Date posted
- 19w
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- Date posted
- 19w
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