Does anyone else repeat things like phrases in their head to reassure themselves about things like relationships and sexuality. I say things everyday and now I’m convinced it’s just straight up denial and that I’m refusing to accept the truth. Feel like my whole life has been a lie now.
I think I do like saying things “I don’t wanna be bi I wanna be straight” and then I was on quora and someone said something about telling yourself you wanna be or become straight just sounds like you already know you aren’t . So now I’m stuck again
@Sp1999 My main phrase is I’m not lesbian bi or gay I’m straight. I seriously hate my life this is the worst thing ever. Why me I don’t understand I don’t deserve this.
@pray for me That feeds the ocd. I had my session today and she told me it feeds the ocd and makes it stronger
@pray for me I always saw myself to be straight and then ocd happened I get your pain I do
@Sp1999 U are!! We all are. Ocd is making us doubt it cuz that’s what ocd does. Pls don’t let ocd win. I knw how u all feel I’m going through the same
@Anonymo12 I hope so, I really do. And if I’m not I hope I can accept myself and be happy
@Sp1999 It’s ocd for a reason. If these thoughts went away tonight, what would u be?
@Anonymo12 I don’t know honestly
@Sp1999 Cmon u do knw ur letting ocd play u!
@Anonymo12 It’s been confusing man, it’s been a little over 2 years of this same theme
@Sp1999 I’ve beat it before and it’s come back for me. Been 3 months since it’s come back
@Anonymo12 I wish it would go away at the same time I don’t bc I’m scared what my life will be and who I will be .
@Sp1999 That’s me rn, I’m scared what would happen if it went away. But ik what I am, even if hocd doubts it. Don’t give up. Are u a female or male?
@Anonymo12 I’m a male bro & I’m just scared man. I don’t wanna like men .
@Sp1999 Bro, same here I’m scared. But guess what, we don’t like males because we never did, we would’ve known froma young age, I’m not reassuring u at all, but hang in there. We both got this mam
@Anonymo12 Of course I’m doubting if I didn’t like males at a young age and stuff bc of certain memories that took place but I’m scared bro
@pray for me You're not alone, I also tell myself "I'm not gay" "I'm not me" "I don't deserve this" are compulsions apparently but they keep me "safe"
That’s what happens when you repeat phrases trying to relieve anxiety. At some point OCD tells you you’re only doing them because you’re lying to yourself. I do the same compulsions so I understand why you do them
I always say “please God don’t let me be gay” and “I don’t want to be gay I want it to stop” and “don’t touch me” when I get a sexually intrusive image. I feel like this is just denial at their point.
I suffer with a constant worry of what if I’ve cheated. You name it I’ve thought I’ve done it. I’m quite flirty at nature and also insecure. Sometimes hand in hand I don’t think they balance each other out as the constant need for attention to validate myself can backfire. Although I have the best partner ever and she makes me feel nothing less than beautiful I still crave validation from others. That being said someone I used to work with left over half a year ago and when they worked at my current place of work we were very close. Text everyday, phone calls you name it. However looking back I was extra flirty as I wanted him to fancy me. I wanted the power to turn him down to make myself feel better. Awful I know. Now all I can think about is what if I’ve done something. What if I kissed him. What if I’ve slept with him etc. I’ve kept our whole conversations from the minute I got his personal number. I constantly search key words to see if my intrusive thoughts are real. I can except the uncertainty my therapist tells me about as if I have done the worst and cheated I would loose my partner and our 10 year relationship. I love her so much she is my life but I can’t stop thinking what if I’ve cheated. Does anyone else suffer with the same theme? If so how do you cope?
I am in an endless battle to figure things out. I think I figure something out that makes me feel better about my thoughts and then I find something else to prove it wrong and the cycle continues. I have so much discomfort I want to confess to my partner so bad. How do I handle this. I don’t think I’ve ever sat in this much discomfort. Why does it feel THIS BAD.
Hi everyone, I’ve already been diagnosed with OCD, and I strongly suspect that I’ve developed a ROCD pattern. I wanted to share a specific situation that just won’t leave me alone – even though it’s objectively been cleared up. I’m in a relationship with a man who is, by nature, a very transparent, honest, and loyal person. Rationally, I know I can trust him. Recently, he got a phone call while I was with him. I asked him to check who it was. He hesitated briefly and then checked kind of slowly – the number wasn’t saved. To me, the whole thing just felt a bit strange. It didn’t seem like “open behavior,” even though he told me afterward that he simply didn’t have the energy to deal with it, since he had generally had a bad day. The problem is: Even after this explanation – which makes sense – the thoughts won’t go away. I keep replaying the situation in my head, analyzing his reaction, wondering if that hesitation meant something – even though I know he didn’t do anything wrong. I feel like I need to bring it up again to feel at ease. But I also know that would only bring temporary relief, and then the cycle would start all over again. It feels just like other OCD loops – only this time, it’s centered around my relationship. Have any of you experienced something like this? How do you stop yourself from falling into the reassurance trap over and over again? I don’t want to overwhelm or hurt my partner unnecessarily – I just want to learn how to manage this inner tension better. did it sound like ocd?? Rocd?? Thanks for reading. It really helps to know I’m not alone. (edited)
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