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@Anonymo12 I think you’re depressed because you’re actually straight and struggling with ocd

@Gabrielle100% Did u have soocd too? Or did u always knw u was gay? I’ve always been straight and I’m so scared and upset I don’t want to be gay

@Anonymous Can we talk bro? As a guy and ur a guy too I think we can talk and help eafhother

@Gabrielle100% Ahahahah my ocd uses everything you said against me like that im only denying it and that I actually want it while im sure i dont

@Anonymous I don’t think you want it or you wouldn’t be on here freaking out

@Gabrielle100% Could you read what I said please

@pray for me I read the post and I don’t see any other comments

@Gabrielle100% What about now

@pray for me But you’re are just asking her to reassure you wich is really bad for you

@pray for me What is your sexuality?

@Gabrielle100% I’m straight

@pray for me And I assume that you’re having ocd about being gay?

@Gabrielle100% Yes

@pray for me What are the thoughts you are having?

@Gabrielle100% Just doubting my sexuality, getting intrusive imagine and thoughts about being with the same sex. I’m a female btw in a almost 2 year relationship with my boyfriend who I love so much. It all started with dreams and now I’ve spiraled. I get sexual imagines that are disturbing. There’s just so much. I don’t wanna be gay. I’ve always been straight I’ve never seen women in that way ever .

@pray for me It sounds like ocd to me. Dreams mean nothing. OCD can cause reoccurring dreams that freak you out. And images. You’re not purposely daydreaming about the same sex are you? That’s when you know you’re gay. If you were gay you’d daydream about the same sex. You’d enjoy it. You’d get the same feelings for girls that you have for your boyfriend. Trust me Im a lesbian and I know what gay is. That doesn’t strike gay to me

@Gabrielle100% I don’t purposely daydream more so day dreaming to see if I get a reaction. I’ve always been attracted to men I meant it. I’ve only ever compared myself to girls like wishing I had their bodies or nose or skin. I know dreams mean nothing but I truly did feel like it means something to me so now I convinced myself that I’m bi when I don’t wanna be at all. I feel uncomfortable at the thought of having sex or a relationship with a girl. I don’t enjoy any single thought about same sex stuff, it’s not natural, I’ve only had relationships with men. I don’t want to explore I want to move past this. I want to be happy with my boyfriend again. The more reoccurring these dreams are the mor convinced I am that I’m bi it lesbian. I’d be crushed to leave my boyfriend absolutely broken. Especially if it were to be my sexuality that’s the cause. At this point it just feels like my whole life is a lie and that I’m lying to myself right now about every even if it’s me saying I’m straight or me saying I’m bi. I just hate it. Why me.

@Gabrielle100% Well don’t people with HOCD purposely conjure up same sex thoughts so they could test?

@Anonymous Yes some do but that’s a different intention. Gay people do it because they want to. They enjoy it. There is no intention to test with gays. They just do it cause it feels good

@Gabrielle100% Got it - I mean I have SOOCD too.. so that part got me off guard, but I could see your point. I’ve always done it to test and see it I can get a reaction.. but as you know, still all messed up lol You’re great for helping out though

@Gabrielle100% Meaning?

@Gabrielle100% Can you help me how can i know if im not only pretending because of society

@Anonymous I’m a gay woman. I used to feel ashamed because of society. Even though I had shame I enjoyed my day dreams quite well. I purposely engaged in dreams not to see if I was gay but because I enjoyed them. I did it for the pleasure. If you are afraid and find no pleasure in the thoughts then you can be rest assured that that is not your true sexual orientation.

@Gabrielle100% I used to feel disgust with these thoughts, and now I don’t at all. I feel no anxiety, I’m scared. I don’t feel any pleasure at all from this. I feel discomfort calling myself straight now. I feel like I’ve lost. I’m scared that it ll be my true orientation. I feel like shit. I never felt or questioned my sexuality once. Now it feels like I am gay. I don’t like it at all. What u think?

@Anonymo12 I think you just got used to the thoughts. After a while we can become somewhat used to them. I think theirs because you still seem disgusted by the thoughts, I think your mind has learned to be somewhat functional with the disturbing thoughts. It happened to me with my ocd. As for the homosexual attraction I have, that only increased. I got very attracted to women and less to men to the point I couldn’t deny it anymore. To a point I decided to try women and quit being ashamed. I enjoy women and find no disgust in it.

@Gabrielle100% Is mine ocd ? I hate this so much. Now that u compared it to urs I feel like ima turn gay. I can’t do this anymore. I’m scared. I hate it. I don’t wanna be this. I wanna be straight like I’ve always been. I wanna be into women. I wanna have love and romance with a woman. I hate it so much

@Gabrielle100% Yeah but now i read that and my brain tells me you like that bla bla eich is ocd 1 of 1

@Gabrielle100% My ocd started from same sex dreams that were cause by accidentally seeing same sex porn which I was never ever interested in. Because of those dreams I convinced myself I am not straight. The first time it happened I was able to forget it for a couple months then I had a reoccurring dream and then was for sure that it meant I was something even though I don’t wanna be. Im also in a relationship with my boyfriend of almost 2 years. I’ve never ever been interested in girls , I’ve only compared myself to them wishing I looked like them or had their style. Now I have SOOCD and ROCD . I repeat things in my head like I’m not lesbian or gay or bi Im straight. I’d say me and my boyfriend are gonna be ok or I’d say his name and mine and say me and blank together forever. I do thing almost every second of the day. I get triggered by anything that’s gay related whether it’s ok tik tok or tv. I get intrusive thoughts but more disturbing imagine of same sex stuff. I hate it all it makes me sui**dal. I love my boyfriend. I’ve always been boy crazy. I always wanted a family of my own and to get married. Now I feel like I’ve been lying to myself my whole life and I hate it all I hate myself it mentally draining. I never onced questioned my sexuality until these dream’s happened. I’ve cried endlessly night and morning and to my boyfriend and family. Wishing I could go back to my old happy straight self with no worry. I lost myself and I am giving up on everything. I never onced thought about girls like that ever. I hate this I wanna be normal again. If it weren’t for those stupid dreams I’d be ok and happy. But it’s taken over my life now and I’m depressed and have anxiety and ocd. Now it’s affected my relationship and my sex drive. I was so intimate with my bf and enjoyed every second and now it feels like I’m doing this to hide something. I avoid seeing gay stuff. I don’t wanna turn gay or les, no offense it makes me sick and feels so unnatural for me. I wish there was a cure for this, I pray to god that I can be happy with myself and my boyfriend again. I don’t deserve this, no one does. I feel hopeless .

@Gabrielle100% I think it’s the denial part that is triggering all of us here 😂because essentially that’s what we are all scared of deep down, like we’re in denial and just using OCD as an excuse. I know for me the groinal response aspect of SO OCD is the most triggering bc I have always loved men romantically and love having sex with them, but I’ll see lesbian content and be aroused. Instead of enjoying it, the thoughts make it distressing. I’d assume as a gay women, you have never found it distressing? I’ve never wanted to be with a women or could even picture it. But it’s the arousal that my OCD hyper focuses on.

@Gabrielle100% Gabrielle can you tell me if mine is ocd i have been suffering with this now for 3 years,before it I never thought about this topic and got on with my life dating girls hooking up with girls and even had a little family too,then this happed i had a random thought come in to my head that I am gay I was like wait what how and went in to panic and wanted to avoid everything and and everyone it’s not as bad as then now but still hard to do life with,and the problem with this is it feels so real I looked up if sexuality can change on google and find out apparently it can that triggered me so bad and I was like what if that me I tried to watch two dudes kissing on you tube but It feels forced and I felt sick and very uncomfortable no pleasure was there at all my heart is beating crazy and I feel like the world is going to end I was nearly sick and couldn’t watch it with out gagging but my head was like that proves nothing could you please help me I am stuck and in a really bad place sorry for the long message

@kyle g tucker Sounds like ocd to me. Looking up two dudes to see how you react is something ocd would do. Gay people wouldn’t be gagging and grossed out. They would want to do it. Sexuality doesn’t change in a moment. It slowly changes and you don’t jump from straight to gay. It would be a slow progression from straight to bi to gay and not in a moment. It was just ocd causing an intrusive thought to make you panic. You would not be grossed out and scared like this. You would be enjoying it if you were gay

@Gabrielle100% Thank you oh I thought when you change you just change it is hell for me this I feel so stuck don’t know what to do I got with a girl and was able to preform no problem so if this was real surely I wouldn’t have been able to and thank you this has really helped

@kyle g tucker Most people don’t change either. Usually they always had tendencies. If you’re straight as an adult then you’re probably not going to change. I used to be bi before I was gay, I’ve never been straight. Everyone I know that’s gay has always had tendencies. They never woke up one day and suddenly liked the same sex. Really most were always bi and then became gay or stayed bi

@Gabrielle100% Thanks this is really helpful I know that logically but ocd don’t work with that it just feels like I am in denial and need to admit how ever never had gay tendencies before this I have always liked girls but now I don’t feel as attracted well at least I don’t think I do all I know is my anxiety is through the roof from the minute I open my eyes to the moment I close them

@kyle g tucker I think you’re probably less attracted because of anxiety.

@Anonymo12 You ain’t gay if you want romance with a woman. You’re like everyone else on here. You straight

@Gabrielle100% Uve said something sbt gay tendencies ? What do u mean?

@Anonymo12 People don’t just wake up gay one day. They start with mild attractions and then they get stronger. OCD hits all at once and can start with strong feelings that are contrary to what the person wants.

@Gabrielle100% Why does this feel like me? I’m scared now. Ik my ocd symptoms were mild or they wernt that much. And now it feels stronger. And now what u described it feels like that’s what’s happening to me. I’m scared now

@Anonymo12 I don’t think that’s what’s happening I think your ocd is just getting put of control and focusing too much on what I said

@Gabrielle100% Since puberty I’ve always been into girls not into guys at all. I’ve always wanted to get married to a girl still do but the sexual aspect is not there anymore and that’s cuz of my sex drive lowering. Soocd is the worst man. Any advice

@Anonymo12 Maybe your libido is low rn. Maybe you aren’t attracted to any particular person right now. Maybe it’s stress form ocd. First there comes an attraction to guys then you loose the attraction to girls. It’s unlikely you’re attracted to guys. Do you want to kiss one or have sex?

@Gabrielle100% No not at all I don’t wanna do anything with a guy at all that stuff don’t bring me pleasure at alll. I’ve been straight as a kid had girl crushes too in primary school.

@Gabrielle100% Why does my mind when you always ask a question always answer like yess i want to even when im almost certain I don’t and when i a knowledge that it says to me oh youre only scared of society you want it , I think its ocd

@Anonymous It doesn’t sound like you want it

@Gabrielle100% Yeah but my ocd tries so hard to make me feel like that

@Anonymous The feelings aren’t reality and you’re going have to start telling yourself that

Help me please it kills me

@Gabrielle100% It’s just I never ever saw girls like that so now I get triggered by anything that has to do with lesbian or gay because I’m afraid of turning into that. I can’t see myself with a women I just simply can’t I won’t be happy. I love my boyfriend SO much and we are so intimate. But I want my life back before ocd. I’m not homophobic and I wouldn’t be ashamed to be bi. I just know I can never be lesbian. But I can’t be bi either. I don’t wanna be either of those. I want to be my straight happy self. I’ve been going through this for 2 months and it’s been the worst 2 months of my life of constant crying and anxiety and throwing up. It makes me sucks and it breaks my heart feeling like I am not myself anymore and that I never will be .

@pray for me I don’t think you’re gay though. Obviously you love your bf so you’re not a lesbian. The images seem intrusive and not arousing. I don’t think you’re bi. You don’t want to date women so you must be straight

@Gabrielle100% Did you ever have SOOCD ?

@Gabrielle100% I say phrases in my head a lot so I’m scared it’s just denial 💔💔

@Gabrielle100% I even told my boyfriend that I’m bi just to relieve anxiety and it didn’t work cause I knew it wasn’t right to label myself cause it’s not natural for me

@pray for me I have POCD and sometimes thoughts around incest and animals. I know I’m not attracted to them. Being gay helps because I went through denial. What I’m experiencing rn is not denial. Even though I was ashamed of my attractions to women, I still wanted it and enjoyed it. That’s not the case for POCD or the other two. I’m very disgusted and anxious over them. There is no desire to act on these thoughts for me. No fantasies or anything.

@Gabrielle100% So how do I stop myself from confusion cause I’ve convinced myself that I’m lying to myself and my boyfriend and that I want it when in all reality I don’t at all.

@pray for me It will be hard but you gotta start telling yourself that you’re straight because you don’t want to date women over and over again til one day you believe it. Try pushing them away. Try talking to other people about random things or doing activities

@Gabrielle100% That’s what I do right now :/

@pray for me Keep fighting it. Sometimes it takes time. I’m fighting my demons too. For 7 months I’ve been fighting this particular thought and it’s just now getting better

@Gabrielle100% I hope I don’t lose myself and my morals and values

@pray for me You won’t. You’ll grow stronger

@Gabrielle100% Now that you say that you enjoy the thoughts I’ve convinced myself that I enjoy them. I just made up a scenario and tried enjoying it but my anxiety spiked and I felt gross. Why is this happening im so stupid.

@pray for me I need to be in a psych ward or something I can’t escape I wanna be Normal again .

@pray for me I understand that feeling. I’ve been to the hospital because I got suicidal. I think ant to be normal again too

@MIgirly❤️🤍 Maybe. What’s up?

@MIgirly❤️🤍 It’s common for ocd and porn to not mix well. I would advise you not watch porn. It sometimes is okay but sometimes it can make ocd worse in a lot of ways. It’s also common to explore different types of porn and sometimes fantasies. That doesn’t always equate to gay/bi. A couple fantasies doesn’t mean you want to do it. It’s pretty clear you like men.

@MIgirly❤️🤍 You’ve been a in a relationship with a woman?

@MIgirly❤️🤍 Oh. Well you probably were curious. It happens sometimes. Curiosity doesn’t equate to gay/bi. It means you saw something and wanted to see what it was about. Most straight get curious at some point rather they like to acknowledge that or not.

@MIgirly❤️🤍 Then you ain’t gay. If you don’t want to have sex with women in real life then you’re straight. Sometimes I “want” to punch somebody. I day dream. I don’t actually want to punch them. Sometimes people need something different than the usual fantasy because they are bored or something. It doesn’t mean they want to actually do it. Some lesbians watch gay male porn. It doesn’t mean they actually like men, they just like watching sex.