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Does anyone with Scrupulosity deal with feeling like you might quench(disobey) the Spirit?
Does anyone with Scrupulosity deal with feeling like you might quench(disobey) the Spirit?
Yes, absolutely. What helps me is to remember Isaiah 55:12 — “For you shall go out in joy and be led forth in peace.” The Holy Spirit will NOT lead you through fear and anxiety—that is just OCD. So when I have the terrifying concern that I am doing something wrong, searing my conscience, disobeying God, etc., I have to use my ERP tools to accept that uncertainty and trust God that if He wanted me to change/do anything, He would lead me with PEACE and JOY—never fear or anxiety! ❤️
@Madison the ERP Ninja. Thank you for your reply. I'm Pentecostal and I believe in praying in the Spirit. And I do in my private prayer time. But now I have thoughts that if I don't do it all through the day I'm quenching the Spirit. And I know a lady who does do it all through the day. I'm like am I anxious because I'm disobeying God or obeying OCD. And I'm doing ERP saying maybe I'm quenching the Spirit maybe not but it makes me feel physically bad to even say that. Sorry you probably won't understand but again thank you for your reply.
@ElevenB No way! I’m actually Pentecostal, too!!! I also believe in praying in the Spirit!! And I 100% understand! And that totally sounds like OCD. IF God was leading you to pray in the Spirit more often, He would give you overwhelming peace and joy to do that! If you feel compelled to do it, like if you don’t do it something bad will happen (like you’d be quenching the Spirit), that’s 100% OCD and not how God leads His children. I know, it feels SO bad to accept the uncertainty of our worst fears—but ERP teaches you that you CAN handle that feeling, and after a while of just allowing yourself to feel that feeling of wrongness/fear/anxiety/guilt, and NOT doing the compulsion, it WILL lessen! And that’s what God WANTS. He leads us through peace and joy, never through that awful feeling of fear or anxiety that OCD brings. I hope this helps in some way. ❤️
@Madison the ERP Ninja. Oh my goodness! Thank you God! When I'm doing the ERP it's like if you would just speak in tongues you would feel better. I have a pure headache and sore throat from being so nervous. Thank you for the assurance, not reassurance. I never thought OCD would try to make speaking in tongues a compulsion. It will just latch onto anything! God bless you for replying to me.
@ElevenB You’re so right, OCD will latch onto ANYTHING!! Absolutely! I hope I was able to help a little! You got this!!! Hugs, and I’m praying for you! ❤️
@Madison the ERP Ninja You helped tremendously. I have actually been going back today and reading your post. Not for reassurance but just to know I have to keep going with the ERP no matter how bad it feels. And just sit with the uncertainty of not knowing.
@ElevenB Hey Madison. There's a post on here from Layla32. If you see it maybe you can comment to her.
@ElevenB I am SO glad it helped!! You’re a rockstar for trying to sit with the uncertainty and all the bad feelings! You got this! And I will see if I can find that post!
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@VGH. Thank you
I don't really know if it's OCD, but lately I've been thinking a lot and in a very obsessive way that every single one of my actions, words or even thoughts will affect on how God will make decisions about my life. For example, if I lie to someone or yell at them out of anger, God will make happen something bad to me as a "punishment". I know it might seem silly, but it really really freaks me out sometimes... Does anyone feel the same? And if so, do you do something in particular to feel better? Thanks for your understanding❤️
Hello everyone. I was just wanting to post on here regarding a situation that I have been dealing with for a few months now. I have been taking my walk with Christ seriously for about a year now and ever since I started I’ve noticed a bunch of intrusive thoughts and it’s caused me much distress. It all started back in June of 2024. I missed a church service because my wife and I were taking care of our daughter and I went to a Best But store and upgraded my old Apple Watch to a new one. I felt like doing so I committed idolatry because I went and bought that instead of going to church. I felt immense guilt for doing so and the next day I cancelled my order. I thought that maybe I was over thinking the entire thing so I went ahead and placed a new order and got the watch. For two weeks after getting the watch, I ruminated about whether I should keep it or not. It didn’t feel right with me and was overwhelmed with guilt for having it and it was debilitated with anxiety and stress. Eventually I decided I would just give it back so I went to go return it on the last day I could do so only to find out I could not. I thought that was a sign from God that I could keep it. I felt the most relief after that that I had experienced in quite awhile but then the next day after I started have thoughts again thinking that I didn’t try hard enough to return it and that I’m some how putting it before God. Well eventually I came to terms that there was nothing I could do about it and I was able to stop worrying about it being an idol. Well my mind jumped from that to another thing in my life and this one has been harder to get over. I have been on hair loss medication for 7 years and I had a thought one day telling me that “if I’m a true follower of Christ, then I shouldn’t take the medicine because I’m placing too much importance on my looks” I again felt immense anxiety and dread and tried fighting these thoughts away but could not help but think” what if it is and this is conviction of the Holy spirit”? I would constantly look up online any answers I could find to help relieve my anxiety but I can’t. I pray to God all the time for his will to be done in this situation and sometimes I feel better but then it all comes back. It’s hard for me to read the Bible because there’s so much about idolatry I always feel like it’s God talking to me like it’s a sign or if I’m just taking it that way? I asked God to show give me an answer about this situation and a day later a YouTuber I follow posted a video about removing idols from our lives. I felt that was God speaking to me or wasn’t sure maybe it was a coincidence? I just feel so cornered and out under so much pressure on what to do. Of course I would like to keep taking my medicine because it has helped me but then I have thoughts that tell me it is an idol because I am not able to give it up. I cut back taking the medicine a lot more often over the last months but I don’t know if this is God telling me to do so or my own mind. Like if I want to keep my hair I believe God allows healing through medication and it’s a gift. But these thoughts are telling me that I rely on taking it and it’s an idol and that unless I give it up completely I’m not following God’s will and it’s an idol. It’s caused immense doubt because then I read Romans 14 and it says anything you do with doubt is sin because it’s not of faith. I feel like I’m being attacked and cornered because I’m forced to stop taking something that has helped me. Now I have thoughts telling me to stop wearing my retainers every night because I got Invisalign a few years back to fix my teeth and that unless I stop taking my medication and wearing my retainers I’m not authentically following God. I don’t know what to do at this point. I don’t want to go against God and I don’t want to commit idolatry. I know God is all loving so I doubt this is all coming from him. I have to take/wear these things daily for them to work and the ocd will twist that in saying they are idols because of that and I just feel so cornered and defeated. I try to find things constantly online to see if anyone else has similar issues but I can’t. I know this is a long post but just trying to get some clarity on the matter. What should I do to help my situation?
When OCD latches onto your morals, it can make you question whether you're a good person, even over small things. Have you ever felt overwhelming guilt over something others would brush off?
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