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Happiness theme?
Has anyone else had a theme where you obsessively question whether you’re really happy? This theme is hitting me hard, even though I’m in s better place than I ever have been.
Has anyone else had a theme where you obsessively question whether you’re really happy? This theme is hitting me hard, even though I’m in s better place than I ever have been.
Feel this. I’ve been so much better with my ocd and I fought like hell to get where I am and be myself and happy again. However outside factors like work have been making me feel unhappy. Then of course my ocd tries to sneak in and hit me. I guess lately I’ve been thinking can I ever just be happy? Why can’t I just be present in the moment and enjoy life? I’m terrified of looking back on my life realizing I wasted it being unhappy. I totally get where you’re coming from. I guess it’s something we have to work on and be patient with ourselves for
Yes, I can definitely relate. I ruminate about being happy, or thinking maybe I’ll never be happy.
i'm so so sorry to hear this is something you are going though:( it sounds really tricky but you are not alone in this fight <3 there is a discord server that's designed for ocd support! i've been apart of it for about 4 months now & absolutely love the community. here's the link if you are interested in joining:) sending love & support your way! stay strong my friend! https://discord.gg/mQxyBmGwhU
Oh my God, yes!
Yes! I go from “what is life” to “am I thankful?” to “Am I happy?” And the. Somehow I end up not happy for a bit lmao. Even though, I am generally a happy person 😅 you’re not alone!
Struggling with TOCD has probably been the hardest theme I’ve had to deal with so far For reference. I’m a gay male 20yr old Before this theme I was so open with my gender expression, love drag and used to do it for a time. A lot of my friends are trans women and my whole life is queer When this theme hit. It’s like I completely lost who I was. Questioning everything I enjoyed, not participating in anything because it triggered me so heavily. I went through a whole gender journey awhile back and the trans path never spoke to me when I looked into it. I love my physique and my face but now when I look into the mirror i feel like a shell of who I was. I can’t find any sort of pure enjoyment without the accompanying “what if” or “you’re this” intrusive thought I still enjoy how I look. I’ve not looked in the mirror and felt like anything is missing from me or needs to be taken away I just feel like a spectator in my life while this disease tells me I’m not who I know myself to be I affirm myself every day I know who I am and it may change in the future but that’s not important. It’s highly unlikely it will but it may! Giving into the uncertainty has been so hard but it’s worth it! My ocd has really picked up since getting into my first serious relationship I care about my boyfriend with my whole heart but over the course of our relationship my themes have included Health Relationship Irreality Harm I just want to be who I was again before this current theme it feels unbearable to live like this BUT! I’m seeking appropriate treatment and not giving into a majority of compulsions I just wanted to write this to see if anyone can relate and if they do. Know that you will overcome this! I know I will and you will too
I’ve had different themes of ocd throughout my life. Can they all differ such as how the thoughts may present? Currently my thoughts feel so true immediately (like they genuinely feel like what I think) but in the last theme I feel like it may have been more of a “what if I think this” type of situation
my OCD is doing what it does best and it’s randomly selecting themes. Once I’m not scared or react to one it bounces to another. And then i temporarily forget all of my coping skills for that theme. Rn it’s fixating on the time I had a panic attack and it’s trying to make me have one again
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