Religious Trauma

God isn't just the God of the Jews. They were His people before He sent Jesus to die and pay for our sins. Now that Christ has come and made the payment for our sins, anyone who believes that Jesus is God and that He is the only way to heaven, they are now God's people. Though the Jews are still special in a sense that God made promises to them in the Old testament and He is still going to fulfill those promises. But now God's people are those who put their trust in His son. But with all that being said, I respect you for needing some space to test your faith and know the truth.

@GreenRain01 People always try to disprove my thoughts/beliefs whenever I bring them up. You said it yourself, the Jews are still special for one reason or another, and that's why I'm sad, ok? Yet people still try to tell me I don't need to be sad because I'm mistaken but then you prove the point I'm really trying to say. You probably thought I meant God was the God of Jews only, right? That's not what I meant, but nobody gets what I mean, even though they repeat what I mean all the time just not to my face. Then I feel unheard by anyone, not even by myself. I'm not trying to be rude to you, just honest and frustrated.

@Anonymous the way i understand the biblical narrative is that the blessings of the Jews are meant for all people in the end. the Jews were always meant to be a conduit leading to the blessing of all people. Jesus was always loving the marginalized, overlooked, gentile, “sinner”. it was actually the Jews who most of the time ironically misinterpreting and even despising Jesus because he always valued love and humanity over law or race or any construct.

@Anonymous i hope i haven’t misunderstood you, but i’d love to help any way i can through dialogue.

@Anonymous Yeah that's what I thought and I'm sorry if I misunderstood and made you feel unheard. That's not what I'm trying to do. I'm not going to act like I know what you're going through. I care and want to help ❤️

@GreenRain01 Yeah, I think both of you misunderstood me. This is why I don't talk about it anymore. And I can't seem to explain it to anyone. It's hopeless, really. I always try to explain it and feel more unheard than when I started. I honestly don't think you or anyone would ever admit what I'm talking about. What am I saying that's unclear? You said it yourself, the Jews are special in some ways -- not all but in some. So what? Can't I be upset about that? Romans 11 says that we're not the natural branches. Am I supposed to be happy that I don't belong by blood, that there are those who are Abraham's seed by blood AND belief? If someone was adopted and was sad that they're parents weren't blood parents, would you accept that they're sad or not? Am I supposed to be happy that Jesus said He was taking away their place in the kingdom and giving it to others, stating that the gospel wasn't supposed to come to us until only after they rejected Him? Am I supposed to be glad that people born to unbelievers are considered unholy (1 Cor. 7), and that many of my ancestors are in hell because the Jews hadn't rejected God yet? What about the animals of earth, aren't they just as special as we are? But Jesus said we are worth more than sparrows. I shouldn't have brought it up.

@Anonymous It's like I fight with all my strength to get people to understand me each time I talk about it, ending in complete failure each time, while everyone hurts me and wears me down by making me feel I'm not understood at all

@Anonymous you most certainly can be upset. i’ve always hated the calvinistic concept of the elect. why would god choose the israelites and not everyone? why would god choose one baby before it’s born over another? i think these are some questions that made me start questioning the bible itself. through the bible, the jews have an inflated ego that must constantly be deflated. remember, they’re telling the story. of course they puff themselves up. i think we see a progression of consciousness forming in the bible that is essential though. the Israelites believe they’re an entitled chosen race of god who are better than everyone else and can walk all over every other nation. they have a dualistic, tribalistic, violent way of life. then the sacrificial system turns their violence towards animals. they sense something is wrong—sin or brokenness in the world—and someone has to pay. it was other nations, now animals. then Jesus comes on the scene and basically says “actually you’re the problem. and you (your ego) needs to die and be humbled.” with this he ushers in the kingdom of god initiative which was always bigger then israel. i really think that god has been revealed to many cultures and in many different ways and the jewish leading into christian story is just one dimension or one way to see it.

Let's just say I agree in some areas but those don't make the things like "Jews being the natural branches and Gentiles unnatural" (Romans 11) not true, as most people will even admit those things all the time and point out how "God says that the Jewish people are His special people and He has a special purpose for them and will return to them at the end" until I say I'm sad about it, then they will try to tell me I'm still special as well and won't admit all the Bible but only parts of it that seem like they should make me feel better. It's a bit hypocrital tbh