I believe I done something awful and kept looking for evidence and now I’m stuck with this one piece it’s causing so much anxiety, and I don’t know if it’s true, what I think I done would put me in prison, HELP
It's not true. When you do something awful, especially being a thinking person, you would be able to remember with all little details. A bad person who does bad things has not this behavior about it!
It's just the way your anxiety shows up
@Lizzie Scheavi Exactly I suffer from one night where I think I done something awful to a female I’m so scared, I constantly think anout it and try and remember what happened, I was so intoxicated so I’m struggling to remember, what do you suggest
@ Anonymous Stay strong!!! Like I told u, Bad people don't suffer from their bad attitudes. They don't have any anxiety about it! It's your anxiety playing with you ☺️💁
@Lizzie Scheavi Thankyou but it if it was ever one night to do it I think in my head it would’ve been this one, it feels so real
@ Anonymous Ocd make all things real. It's our enemy 24/7. Remember this. When theses throughs come in, just ignore it. Don't think, just continue your business. You're giving so much attention. You know this isn't good
@Lizzie Scheavi - english isn't my first language I don’t know anymore, I’m depressed and been given antidepressants, it’s been over a year, I think about it all the time what I think I done if something came up about that night I would not be surprised and instantly think it’s me who done it, only thing that hasn’t happened is anything come of it
@ Anonymous It's OCD, but it's trying hard to make you think like that. We don't have de same theme, but a advice that works for me: do exercise. Eat well. Do your hobbies. Go to a travel. Sun always helps. I know that doesn't sound important in our situation, but it is! Live your life 🙏🥰
@Lizzie Scheav I don’t even know I feel as though I wanted to do it which is so bad and followed through with the actions, it’s all awful lives not been the same
@ Anonymous Wow, I have this urge too. This is what makes my ocd so terrible. Starts with anxiety and de urge to do the action. I hate so much!! But listen a song, try to dance, buy new clothes...
@Lizzie Scheav Thankyou, how you coping with it all? I hope your doing well
@ Anonymous hii. I'm just trying to accept that I have this mental issue. Sometimes I'm very anxious, sometimes I get better and after I get really sad. My themes are sexual, so this can be really hard at times. Especially because of body sensations. But I need to be empathetic w myself (what's hard). How about you?
@Lizzie Scheav I’ve been diagnosed with depression since this night I believe I done an awful act to a female, it’s hit me like a train I don’t see me ever moving on, I can empathise with your comment it’s so difficult, are you seeing a therapist ?
@ Anonymous No, I'm a little bit afraid and it's expensive here I live. I found a therapist who went through the same things I went... So I'm really considering too talk to her. I have this feeling of talk about myself, about my mistakes, about my feelings. I'm afraid of being a bad person who deserves it
@Lizzie Scheav It’s so expensive everywhere I just hope we both get through this, I haven’t had an OCD diagnosis either but definitely had it as a kid but I thought it had gone then this night but I don’t know if it is OCD so I’m even more confused than anyone
Less than a year ago, I had a very big anxiety flare up to the point that I felt as though I needed to report to the police / harm myself. I ended up leaving an anonymous tip at the police hotline about something that I know I didn’t even do but everything told me I had to or else I will go to jail. And similarly after that I called the help line and explained I had unwanted intrusive thoughts and I didn’t think I deserved to live for having those thoughts. After these many months and working with my therapist, I’ve been able to feel a lot less anxious around this topic and now I’m getting lots of anxiety about what I did that time when I was so anxious. I gave in to my compulsions and confessed for stuff that I know sounds bad saying out loud but only certain people will understand I would never do. So now I’m just looking for someone to relate and perhaps let me know that I don’t have anything to worry about? I know it’s bad to seek reassurance but I’m not sure where to go. And I’m worried I’m going to keep incriminating myself.
I feel so scared and gross and i keep replaying everything in my head for reassurance but everything feels blurry. I just need exact information, exact proof that I didn’t hurt someone.
How do you know the difference :( I genuinely cannot keep living in this torment. it all started with an ‘intrusive thought’ where I had like a hazy flash of something reading an article. and I remember thinking ‘what if’ and ‘what is this’ and then that intrusive thought turned into me ‘remembering’ something else. which caused me panic. then I started trying to find evidence because it contradicted what I remembered this entire time. this was last year in like september. fast forward to march this year, it came back up- but this time stronger and with more ‘details’ and what nots. and I’ve been ruminating on it since then trying to remember and connect and It’s like I’ve added all of these details. but are they real? or is this just my OCD? I just feel like if it were real I would have never been able to keep it to myself. but also what if it was so traumatic that I blocked it out? because it all makes NO sense for me to do something like that. but it also fits what I was thinking at the time. idk
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