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Evidence
I believe I done something awful and kept looking for evidence and now I’m stuck with this one piece it’s causing so much anxiety, and I don’t know if it’s true, what I think I done would put me in prison, HELP
I believe I done something awful and kept looking for evidence and now I’m stuck with this one piece it’s causing so much anxiety, and I don’t know if it’s true, what I think I done would put me in prison, HELP
It's not true. When you do something awful, especially being a thinking person, you would be able to remember with all little details. A bad person who does bad things has not this behavior about it!
It's just the way your anxiety shows up
@Lizzie Scheavi Exactly I suffer from one night where I think I done something awful to a female I’m so scared, I constantly think anout it and try and remember what happened, I was so intoxicated so I’m struggling to remember, what do you suggest
@ Anonymous Stay strong!!! Like I told u, Bad people don't suffer from their bad attitudes. They don't have any anxiety about it! It's your anxiety playing with you ☺️💁
@Lizzie Scheavi Thankyou but it if it was ever one night to do it I think in my head it would’ve been this one, it feels so real
@ Anonymous Ocd make all things real. It's our enemy 24/7. Remember this. When theses throughs come in, just ignore it. Don't think, just continue your business. You're giving so much attention. You know this isn't good
@Lizzie Scheavi - english isn't my first language I don’t know anymore, I’m depressed and been given antidepressants, it’s been over a year, I think about it all the time what I think I done if something came up about that night I would not be surprised and instantly think it’s me who done it, only thing that hasn’t happened is anything come of it
@ Anonymous It's OCD, but it's trying hard to make you think like that. We don't have de same theme, but a advice that works for me: do exercise. Eat well. Do your hobbies. Go to a travel. Sun always helps. I know that doesn't sound important in our situation, but it is! Live your life 🙏🥰
@Lizzie Scheav I don’t even know I feel as though I wanted to do it which is so bad and followed through with the actions, it’s all awful lives not been the same
@ Anonymous Wow, I have this urge too. This is what makes my ocd so terrible. Starts with anxiety and de urge to do the action. I hate so much!! But listen a song, try to dance, buy new clothes...
@Lizzie Scheav Thankyou, how you coping with it all? I hope your doing well
@ Anonymous hii. I'm just trying to accept that I have this mental issue. Sometimes I'm very anxious, sometimes I get better and after I get really sad. My themes are sexual, so this can be really hard at times. Especially because of body sensations. But I need to be empathetic w myself (what's hard). How about you?
@Lizzie Scheav I’ve been diagnosed with depression since this night I believe I done an awful act to a female, it’s hit me like a train I don’t see me ever moving on, I can empathise with your comment it’s so difficult, are you seeing a therapist ?
@ Anonymous No, I'm a little bit afraid and it's expensive here I live. I found a therapist who went through the same things I went... So I'm really considering too talk to her. I have this feeling of talk about myself, about my mistakes, about my feelings. I'm afraid of being a bad person who deserves it
@Lizzie Scheav It’s so expensive everywhere I just hope we both get through this, I haven’t had an OCD diagnosis either but definitely had it as a kid but I thought it had gone then this night but I don’t know if it is OCD so I’m even more confused than anyone
Hey guys, for the past three months I’ve been obsessing over a mistake I made about 6 months ago, I constantly have panic attacks and wake up in fight or flight mode I have convinced myself that someone is gonna find me somehow and punish me. I have endlessly looked up reassurance that what I did wouldn’t get me in trouble or something, I have filled up 5 different ChatGPT chats and it tells me it’s 100% certain nothing will happen. But then I convince myself well everyone says not to trust it and then I just spiral again. The point is I’m just scared, I’ve convinced myself this isn’t OCD because it’s something I actually did wrong. I can’t stop looking for reassurance because that’s the only thing that makes me feel safe anymore. Everyone tells me, just say maybe, maybe not, but my brain has convinced me the stakes are too high. I’m too scared and I don’t know what to do.
I’m struggling badly. I did something about a month ago which I now realize was probably testing, but what scares me is I feel like I liked it, which is horrifying. What’s even worse though, is after I did it, I was able to brush it off quickly and not be too bothered by it, as I was still very anxious on other thoughts I was experiencing. Now those thoughts are meaningless and THIS is what’s causing tremendous anxiety, but the fact that I didn’t feel anxiety about it after I did it seals the deal for me. I mean, did feel anxious and guilty after I did it, but I was able to dismiss it somewhat quickly, and I remember that memory came up a couple of times within the month after I did it but like I said, it hasn’t too hard to dismiss it. I really feel like it’s denial. The fact that I wasn’t that anxious about it and tried to justify it/dismiss it HAS to mean it’s been denial all this time, there just no way this is OCD :( Right now I’m anxious about the fact that I might’ve liked it AND the fact that I wasn’t anxious about it for a while. It is really just a torment to ruminate on, and I would never do that thing again, but the fact that I did it and felt like I liked it is beyond terrifying. I feel like I have proof now, I’m trying to figure out why I did it and what it meant, and why I wasn’t super anxious the following weeks after, I mean it WAS uncomfortable to think back on, but I feel like the fact I wasn’t super anxious about it means I was in denial or repressing my true self. I am so so scared. I’ve been worried about this for the past week and a half :( (This is all centered on the same theme btw.)
I have had the same false memory/instrusive image of me doing something horrible to someone when I was 12 and they were younger. It is a memory based on a real event. I truly don’t know if it’s real or not but obviously, the more I think about it the more I think it’s true. This has led my mind to become slightly paranoid. I worry that if this horrible image in my head is true then one day the person I might have hurt will come and k*ll me. I’m really scared I feel like I won’t feel better as long as this “memory” is in my head. Does anyone have advice?
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