OCD and CHRISTIANITY

@ElevenB Well I’m right here! I completely understand. What aspect are you struggling with in particular? And remember, this is anonymous, so you can tell me. I’ve probably experienced all that you have.

@Justine2734 I had first intrusive thought at 8. That I had blasphemed the Holy Spirit. I then developed a performance based relationship with God. If I didn't do as OCD said God would leave. Then I would pray, beg, cry for Him to take me back. Lived like that for almost 50 years. Didn't know I had OCD til a couple of years ago. In March depression set in as I began to confront OCD. Anxiety came in May. I found NOCD in July. I began ERP in August and have been doing it everyday since. I have so much, it's just a journey to get better with meds and therapy. I battle thoughts about church attendance, doing anything leisure over praying, reading Bible, quenching the Spirit. I have a hard time with grace and the Father's love for me. I feel I have to do just right for Him to stay. I have made some progress but I still have a ways to go. What do you struggle with?

@ElevenB Thank you for sharing this! I have had OCD since I was a kid (washing hands and other behaviors I felt compelled to do). But it was my senior year in High School when an intrusive thought sent me into OCD big time. Summer before Junior year in college freed from OCD for a long while then it came back hard after my second child was born… I read an article by a therapist and it sounded like ME! I went to that therapist and learned I have OCD. I am 58 now… 9 months ago, it has hit hard- headaches, fear and anxiety like never before…. I found NOCD last January. I am learning, trying to stay grounded in who I am in Christ and not what fear says…

@Anonymous @Anonymous. Yes the fear and anxiety. And the physical. Headaches like you said. Sweating from anxiety, nausea, fatigue, weight loss. And I'm learning too. I've been reading Mark's book The OCD Healing Journey. He and his wife Melissa have been such a help and blessing.

@Anonymous Amen, it’s a road, a unique road. Jesus is bigger than our minds, our understanding. Even if we have no idea what is going on, whether to repent, pray more, forgive, break our hearts to him, HE KNOWS ALL THINGS and you are IN HIS HANDS.

@Justine2734 Thank you sister! Mark DeJesus has been a great Christian resource. I am reading his: I WILL NOT FEAR…. So good! I am praying for you.🙏🏻💝✝️

@Charles_132 At least you know one thing Charles… you’re in HIS hands, He will keep you, He will hold you, even when you run, even when your feelings tell you He’s left you. He’ll never ever ever leave you. No matter what