I have severe ocd and today I half-attempted suicide I say half-attempted because my attempts weren’t that risky. I hung myself at a low level and waited to die. I also sort of cut my wrists I tried hanging from a higher point but my belt wouldn’t fit What does this all mean? Am I doing this for attention? What is wrong with me?
Hello, I used to plan for my suicide as well before I got diagnosed and got treatment for ocd. Please know this disorder knows what to say and make you think in order to make you feel terrible. You are an amazing person! You are loved and have so much to look forward to in life. Reach out to a trusted person and speak with them. Try and get into therapy with an OCD specialist and fight to take back your life. You are so much stronger than this disorder. I know it feels like it will never get better but it will, just keep fighting. Every day you are alive proves you are fighting , you will overcome this!!! Rooting for you💗💗🤍🤍🤍💛💛
Please seek out someone you trust for help. You don’t have to tell them the contents of your intrusive thoughts if you don’t want to but tell them you need help. If you have no one to speak to there are lots of free helplines. You’ve got a wonderful life to live and you have so many exciting experiences to come! Trust me with help it can and will get better 💕
No, you're in pain. And I understand, I am feeling like I don't want to live like this anymore, but you're not alone
5 years ago a severe OCD episode caused me to attempt suicide. I can tell you, it's not the answer. Please reach out to someone, a loved one, a medical professional, someone who can help you through this time. It's temporary and life is worth living. I'm praying for you.
I’m so sorry please don’t give up you are strong! You can do this! I attempted suicide too but I’m so glad I didn’t because I had a lot of people who loved and cared about me and you do too! Please don’t ever forget how loved you are! Please! Please don’t let it bully you! Stay strong beautiful! ❤️💕
Don’t hurt yourself your too beautiful! 💕❤️
There's so many people here for you! Please check in and let us know you're ok!!!
Are you alone? You should be with someone.
Please don’t do it! ❤️
I've done the same. Life can get overwhelming. If you feel like this next time is highly recommend calling a crisis hotline. They helped me more than once. You don't need to give any details either and can use an alias etc. If you're not in therapy, try get some. I was at the same point as you less than a year ago and now my ocd is in remission. There is hope, its just really difficult to see at the moment. You can get better, I bet my life on it
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Hi Im a 15 year old girl and about a month ago i started having these toughts about harming myself and other people. It was verry draining for me so thats why me and my friends stayed toghether for a week and have fun. Now i started having it again and i cant help but think im a pysochapth. Today I started breaking down and i dont know what to do. Are these the since of OCD or is something really wrong with me? Please help.
I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.
I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
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