What is your first trigger?

Mine started in 8th grade when I learned what being gay was and remembered weird things I did in my childhood. Panic attacks for years and even “came out” to my family cause I didn’t understand what was going on 🤷🏼‍♀️

Mine started when I was in high school and I was sitting next to my best friend at the time and I had the thought “you should kiss her” and it freaked me out.

Well i has SO OCD when i was like 11 y/o, it started with a dteam of me and my friend kissing, after that i had like 1 year with it, quarantine started and i got better, i lived normally and then it turned into me liking my mom, recovered from that one, got with my boyfriend, 1 year with him now, SO OCD came back after remembering what happened when i was 11 y/o and started with they fear of thinking i liked her again (it then changed and turned into they fear and feeling of me liking other girls i saw), now it's justo they feeling (of fear ig) that i like woman ;)

I was 25, with no history/thoughts/reasons to think about wether I was straight or not. Had a bad bout of ROCD, with the thought “you feel nothing/not enough for her”. Instantly lost libido and everything. After months of obsessively figuring out why, the thought “you must be gay” jumped in. That was nearly 8 years ago. Still not recovered. So convincing the feelings and thoughts. But how does one get to 25, know who they are, then out of the blue become obsessed? Makes zero sense.

I was bullied in school that i'm gay so I was always afraid to become one. And then one year later I git homosexual thoughts in my hed and i tried to push it away but then i got more and more and more and then i couldn't not think about it. And I'm scared because for everyone one thing was a trigger but for me not. Anyone else?