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Mine started in 8th grade when I learned what being gay was and remembered weird things I did in my childhood. Panic attacks for years and even “came out” to my family cause I didn’t understand what was going on 🤷🏼♀️
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@Roses2021 What were those weird things ?
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@star1232 Like innocent childhood experimentation, seeing naked bodies for the first time and being like woahhhh lol
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@Roses2021 You can send your what’s app to talk
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@Roses2021 What kind of porn u have watched ?
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Mine started when I was in high school and I was sitting next to my best friend at the time and I had the thought “you should kiss her” and it freaked me out.
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Well i has SO OCD when i was like 11 y/o, it started with a dteam of me and my friend kissing, after that i had like 1 year with it, quarantine started and i got better, i lived normally and then it turned into me liking my mom, recovered from that one, got with my boyfriend, 1 year with him now, SO OCD came back after remembering what happened when i was 11 y/o and started with they fear of thinking i liked her again (it then changed and turned into they fear and feeling of me liking other girls i saw), now it's justo they feeling (of fear ig) that i like woman ;)
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I was 25, with no history/thoughts/reasons to think about wether I was straight or not. Had a bad bout of ROCD, with the thought “you feel nothing/not enough for her”. Instantly lost libido and everything. After months of obsessively figuring out why, the thought “you must be gay” jumped in. That was nearly 8 years ago. Still not recovered. So convincing the feelings and thoughts. But how does one get to 25, know who they are, then out of the blue become obsessed? Makes zero sense.
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Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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- 17w
(20f) I have been dealing with severe OCD symptoms for as long as I can remember. I recently got diagnosed about a year ago, and even though I know that these thoughts are probably my ocd, I still cant shake them. Growing up I was always very sexually curious. I was sheltered from a lot of things, as I went to a private school and things like sexuality and sex were never talked about. I remember doing some weird sexual things growing up (never affecting another person), looking up taboo sexual things, etc. I always seemed to become aroused no matter what the situation was, even if I just saw someone getting changed. I have no recollection of being SA'd, so i'm wondering where this all came from? Was I just curious and wanted to experiment and try different things? Or am I really a pervert, pedophile, etc. I have all these thoughts racing through my head and it's killing me. Everything I did as a kid I look back on and am disgusted, as those don't align with my views at all today. I never thought growing up thinking these things were wrong, or actually realize what they were until I got older. I'd like to think it was just my curiosity, but i'm not sure. What if i'm in denial and actually do like these things? I just need to know if theres something wrong w me, I cant keep going on like this. Could really use some advice.
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