My ocd

Hello I’m posting here to discuss some of my ocd themes. I feel as though it’s hard for me to talk about this with others in my life because I’m embarrassed. A main theme of mine is harm ocd and false memory ocd. I’m a student nurse and I always worry I will harm someone and always worry if I made a med error. I start to think back and wonder if I made any errors even tho I’m with a preceptor who is with me to guide me and make sure everything I’m doing is right. I also have a phobia of driving because I worry I will harm someone or I have false memories of hitting someone with my car. This disorder is really messing with my life. I’m currently on Lexapro and I find that it really does nothing for the ocd but it helps my depression. I feel really ashamed of myself most days because I feel like no one else has this problem.

ivrec

Date posted: 2y

You are not alone. It is hard but try not to identify OCD symptoms as the real you. The shame is from the OCD, those thoughts bother you because you are very concerned with the safety of others.

Catlove9

Date posted: 2y

You aren’t alone. A lot of us have this. I too suffer mostly from harm and false memory. My false memories are from when I was drunk but they still involve me harming someone. It’s really not fun.

Anonymous 2414

Date posted: 2y

I took have false memory OCD from when I've been drunk. I try and reason through them over and over and try and think of ways I can resolve it and just when I think I've reasoned through it, it starts alllll over again

Catlove9

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous 2414 Same here. I have some that are 5 years old. And at times I’m convinced I’ve done something horrible!

Theocdvirgo

Date posted: 1y

@Anonymous 2414 I feel this way too. I always need to ask my friends for reassurance that I haven’t done anything bad like cheat on my partner, even though I have no recollection of it. Sometimes I’ll have obsessive thoughts of being roofied and assaulted after a night out. I will count how many times I drank and replay the night over and over again to make sure I didn’t do something terrible.

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