- Username
- tuchi
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Soocd has ruined me, now I’m avoiding friends
Anytime a see an image of my best friend I feel a moment down there or I feel huge or I feel like I’m about to get a boner please why is this so, it makes me feel lost.
Anytime a see an image of my best friend I feel a moment down there or I feel huge or I feel like I’m about to get a boner please why is this so, it makes me feel lost.
Maybe your attracted to your friend? 🤷♂️ it happens but remember it means absolutely nothing unless you act on it. Thoughts have zero power and energy unless we assign them so with our actions.
I totally get this! Trust me isolation is NOT the answer. Be surrounded by your friends, plus it’s good exposure and you’ll eventually habituate to it! I admit that women are attractive and I think they’re beautiful, but that doesn’t have to mean anything about my sexual preferences. Or maybe it does? Who knows! But I don’t care because it’s impossible to have a definitive answer when sexuality is not black and white!
Worst thing you can do is avoid your friends bro, its just you being scared of being gay, whats so wrong with it? Once you figure out and become more firm on your sexuality, you can admit that everyone is attractive.
@teeejay I don’t find him attractive, whenever I see his picture I feel scared that I will have a movement down there and when I check I see it moving 😔 I don’t like that movement
@tuchi Well groin response really means nothing, you can get an erection just from sitting there thinking about nothing, i really urge you to just be open to everything, you might be suprised, also if you want me to be real. The fact that you dont like the movement is a dead giveaway
It’s just OCD! Ignore it and it’ll go away eventually
hey, i really feel for you dealing with this, it sounds super tough. i've got my own tangle with pure o, different obsessions, but that same exhausting mental loop. just want you to know i'm here to listen and i get how hard it can be, even if our experiences aren't exactly the same. 🤝 so, my therapist mentioned this free AI tool called "unstuck" (www.AIOCDtool.com) and honestly, it might be a good fit for what you're going through. it's like having an OCD therapist in your pocket, guiding you when things get too much. you just type in what's bugging you, and it leads you through steps to help you break free from those obsessive thoughts. i'm not into pushing apps usually, but this one's been a game-changer for me, and i really think it could offer you some relief too. happy to chat if you've got questions about it, just hit me up. hang in there, buddy. 💪
i’ve been dealing with SOOCD for a while now. in the beginning i remember getting random thoughts about secretly being gay because whenever i see a woman portrayed in a sexual manner (like butt naked and/or doing something super sexual) i would get aroused. i used to brush it off because i just knew i didn’t want to be with a woman and i was and always have been only interested in men. I would only get aroused seeing those things in media and ofc porn but never in real life. I would even sit and stare at the content trying to see why i was aroused because it would only give me a groinal feeling and not the same attraction i felt when i saw sexual content about men (i had a HEALTHY libido growing up and all i thought about was men). i would watch music videos and not think anything of it but when something sexual came up or if a woman was nude or doing something sexual i would get aroused and as my anxiety got worse the intrusive thoughts started to pop up and stick around for longer. i tried to understand why it was happening and i realized i was exposed to sexual content at a pretty young age (thank you google) and i knew what sex was and how a woman “should look” during sex and anything that was even a little bit sexual made me aroused . Like me looking at myself naked would arouse me because i felt like “oh this is sexual” ykwim? and if i saw like lacy underwear i would be like “oh this is for sex.” in middle school the world history textbooks had pictures of statues with women without shirts and i automatically got aroused and i was concerned and confused but i realized oh i immediately think this means sex? like a woman only looks like that to have sex? i think my exposure to sexual content at a young age warped my idea of sex and what being sexual is? idk if what i’m saying is making sense. anyways in high school i noticed i started getting urges to watch any sexual content or anything involving sexual content whether it involved girls or guys and that triggered my intrusive thoughts even more. i still had and have no desire to be with a girl. I would rather never marry and be single all my life than even think of experimenting with a girl. basically i’m writing this all bc i was triggered by a cardi b post where she started twerking in a thong out of nowhere (i should’ve expected it) and i got the most massive groinal response and i got extremely anxious and i started thinking “you’ve always been aroused by sexual content like this your gay” “your lying to yourself” “this isn’t just ocd stop lying” “there was too much exploration in your childhood to mean ur straight” “you don’t even have a libido or attraction to men anymore but you get aroused to this?? ur gay”. and so i’m here ranting and not making sense. i miss being boy crazy so fucking much i hate living like this i used to be so BOY CRAZY that these things and experiences and thoughts never affected me but now that it’s all gone and it’s been so long since i’ve felt any of it the intrusive thoughts hit me harder. ok i’m done sorry this is all over the place.
I feel like everyone "healed" from their SOOCD and yet 6 years later I'm still here. All the people who used to post on here have moved on (and good for them) but im still here. Even when im having sex with my bf I'm like "am I enjoying it because Im enjoying the act of sex itself + the fact that Im used to him by now but with women its way more exciting and its about the women itself?". Ugh I just feel so alone, no one relates to me romantically nor physically.
I'm so afraid of thinking something inappropriate around family and friends that I overthink everything I think. I've been dealing with this for months and I thought I had learned how to deal with it, but I feel so suffocated. Right now I really can't breathe. I don't know what to do, I talk to people in this community but I still feel so alone.
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