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@scarecrowman571 It’s awful isn’t it, but mine genuinely feels more real than not, is yours the same ?

@ Anonymous yes, feels 100% real. it's so tough, sending love 🩵

@scarecrowman571 How did you know yours was OCD, because I genuinely don’t think mine is? This is awful but I’m glad I’m not alone, sending love

@ Anonymous i don't know and we don't get to know. it might be or it might not be. we have to sit with the uncertainty. ocd = intolerance of uncertainty so to alleviate the symptoms we show, we just have to embrace the unknown. it's TOUGH

@scarecrowman571 Why do I feel like I’m remembering it or I’m not telling the truth, do you experience this too?

@ Anonymous yes, all the time. but it's less intense when we sit with uncertainty

@scarecrowman571 Thankyou, are you from the UK ?

@ Anonymous i am :)

@scarecrowman571 How did u go about therapy I’ve been waiting ages through the NHS

@ Anonymous ive gone through NOCD... its more affordable for the first 8 weeks at least (£30 a session)

@scarecrowman571 How did you get it that cheap? I swear they quoted me £110 a session

@ Anonymous i got a first timers' discount for the first 8 weeks

@scarecrowman571 Oh I think I’ll have to try that, because I’m not getting any better

@scarecrowman571 How did you get first timers’ discount I can’t find it any where and how did u go about it please?

@ Anonymous i booked the free 15 minute call and it was offered to me :)

@scarecrowman571 Thankyou, could you share some light on your story because I feel so alone

@ Anonymous yes of course. i started having sex with somebody when i was drunk and nothing seemed wrong at the time but the next morning i couldn't remember everything and questioned whether i had consent. i can't reach out to this person as i didn't know them. maybe i raped them, maybe i didn't. im living with that uncertainty, hard as it is. and im living towards my values - what make me the best version of me :)

@scarecrowman571 Oh I could imagine that became horrendous but your looking at ways of getting better, how did you feel the next couple of days ? And how long after it did you eventually speak out about it

@ Anonymous it was awful... i was actually OK after the initial flare but a year later it got wayyy worse and im still working on recovery. but ERP works - you just have to keep on top of it

@scarecrowman571 @scarecrowman571 Look mines a totally different story to yours, I walked home drunk and I’m worried I done something to a random female when walking home, since the next afternoon I’ve struggled ever since, when you believe you may of raped someone your life changes you become fearful of everything and for me life has never been the same, I’ve looked at videos and pictures before that night and think how happy I was before it and ever since that night I look at it like I haven’t been truly happy since that at all, I wake up I don’t want to be here unless I own up to it and pay the price, what caused your flare up do you know or was it just randomly?

@ Anonymous giving into compulsions without knowing i was doing it. started with confessing then googling, reassurance seeking, mental review, rumination, self punishment - you name it. you have to quit these and starve the OCD

@scarecrowman571 Oh right similar compulsion glad we found eachother on this app haha, you’ve helped me massively

@ Anonymous glad to have helped! you are not alone - make sure to see an ERP therapist if you can. recovery is very much possible!! :)

@scarecrowman571 I’ll try, did you feel like you was going to get judged when you spoke out I thought I was an absolute creep

@ Anonymous yes 100% but the therapists have heard it all before :)

@scarecrowman571 Okay I will try, I had a therapist soon but wasn’t for me, how you doing now or do you constantly think about it

@ Anonymous not constantly mainly when i get triggered. but then it's all about response prevention- the thoughts are not the problem, our reactions to them are

@scarecrowman571 I think about mine constantly it’s like hell

@scarecrowman571 I feel I should be in prison

@ Anonymous ERP will help with that

@scarecrowman571 Okay thankyou

@LillyX They are 100% the worst, what’s your theme etc if you don’t mind me asking? I genuinely believe I done mine what shall I do please?