- Date posted
- 1y
Health ocd, Im freaking out
Because is controlling my life
Because is controlling my life
Hey sorry to hear this, I struggled with health ocd for years. Rachelsocdgrotto on instagram has a lot of helpful health anxiety content.
I have a health fear as well. I HATE being sick especially throwing up, so when I throw up, everything I did that day needs to be retraced to make sure it wasn’t anything I did. I ALWAYS wash my hands before I eat, I ALWAYS wash my hands when I get home, I never fall asleep in clothes I wore outside. My bed is my “clean space” and it overwhelms me with fear when there’s bugs or something dirty in my house. What helped me most, was trying to figure out a way to look at the positive things of dirt. Your immune system gets better, that’s something.
Thnx, right now for Me is hard as Im experiencing some physical symptoms like pelvis pain, irregular menstruations, Ibs and also sweating. I have been checked, colonoscopy, ultrasound and gyneacologists, all looked normal. My doc wants Me to do a contrast ct scan and Im very affald of THE radiation and its effects, at THE other side I want to know what is going on with this pain. So in a Big dilemma that gives Me a huge anxiety
So my OCD got that bad to the point where I’m barely having ocd and my body is stuck in stress, I can’t sleep, my mind is soo loud and my chest hurts and my vains are popping out and I feel like my body is shutting down what do I do ☹️ I don’t even feel like I am here I can’t focus on anything I’m always zoned out
I feel like my life isn't my own anymore. I live by OCD's rules. I can't ever switch it off. I spend most of my day mentally reviewing and constantly checking myself. I have to do things in a certain way or i dont feel safe. All this time that i've lost and for what? Idk how I let thoughts have so much power over my life and yet here I am. Every day. I can't even get away from it in sleep because i have dreams about it and I wake up anxious if i manage to get any sleep at all. I'm so over it all.
Anyone willing to share there health ocd story with me? I’m really struggling with mine and would like to relate to someone and maybe talk about it. Thanks in advance. I’m new here.
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