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- 1y
Health ocd, Im freaking out
Because is controlling my life
Because is controlling my life
Hey sorry to hear this, I struggled with health ocd for years. Rachelsocdgrotto on instagram has a lot of helpful health anxiety content.
I have a health fear as well. I HATE being sick especially throwing up, so when I throw up, everything I did that day needs to be retraced to make sure it wasn’t anything I did. I ALWAYS wash my hands before I eat, I ALWAYS wash my hands when I get home, I never fall asleep in clothes I wore outside. My bed is my “clean space” and it overwhelms me with fear when there’s bugs or something dirty in my house. What helped me most, was trying to figure out a way to look at the positive things of dirt. Your immune system gets better, that’s something.
Thnx, right now for Me is hard as Im experiencing some physical symptoms like pelvis pain, irregular menstruations, Ibs and also sweating. I have been checked, colonoscopy, ultrasound and gyneacologists, all looked normal. My doc wants Me to do a contrast ct scan and Im very affald of THE radiation and its effects, at THE other side I want to know what is going on with this pain. So in a Big dilemma that gives Me a huge anxiety
It started when I became an adult, and started receiving my mental health diagnosis. I hyper fixated on each and every action I did and how it could be related to my diagnosis’s. It then lead to fixation to my physical health — making appointments and seeing every specialist I can to rule out every possibility. I currently have been suffering with obstructive sleep. I woke up the past few days with severe pain from the lack of sleep whilst believing I was oversleeping. Luckily my fit watch tracks my sleep cycle and it turns out I am not receiving any sleep. I had an extreme panic attack — bursting into tears on the phone with my mom wondering what this case might be. She told me it could be sleep apnea and that a simple sleep study could figure this out. However, knowing my family history I made appointments to every specialist I can to make sure it is nothing serious. The unknown of health can be scary to me. Watching my mother suffer with her physical health chronically since I was a child lead me to be very conscious and aware of how my body is functioning. This morning was one of the worst moments of physical pain. I should just take one step at a time with the sleep doctor instead of taking measures to see every specialist that could pertain with this issue. However, that is very hard to me. I don’t want to ever wake up in the pain I was this morning. Does anyone else suffer with health-related OCD? And if so, how do you find a sense of ease during moments like I expressed?
I'm having awful stomach pain and nausea and it's really worrying me and scaring me
I started dealing with OCD when I became fixated on health issues, particularly the fear of contracting a life-threatening disease. If I experienced any kind of medical symptom, no matter how small, that even remotely hinted at something potentially fatal, it would drive me crazy, and I couldn’t stop obsessing over it. Then one day, I started having intrusive thoughts about accidentally hitting someone with my car, and I would end up driving in circles to check if I had. Eventually, I found myself overwhelmed by a flood of new obsessive thoughts and compulsions. One day, while I was at the park, a squirrel came near me, and for some reason, I felt like it attacked me. I Googled it and learned that squirrels could carry rabies, which spiraled me into a deep fear of rabies. I became consumed with the thought I received a bite from a squirrel, raccoon, or bat any time I’m in areas that trigger me. It started off only being inside then transferred to even being in my own home. This made me obsess over every physical sensation in my body, compulsively checking to make sure nothing was wrong. One compulsion that I hated the most would to be putting rubbing alcohol on me to make sure that I had no open wounds. Every day feels like I’m walking around in a fog of anxiety, constantly worrying that I won’t even make it to old age. Sometimes, it gets so overwhelming that I just want it all to end. It stresses me so bad at times to where my brain feels like I’ve been studying all day.
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