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i relate it this so much you have no idea. i have always had to take medication for a bunch of stuff and like you, i used to take pride in that because it made me unique. then i got older and things became a little more clear to me. i started to realize things and make sense of everything. i was maturing. but with this came a lot shame towards me taking meds. i would cry to my parents and ask why i was the one that needed to take these stupid meds. i just wanted to be “normal”. i wanted to act normal without taking them. i wanted to think normal. i want to be NORMAL. but, this is my normal. there is no changing that. i’ve had to ask myself, would you rather struggle a lot more than you are now and NOT take the meds or take the meds and feel a lot better?
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hopefully i gave some helpful insight ?
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I’ve always looked at it as the medicine is helping me right now as I try and continue to point my life in the right direction. I can’t tell you how YOU should feel, but I look at it as its something that’s part of my life to help me live to my life to the fullest potential. No different than diabetics who need insulin, or people who need to take medications for heart issues. Crazy would be doing nothing to try and help you lessen your disorder.
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It's not your fault your brain chemistry is abnormal,you didn't do something bad to feel embarrassed,ocd brains are abnormal there's nothing wrong in trying to correct that
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I used to be so embarrassed and was truly in denial until recently. I just decided to embrace it, since there’s no changing it
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17f My ocd is hell on earth so I'm thinking about going to a psychiatrist maybe they will prescribe me meds cause my POCD is a torture and other themes are bad also But I'm scared that if I start taking meds I will become less cautions about looking at kids and interacting with kids and will do something fucked up and wrong Cause now I can't even look at kids I feel like it's morally wrong like if there is a chanse I'm a P and I'm scared meds will get rid of me being so so cautious around kids making sure I'm not aroused I'm not looking at them I'm not touching them and I will do something fucked up and then I won't deserve any redemption
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