- Username
- Fionashine
- Date posted
- 5y ago
i relate it this so much you have no idea. i have always had to take medication for a bunch of stuff and like you, i used to take pride in that because it made me unique. then i got older and things became a little more clear to me. i started to realize things and make sense of everything. i was maturing. but with this came a lot shame towards me taking meds. i would cry to my parents and ask why i was the one that needed to take these stupid meds. i just wanted to be “normal”. i wanted to act normal without taking them. i wanted to think normal. i want to be NORMAL. but, this is my normal. there is no changing that. i’ve had to ask myself, would you rather struggle a lot more than you are now and NOT take the meds or take the meds and feel a lot better?
hopefully i gave some helpful insight ?
I’ve always looked at it as the medicine is helping me right now as I try and continue to point my life in the right direction. I can’t tell you how YOU should feel, but I look at it as its something that’s part of my life to help me live to my life to the fullest potential. No different than diabetics who need insulin, or people who need to take medications for heart issues. Crazy would be doing nothing to try and help you lessen your disorder.
It's not your fault your brain chemistry is abnormal,you didn't do something bad to feel embarrassed,ocd brains are abnormal there's nothing wrong in trying to correct that
I used to be so embarrassed and was truly in denial until recently. I just decided to embrace it, since there’s no changing it
I’ve been feeling a lot of guilt surrounding my OCD. I feel as if I’m failing my family and that I’m just a burden to everyone because of it. I recently started Prozac again and that only makes me feel worse. I’m 17 and I’m an only child. I hate that my parents’ only daughter is crazy. I don’t know if I’m becoming depressed but I’m too embarrassed to bring it up to anyone. I don’t want to draw anymore attention.
How can I accept that I may need medication for the rest of my life? Some background: I have several family members with OCD, my paternal grandmother and one of my cousins on my dad's side. I had anxiety issues from really early on as a kid, particularly around health related stuff. I would clean little cuts frequently, small things like that. Other than that, I never felt majorly affected. That changed when I was 19, a few months after I gave birth to my son. I started having obsessions rooted in hypochondria, like that I might have some disease, or that myself and/or those I love would get some horrible illness and die. I was diagnosed and started taking Prozac at 21 years old. I'm now 27. Medication works incredibly well for me. I have no side effects, I function totally normal when medicated. But I've gone off medication like 5 or 6 times just to see if I'm finally okay, and without fail, I relapse (which is happening to me right now, and yes, I've restarted my meds.) My OCD thoughts don't want to accept this though, and I'm being thrown all kinds of thoughts like what if someday the world falls apart and I don't have access to medicine? Or what if I take it for years and years, just to someday find out that it gave me brain cancer or insertdiseasehere? Does anyone have any tips for accepting medication as a necessary part of my life?
Does medication help calm down OCD? I feel like I may need to be medicated for a while, but maybe I just don't try hard enough and I am worried medication will change me. Does anyone have any input on this?
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