I can’t stop crying. I can’t stop ruminating. I can’t get over the false attraction. It is all so painful. I just want to feel like myself again. Are there any other lesbians on here who have ocd???
I imagine this experience must be uniquely hard for people who are LGBT since pride in one’s identity seems like an important part of the community. A coping strategy I use is to embrace uncertainty is to remind myself that I don’t have to be certain to pursue what makes me feel comfortable or “like myself”. Something you could say to yourself is, “I may not feel sure of my sexuality and I may change my mind, but right now, being a lesbian makes me feel more comfortable so that’s the identity I’ll use.”
I’m a lesbian with OCD, and while my type is a bit different, I do want to let you know that it’s okay to not be okay. It took me a long time to find someone who made me feel grounded and okay with the person I am, mental illness and all. I wish you warm and comforting thoughts this holiday. ❤️🫂
@NajikaSun Thank you so much 🥹 I really do hope I find my person soon. It’s so hard going through this alone because I’ve explained it to others and all I’ve gotten was “sexuality is fluid” and I’m like… no. But I wish you a really beautiful holiday! ❤️
We are in the same boat, Everything that I was little by little has been lost, my head does whatever it wants, support for you, you are not alone
@Carlos A You re gay guy ?
@star1232 Nop, straight
Hey! I’m a bisexual woman and I have sexual orientation and relationship ocd. I just wanted to let you know that you’re not alone, you’re valid and your intrusive thoughts do not take away from your queerness! An erp phrase that I love to use is “i’m allowed to experience my sexuality without an agenda”. Hope this helps!
Can we have a talk please ?
@star1232 Ofc
@Vee <3 Where please ?
Baby just be strong, I know it hard to be around people, but find someone to talk to whenever you feel anxiety and stress. It help. But trust me I understand,be strong. It's really a mind thing. Zyprexa and Zoloft help me a lot, look in to it.
It feels like I’m lying to myself constantly and everyone. There feels like there is a weight on my heart from the moment I wake up till I go to sleep. I don’t want to be gay. Idk why it doesn’t register. Now everyone I see I have to see if I’m attracted to them. I see good looking men and I feel like I’m lying to myself that they are good looking, I see women and I see if im attracted to them. I look at everyone and I feel jealous. I want my fucking life back. But now my OCD (if this is even OCD) is telling me I was never happy and I was always suppressing my feelings of being gay. Why is this happening? Can OCD do this? I can’t enjoy anything ever.
hey guys, i’m almost fully healed in my socd journey but what’s stopping me is the false atractions. i get them almost 24/7 at this point and to every thing. they feel real and i hate them they make me feel disgusted. they also make me feel like hot and gross but then i see people saying thats what attractions feel like, but i have felt so much attraction to the opposite gender pre all of this and it felt nice and enjoyable not digustinf. i’m also getting false memory trying to show me ‘signal’ from my childhood to prove i’m gay amd i truly don’t know if they’re real. it’s so degrading and at this point i feel like govining up. pelesse if you have any advice or even if your going through the same thing just let me know. ocd is so terrible
I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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