I can’t stop crying. I can’t stop ruminating. I can’t get over the false attraction. It is all so painful. I just want to feel like myself again. Are there any other lesbians on here who have ocd???
I imagine this experience must be uniquely hard for people who are LGBT since pride in one’s identity seems like an important part of the community. A coping strategy I use is to embrace uncertainty is to remind myself that I don’t have to be certain to pursue what makes me feel comfortable or “like myself”. Something you could say to yourself is, “I may not feel sure of my sexuality and I may change my mind, but right now, being a lesbian makes me feel more comfortable so that’s the identity I’ll use.”
I’m a lesbian with OCD, and while my type is a bit different, I do want to let you know that it’s okay to not be okay. It took me a long time to find someone who made me feel grounded and okay with the person I am, mental illness and all. I wish you warm and comforting thoughts this holiday. ❤️🫂
@NajikaSun Thank you so much 🥹 I really do hope I find my person soon. It’s so hard going through this alone because I’ve explained it to others and all I’ve gotten was “sexuality is fluid” and I’m like… no. But I wish you a really beautiful holiday! ❤️
We are in the same boat, Everything that I was little by little has been lost, my head does whatever it wants, support for you, you are not alone
@Carlos A You re gay guy ?
@star1232 Nop, straight
Hey! I’m a bisexual woman and I have sexual orientation and relationship ocd. I just wanted to let you know that you’re not alone, you’re valid and your intrusive thoughts do not take away from your queerness! An erp phrase that I love to use is “i’m allowed to experience my sexuality without an agenda”. Hope this helps!
Can we have a talk please ?
@star1232 Ofc
@Vee <3 Where please ?
Baby just be strong, I know it hard to be around people, but find someone to talk to whenever you feel anxiety and stress. It help. But trust me I understand,be strong. It's really a mind thing. Zyprexa and Zoloft help me a lot, look in to it.
Does anyone else with SO-OCD struggle with imagining a future partner and checking feelings? That’s been my biggest compulsion, and now I feel like I don’t want to end up with a man someday, or that if I do I’ll feel sad or lonely. I’m also sitting here imagining being with women and I can’t tell if I like the sexual thoughts or not anymore, or if my negative reactions mean anything. My face scrunches and I feel anxious and my temperature rises. I’ve been off this app for a couple weeks but still feeling anxiety pretty steadily. I keep imagining the future and getting this feeling and voice that I’m gay and I need to come out to everyone. It’s distressing and I don’t feel like myself anymore
can someone with this theme help me i’m so scared and i can’t stop having panic attacks is this OCD??? So i always have struggled most with sucicidal ocd and harm ocd. i never really had any other themes. but recently ive struggled with SOOCD. My whole life i have never EVER been into girls ever and i could never even think of ever being with a girl in my entire life. i’m having extreme amounts of anxiety and i have compulsions to make sure i look at a girl and don’t feel anything towards them or anything. My mind is literally going “what if your just in denial” or “what if you’ve just been hiding it all these years” When i know i haven’t. i have all of the symptoms of SOOCD and i still know that im not gay,but these thoughts are extremely distressing and have been the worse to deal with. I’m constantly panicking and doing compulsions to get these thoughts to leave and they won’t. i’m scared and these thoughts are making my mind scared. What if i’m going against my morals and i’m lying to myself like and i just went through a tough breakup too so that is shooting these thoughts and anxiety. Please help omg!!!
It feels like I’m lying to myself constantly and everyone. There feels like there is a weight on my heart from the moment I wake up till I go to sleep. I don’t want to be gay. Idk why it doesn’t register. Now everyone I see I have to see if I’m attracted to them. I see good looking men and I feel like I’m lying to myself that they are good looking, I see women and I see if im attracted to them. I look at everyone and I feel jealous. I want my fucking life back. But now my OCD (if this is even OCD) is telling me I was never happy and I was always suppressing my feelings of being gay. Why is this happening? Can OCD do this? I can’t enjoy anything ever.
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