I can’t stop crying. I can’t stop ruminating. I can’t get over the false attraction. It is all so painful. I just want to feel like myself again. Are there any other lesbians on here who have ocd???
I imagine this experience must be uniquely hard for people who are LGBT since pride in one’s identity seems like an important part of the community. A coping strategy I use is to embrace uncertainty is to remind myself that I don’t have to be certain to pursue what makes me feel comfortable or “like myself”. Something you could say to yourself is, “I may not feel sure of my sexuality and I may change my mind, but right now, being a lesbian makes me feel more comfortable so that’s the identity I’ll use.”
I’m a lesbian with OCD, and while my type is a bit different, I do want to let you know that it’s okay to not be okay. It took me a long time to find someone who made me feel grounded and okay with the person I am, mental illness and all. I wish you warm and comforting thoughts this holiday. ❤️🫂
@NajikaSun Thank you so much 🥹 I really do hope I find my person soon. It’s so hard going through this alone because I’ve explained it to others and all I’ve gotten was “sexuality is fluid” and I’m like… no. But I wish you a really beautiful holiday! ❤️
We are in the same boat, Everything that I was little by little has been lost, my head does whatever it wants, support for you, you are not alone
@Carlos A You re gay guy ?
@star1232 Nop, straight
Hey! I’m a bisexual woman and I have sexual orientation and relationship ocd. I just wanted to let you know that you’re not alone, you’re valid and your intrusive thoughts do not take away from your queerness! An erp phrase that I love to use is “i’m allowed to experience my sexuality without an agenda”. Hope this helps!
Can we have a talk please ?
@star1232 Ofc
@Vee <3 Where please ?
Baby just be strong, I know it hard to be around people, but find someone to talk to whenever you feel anxiety and stress. It help. But trust me I understand,be strong. It's really a mind thing. Zyprexa and Zoloft help me a lot, look in to it.
So my OCD has been bad lately. I’ve been ruminating and obsessing over my sexuality again. And it just keeps getting worse. I hate it so much. I try to sit with the discomfort but then my ocd does the backdoor spike. And the groinal response is what keeps me looped. It SUCKS. I am not attracted to men, but my OCD is trying SO hard to convince me that I am. There have been days where I’m just so mentally exhausted that I “accept” what my ocd tells me and I just walk around a hollow, lethargic shell. But then I rethink it and I feel better. It feels like I can only find my TRUE self when I tire my nervous system out enough that it literally breaks down and has me suicidal and hopeless. And then accepting my OCD’s “truth” (that I’m attracted to men) feels like a burden and a chore. I woke up today from an OCD dream, tried to go back to sleep, and my stomach kept cramping bc I was so anxious and ruminating over my intrusive thoughts. I’m starting to doubt it being OCD anymore. My brain is too tired to fight and cry about it anymore.
having so-ocd has to be the hardest thing ever, and having different sub types pop out after is even harder. i want these thoughts to stop, when i think about ending up with a man i feel like it’s the end of the world, when a sexual or romantic thought about a man pops up i feel like throwing and my stomach hurts. i don’t want to be straight or end up with a man. i know my body knows what it wants and that’s why it’s making me anxious and stressed but i just want this ocd to stop, i miss who i was before this. are there any tips on how to battle SO-OCD and be back to who you were? i was in remission for almost a month and the thoughts that did come i didn’t care for, but it’s back harder this time.
I’ve been dealing with SOOCD for over a year now, and I have been having a very hard day today. I feel like I just need someone to talk too, my whole life I’ve always had girl crushes and always wanted to be romantic with women . Ever since I posted this picture on instagram and one person said I looked “zesty” in it , which is when I started obsessing about being gay . I feel like I put so much meaning to these thoughts where now I’m always checking how I feeling around men. I had a really bad porn addiction for a long time and bad anxiety which fucked up my sex drive. I feel like I doubt if I’m attracted to women when I know I am , but the doubt is so overbearing where I start to believe it . I never was interested in men sexually, and my ocd makes me feel like I like the thoughts even though I feel no pleasure out of it. I feel like I lost who I am as a person . It feels like I don’t even know what my sexuality is and it’s really upsetting to me . I meant this girl the other day and she is the most beautiful woman I’ve ever met and I just feel like ocd is getting in the way😭😭😭 please any advice or comments
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