I had to put my dog to rest today, I loved him so much and he was so loving and affectionate. I miss him so much already, he was like my emotional support animal. He really helped me through some extremely tough times with my OCD, now my intrusive thoughts are ramping up on top of the heart break. Gosh it’s so hard to stay strong when heartbreak happens in life on top of already having the horror of OCD, can anyone relate💔
I went through this almost exactly 1 year ago. It’s getting easier, but my heart is still broken and I find myself struggling without my furry friend. She was everything to me, and she still is, I’m trying to find the good in each day the way she did.
@Alittlebitalexis Thank you, I’m sorry to hear that.
Oh hun, I’m so sorry on your loss. I totally relate when I had a kitty pass away. Grief is as individual as fingerprints . It’s going to take the time it needs. I can’t even image your heartache. I’m sorry your OCD is bothering you during this rough time. Please be gentle with you.
@Nancy C W Thanks I really appreciate it
@Mitch4 🫂🫂🫂
Sorry for your loss, I had my dog put down over a year ago and was with him holding his paw in his last moments, was so so sad. Sending prayers your way, I’m sure your doggy is playing with mine in doggy heaven
@SadUnicorn3 Thank you! I really hope so!
Not to be negative, but today was a really, really rough day. I couldn’t fall asleep till 4 am because of obsessive thoughts last night, and woke up with bad things on my mind. Laid on the couch from 11-5, had a mental breakdown for which I probably would’ve been hospitalized if the coronavirus didn’t scare my parents. I feel like I’ve had so much stress from OCD that my brain just gave up on me today, and I feel like I can’t find my personality or sense of self. I truly feel like something inside me died today, and I’m worried I won’t ever be the same. Does anyone have any experience with this feeling, or have the slightest idea what I should do?
I got diagnosed with ocd recently from my therapist after having years of symptoms since I was a toddler and recently I have had a terrible dream with beastiality in it about 3 months ago and I woke up and cried. I went through the day as usual and then I told one of my friends and I sobbed because that is the last thing I have ever thought about in my life. Luckily my friend was there for me, but then the OCD kicked in. I’ve been having horrible thoughts and I’m scared, I don’t want to do anything to animals never have I ever had thoughts of such. I have two pit bulls that are my sweet babies and I have never had thoughts of anything to do with beastiality in my whole life and now I’m 20 just now being scared of this. It has been the worst ocd obsession I have had in a long time the last one I had lasted 3 years. I’ve been wanting to lock myself in my room and not look at my dogs because I’m afraid to even let them sleep in my room anymore. I stay up all night sometimes because I’m scared I’ll see another dream. My mind is starting to make think I want those thoughts and I’m so scared I’m tearing up whole typing this. I’ve been contemplating suicide because of this fear of doing sexual acts to an animal I would rather not live. I hate living like this and it has been hard to sleep with my partner because now I’m afraid to have intercourse which I have always been able to do with my partner no problem. But now the beastiality OCD has ruined my life and I don’t know what to do.
I’m going through the worst ocd flare up , I can’t stop crying and feel like I’m the worst person in the world and that no one understands how it makes me feel and how I feel so alone and that I’m a horrible person. Why do I feel like everything I’ve done makes me the worst unlovable person. Why is it when I pray I’m still so sad and nothing get fixed so I can be happy. I just want to be happy and at peace and stop having these intense overpowering thoughts. I know they say it’s best to sit with the thought until it passes instead of trying to direct my self but it just won’t go away and I’m trying hard to let it pass but something will always remind me of it and bring me right back to square one. I’m just so miserable that this is my life and thought process every single day😪
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