OCD and ADHD coexisting? Anyone else?

@jamiedupriest Yes all of the time! I feel like if I’m not cleaning the house or doing something physically I get panicked because I’m scared the intrusive thoughts will start. It hasn’t been this bad since I was in college- roughly 10 years ago. It almost destroyed our relationship. I’m honestly surprised we made it. But now we are married, have a home and a 20 month old daughter. We have so much more to lose and I’m so scared sometimes. Like if I let an intrusive thought go im scared my brain will try and think of something else. One of my compulsions is confessing things to my husband. Some of them are very hurtful. I think that’s why I’m so scared. Also I don’t think this app allows private messaging :(

@Ashhh91 I know for myself ,my childhood and my previous marriage are huge factors. Do u fins that also? Again, I'm not sure what we are allowed to say or not to trigger others. So if I do, I apologize. I do understand and live that myself.

@jamiedupriest Do you mean like huge factors that trigger your ocd? And no you aren’t triggering me. I’m okay currently, I appreciate you considering that tho! I had a really bad childhood. I won’t go into too much detail because I also dont want to trigger you but it did involve some heavy things. I think it’s contributed to the way I am. Especially the major depressive disorder I’ve been diagnosed with. I just feel so messed up all of the time and feel like my husband can find someone who’s normal…at least more normal than I am. I barely have any self esteem so that definitely doesn’t help

@Ashhh91 Oh me too. I was single for many yes before I got married again.. I worked on myself.but then I found him telling other woman disgusting things online . Anyhow there went my self esteem. Which was destroyed as a kid. It's just crazy how much we carry with us. Do u take medication that help u at all? Are u able to sleep? What helps u get your mind somewhat in order? Are or have u been in therapy? I know it's alot to divulge. If I cross a line I apologize. Since we are so very similar I wonder what helps u might help me and vice versa.

@jamiedupriest Oh wow! So your ex was telling people online nasty things? That’s horrible! I’m so sorry you had to go thru that :( oh geeeze I can probably name off a grocery list of different medications Ive been on. I’ve tried anti depressants, etc. I can’t help but wonder if I’m even meant to be on adderall? Like it helps my mood so much but around 6:00 pm everyday I get like in such a negative mood. My therapist said I probably need to be on something like Busiprone to combat the “comedown” of adderall. I’m just so tired of feeling this way. Sleep is an issue too. I’ve tried zzzquil, melatonin, etc nothing helps. That could also be because of the adderall. The gym I feel like really helps me but also is a trigger for intrusive thoughts if that makes sense? The need to confess to my husband is typically involving other men. No need to apologize. It’s honestly so nice to be able to talk to someone who can relate

@Ashhh91 I'm still married to him. So my BPD is a real struggle. Which causes anxiety, and then the ocd comes in.. plus I'll be 50 in July and starting menopause. So all those combined is a true joy.. 🙄 I have started doing the diamond pictures. I can keep some thoughts under control. I take Lamictal for bipolar and that seems to help. It's just such a struggle. All of it.. I'm sorry u go through what u do. And feel how u feel. As far as cleaning the house I feel like I'm gonna be in trouble if I don't. Then that causes me to shut down. And then I feel like a failure. Then I'm ready to pull my hair out and sit in my thoughts about not being good enough . And sometimes I do the opposite. I just clean in a frenzy and can't stop. Usually one extreme or the other. It's alot. But we can get through this. Even if it's a min at a time. We have to remind ourselves of our worth. And know that the things we tell ourselves are not true and need to be more gentle with how we talk to ourselves. I keep trying everyday. Some are better than others. Some I'm bedridden and others I'm on top of the world.. and thoughts go crazy along the way.. but we got this..we can do this..

@jamiedupriest I’m so sorry. I hate you’re going thru so much. It’s so nice to be able to have someone to talk to that listens. I don’t know if this is allowed but feel free to reach out to me anytime: ashleydaylight42@gmail.com is my email.