I was feeling suicidal the other day because I was feeling doubtful about myself and other people. That was scary. I was actually thinking about dying even though death or ending things are scary to me
Hello, is there something I can help you with? What doubts are you having? What OCD thoughts are you struggling with? I'm glad you didn't harm yourself I promise things will get better it just takes some work and time. The more I resist compulsions and accept uncertainty the easier it is for me to ignore my thoughts. The thoughts still some but they are quiet and there isn't anxiety attached to them. There is a YouTube channel called OCD and Anxiety that has helped me and I'm working with a therapist to do ERP. If you haven't yet please talk to a therapist so you can start your road to recovery.
This has happened to me. Listen to “ power in the name of Jesus by Tasha cobbs” over and over again
There's people here who want to care for you.
@Someone99 Hey, is there a way we could message or email? I want to talk to you when my ocd freaks out
@Ishil Absolutely. Do you currently use any apps? I'll reply with my info to keep yours private 🙂
@Someone99 Yes
@Someone99 Which app should I use?
@Ishil I currently have telegram
@Ishil I'm @Mavh99 on telegram. See if that works, if not we'll try another one. 🙂
@Someone99 Okay thanks :)
If you’re suicidal please get help immediately. Here’s some resources: (800) 784-2433; (800) 273-8255
I keep having a terrible feeling that I am going to die or I need to die. Almost as if my brain is telling me I need to kill myself. It’s hard to tell if I really want to do something like that. I know it’s wrong and I wouldn’t want to leave or upset my family. These feelings send me into an immediate spiral. My body starts having hot flashes and I start shaking pretty bad. I know my body is just reacting to thoughts. Does anyone else experience similar feelings/thoughts like this? I’m absolutely terrified everyday and don’t know what else to do. I recently started Fluvoxamine 50 mg 2 weeks ago and was put back on Abilify 2mg. I started the Abilify 3 days ago. I don’t feel anything as of yet.
TW: SEWERSLIDE WARNING I’m scared to continue living because I don’t want the worst to happen. The worst being me discovering I’m a sociopath, pedophile, ephebophile etc… I have people I don’t want to disappoint. I keep looking for an excuse/something wrong with me so that I can decide whether I want to continue living or just end my life and save myself from the embarrassment of my loved ones finding out. At the same time I’m afraid to die. I feel like I’m not making a lot of progress in therapy. The only thing keeping me going right now is the thought that maybe one day I will find out that I’m not a creep, a sociopath &/or an ephebophile. At the same time living everyday is hard with all this looming over me. Some days I feel like I can continue no &’s ifs or buts. Other days I feel like im my own cheerleader & i am actually this bad person i think i am. I am so confused. Yesterday this thing came up where i suddenly find myself thinking a 17 yr old actor is attractive mind you im 21 yrs old.. idk if this is arousal nonconcordance or what it is honestly..I’m just afraid that it says something about who I am.. maybe that’s why I like guys my age with smaller bodies because it reminds me of a younger person??? Idk
I usually would say I’ve never been depressed , but recently in my life since my anxiety/ocd has been so bad and having relationship problems I’m feeling kinda sad / stressed. I keep getting scared of being depressed I keep having intrusive thoughts of “ you’d would be better off if you weren’t living” “ I don’t wanna live if it’s like this” and it’s just scaring me 😞
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