I know I shouldn’t, but is there any chance I can get some reassurance or some talking to. I just had the scariest thought and it sent me into panic

I don’t know if I’m going insane or this is all existential ocd. Or depression, but pretty much my fear centers around existence and insanity. I can’t shake the thought that I’m living in some far off dream or different dimension and it terrifies me. Like gives me the worst panic attacks ever. My brain does everything to make me believe it. I get a feeling of unreality too. I’ll be hanging out with friends and get this feeling and I start freaking out I’m on the verge of insanity. I’m scared I’m going to snap and lose control and I panic so hard. The thought is so scary. Is it a delusion or intrusive thought? I so badly want this to be a physical problem. I took a b12 deficiency test and read it can cause this. I’m really hoping that it’s all physical because I can’t handle this mentally. The panic is so hard

I just want to see my life as a 40 year old and see everything being okay. Successful, married, loving, and happy

I just want my old life back. I live in constant fear and depression. My parents have never been around mental illness so they only think you need to work on succeeding in life and be somebody and that will cure you. I know it’s partially true, but every time I try to my thoughts get in the way. Then I have one that’s so bad that I think I’m losing it and I panic. The most recent one which was the worst of them is that I’m really in a dream within a dream and I’m so far from reality and don’t realize it (sorta like inception) The thought came out of no where and absolutely terrified me. It gave me one of the worst panic attacks I’ve ever had. It literally felt like I was fainting. I’ve been diagnosed panic disorder and ocd. It usually centered around schiz ocd, but now it’s existential. I think existential because of my fear of going crazy. My brain pretty much goes “okay, let’s see how deep of a thought I can come up with to terrify you and push you over the limit.” It scares me because I think this has gotta be how people lose their minds. And it literally sucks. I used to be a deep thinker, but it never scared me. I hate this fucking illness. If I can make it into an entity I’d beat the living shit out of it for ruining so many good years of my life

Hey! I’m dealing with the same thing and I 100% get it. That obsession gives me the worst panic reactions: shaking, wanting to vomit, feeling dizzy, feeling like I’m losing my mind... yesterday I did for the first time what I never thought I could do: I did a huge ERP session about it (I’ve been avoiding it for years) and I really thought I was gonna collapse / die / enter another dimension of reality, believe me, but my boyfriend guided me through the ERP, making sure I was focusing on all of those thoughts that I fear without engaging in compulsions (reassurance, avoidance, checking my phone, which relaxes me...). After two excruciating hours, more or less, the anxiety subsided and I went from a 9/10 in anxiety to a 3/10. So it definitely works!!! Give it a try. It’s so hard and so tiring, but it’s the only way out of this. We can overcome this together!

What’s wrong

Right now my whole body is tingling even my head. I feel I’m having a seizure

You are definitely not having a seizure. You would know. Tingling is a normal side effect of a panic attack. It sounds like this is anxiety... can you calm or distract yourself? If a B12 pill would make you feel better, start taking one a day. And if they’re close friends, tell them your worry and ask them to keep you distracted. Sounds like you’re just spiraling, you’ll get through this though, promise.

What was your erp?

How are you now? I’m going through something similar